Love Hurts Us,Breaks Us, and Makes Us Stronger

I love Skylar. I never thought it was possible to love someone as much as I love her. She was so cute when she was sleeping too. The calmness over her. Her innocence that she no longer had seemed to be back while she slept. Laying next to the most amazing girl and cuddling with her was the best feeling in the world. Twisting her soft, smooth, ginger hair between my fingers everything hit me that this is the girl I'm going to spend the rest of my life with. Glad she's the girl I asked to marry me.

"I love Jordon.... leave me alone!" Skylar said in her sleep. Aww I wonder what she's dreaming about. "Mmm.
" She said stretching and slowly opening her eyes.

"Good morning sleepy head," I said smiling at her and kissing her forehead.

"Good morning baby," she smiled back at me. Whenever her sweet angelic voice called me baby I got all warm inside.

"What did you dream about honey," I asked stroking the amazing soft hair of hers.

"Oh... someone I didn't know was trying to do bad sexual things to me and I was just like 'no I love Jordon' and yea. I love you Jordy," she said softly kissing my lips.

"Well Sky, I hope you know I'd never let anything bad happen to you and if anybody ever tries touching you I'll beat their ass."

"I know Jordy, I'm glad you care that much about me," she smiled as I pulled her in for a hug. Even just hugging her felt so amazing to me. She was perfect in every way. How she doesn't see that I don't know. Every little thing about her tells a story, every single one of her scars has its own story. From the way her childhood was I don't blame her for feeling like it was something good. I then grabbed her wrist and kissed each and every one of the scars on her wrists.

"What was that about?" She asked me confused.

"I want you to realize I never want you to harm yourself like this again. You need to know that even though you have these scars you are the most beautiful girl in the world. The scars are what helped turn you into the Skylar-Grace I know and love. These scars of yours are what brought us so close together." I stroked my thumb across her scars.

"I knew all of that already Jordy, it's just you've never sat and kissed all my scars before. No one has. Most guys just played it off like they didn't notice but I knew they noticed because how can you not notice so many scars on someone," tears were starting to form in her eyes, "it just means so much that you care enough to establish that you know they are there and to take the time to kiss every single one of them."

"I love you. I love you more than anything in this world. I love everything about you SG. You have the most beautiful personality, the most gorgeous smile, the bluest, prettiest eyes, just everything about you is perfect to me," I put my hand to hers and interlocked our fingers. I couldn't help but smile as I looked at that ring I had placed on her left ring finger. She deserved the best of everything and that ring was the best they had.

"I love you for you. Not your fame or any of that. I love Jordon Terrell who I fell in love with freshman year before you were famous. I prefer Jordon over Charlie any day," she smiled I knew it was because she couldn't reference any of us to our stage names without feeling weird about it. "I feel so weird referring to you as Charlie. It's just weird. Must be how Hannah Montana's boyfriends felt," she laughed her cute little laugh.

"You're a dork," I said poking her adorable little nose and laughing.

After maybe an hour of just laying in bed next to each other Skylar got up to take her shower and I walked out by the guys.

"Hey guys we need to talk before Skylar gets out of the shower." I stated concerned.

"About what?" Jay asked.

"If SG can't hear I take it, it involves her," Danny said.

"And it doesn't seem like it's good," Dylan stated.

"What's going on Jord?" George asked.

"Sky's cutting herself again," I said just above a whisper with tears forming.

"Wait... what?" Matt asked, "I thought she stopped."

"She did... she started again within the last week." The tears were starting to fall.

"But there are no more scars on her wrists," Dylan said still confused.

"Where's she cutting then if it's not her wrists?" George asked.

"Her pelvic area.... last night I saw the new scars." I cried even more.

"People cut in places other than their wrists?" Matt asked sounding like a total idiot.

"Yes dipshit. Some people don't wanna be found out," Jay said harshly.

"I just don't get why she would be cutting again," I said.

At that exact moment we all heard Skylar yell from the bathroom. "Oww! Fuck, fuck, fuck! Too deep! Stop! Stop bleeding!"

Danny, Jay, and I all ran in to try and help. There was a lot of blood. "Matt! Call 9-1-1!" I yelled with concern filling my voice, "George! Get the bus to stop! Dylan, get something we can tie tightly around Sky's waist!" I shouted as fear began to overcome me. I could tell the love of my life was beginning to lose consciousness. "Please baby girl, please don't leave me. Not now, not yet. It's too soon for you to go," I cried as tears fell from my face onto her body.

"I-I love you Jordon," were the last words she could say before she lost consciousness.

"No, baby, please baby!" I yelled feeling like everything I ever cared about was gone. She still had a pulse which was good but it was starting to slow. I couldn't help but push the towel on her harder. Whatever it took to stop the bleeding I did. I heard Dylan telling the paramedics that we were in the bathroom.

"Move it, move it!" The paramedics yelled at the three of us who were all crying. Skylar was a huge part of our group. What were any of us gonna do without her? She was closest to Jay, Danny and I. Her and Danny were like brother and sister. Jay and her gave each other the advice that no one else could. Skylar-Grace Nicole Anderson was my other half. She completed me.

"Can I come with?" I asked the paramedics as they placed her in the ambulance.

"What's your relation?" They asked back.

"I'm her fiance, please?"

"Sure don't touch anything."
On the ride to the hospital with both buses following I told the paramedics the whole story of what happened. I sat watching her heart monitor as I told. It was starting to come back up, thank the Lord. Now if only she gained consciousness again. I saw her eye lids start to flutter at that moment. My baby was coming back. I wasn't gonna lose her.

"Baby? Wh-where am I?" She asked looking around then to me, then the paramedics, and back at me with pleading eyes.

"You're in an ambulance, you cut yourself too deep and bled a lot." I said as tears fell, "You promised me you wouldn't do it again."

"It's an addiction baby!" She exclaimed.

"Shhh calm down baby, calm down," I said trying to calm her down, "I'm not mad Sky I just need you to know I don't want you hurting yourself, I felt like shit and my mind was racing so fast when you passed out from the blood loss. Baby, I need you. Please don't ever do this again. I'm gonna have George or someone throw everything sharp away just so you can't harm yourself." I said grabbing her hand and rubbing my thumb up and down her knuckles.

"I'll try harder not to do it anymore baby," she cried grabbing my hand a little tighter.

Once we arrived at the E.R. they right away pulled her into a room and I filled out the paper work for her. They were giving her blood because of the amount she lost. I love Skylar, I need her to stop doing this.