Sequel: A New Start

Diary Entries

March 27th, 2013

My day has been like any other. Good and bad.
My first class was quite nice, actually. I spent the whole block with Lights. She was happy today! Which made me happy... It was just me and her and at times I wouldn't know what to really say, clearly I can't keep conversations going for long... but it was nice.
My next block was boring. My test had the highest score in the class and I was student of the week! That made me really happy, but then came lunch.
When I said bye to Lights, she said "I'll see you at lunch."
Of course, she didn't even show up to lunch.
In fact, no one did. I'm pretty used to this, you know, people forgetting about me completely, but it hit harder today. I walked to the lunch line and thought out this plan of what I would do for those horrible 30 mins to not look like a lone loser and my friend came over.
His name is Kevin and I used to have a huge crush on him, until I spoke to him! He's actually very goofy. I don't really know how to explain him, but I'm so thankful for his friendship, he has no fucking clue.
He sat with me today and talked my head off, but I didn't mind. I was just happy that someone actually wanted to be around me.
After lunch, I didn't even bother going to the class that I normally go to because I was angry with both Lights and Hayley for leaving me alone. I was also hurt that Lights would just forget about me like that.
I went to a different class and did a bit of work and then went to lunch with Mila since I didn't eat during my lunch break. After that, I decided to go back to Lights and Hayley's classroom to say bye to them before spring break.
Lights gave me a long hug and of course I forgot about the whole lunch thing earlier. Hayley gave me a long hug, too, and I felt like they actually gave a shit about me.
I was alone again in my very last class and that sucked.
Now, I'm home, typing this, with a huge headache and I'm just happy that my Spring Break is starting.
I bet you this whole week will either be great and relaxing, or lonely and sad.
But I hope for the best and prepare for the worst.
And I hope I can go shopping...
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