Nothings Gunna Change My World

Joshua's POV:

What could be the worst news that you've ever heard?

It was a normal day, at first that is. Kevin and I verbally abused each other, until he left and skipped school for his Ultimate Destination aka Charlies house. Which reminds me, should I go and visit? Then Raven, who was pissed off with Kevin because of the whole dealing drug thing, stormed to his house after school. While Alec and I walked home holding hands because were hardcore and amazing.

Alec was horny, but that's normal too. And let me ask you, how the hell can you resist one of the cutest boys on earth pouting, while they feel you up. You cant, which is my point. Which gets me further along one the worst, most shocking things Ive ever heard. Alec and I were making out like the little bunnies we are, making god knows what kind of obscene noises, when Raven walked in with probably the angriest expression ever.

"I DON'T FUCKING GET IT!" We looked up to find Raven shaking with anger. She glared at everything she set eyes on. Then she grabbed the closest thing to her, which was a picture of my parents and threw it against the wall. Alec looked at me. I kissed his cheek and whispered, "Go upstairs, Ill be there in a sec."

He slipped out of my grasp and tiptoed upstairs. I stood up and walked slowly to Raven. She looked at me with an expression of complete loss. "What is it Raven?"

She sighed and avoided my gaze, "Kevin has a girlfriend."

I froze. "A g-girlfriend?"

She nodded. "Yeah."

My eyes widened and I felt my heart stop. "What the fuck?" I whispered. "But, hes gay. I'm pretty fucking certain."

She shrugged. "Apparently not anymore."

Anger rushed throughout my body and I felt an extreme desire to hit something. So, Kevin used me. He was just like I had predicted before our 'relationship'. My eyes narrowed and Raven tactfully stepped away from me. She raised her head and looked me straight in the eyes.

"I also learned from his girlfriend that hes into drugs."

I breathed deeply, trying to calm myself. "I know."

Raven drew in a breath. "You knew he was into drugs?"

I nodded, half listening. Kevin had a girlfriend. Raven took a step towards me. "You knew that Kevin was into drugs?"

"Yes I did."

Her eyes narrowed and she glared at me. "And I bet you got him involved in them as well."

It felt like something stabbed my heart, and twisted the blade. "Not directly." I whispered.

"Oh that's fucking swell Joshua; you indirectly got your ex involved in drugs."

I closed my eyes and tried to block the guilt. "It wasn't my fault."

Raven laughed cynically. "Oh, I suppose it was gods?"

I glared at her. "Fuck you Raven."

She shook her head. "No, fuck you Joshua. You fucked Kevin's life up."

I looked away. "I know." I whispered.

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It was Friday morning and I lay in bed thinking whether or not I should get up and face the reality of the situation. And the reality that I just wanted to forget. I gritted my teeth and got up. I took a quick shower and made myself pretty. I walked downstairs to find, my mom baking muffins. Muffins. What the fuck?

"Mom?"

She turned around and looked at me blankly. "What?"

"Why are you baking muffins?"

She raised her eyebrows and half glared at me. "Do I need a reason?"

I snorted. "No."

I sat down and ate my cereal. She looked at me for a moment. "I'm adopting Raven."

I nodded looking down into my cereal. I was expecting this months ago. She continued to look at me. "You better behave tonight boy, your step father to be will be coming over."

I coughed on my cereal. "What?!"

She narrowed her eyes. "You heard what I said."

I nodded with a stunned expression. She turned back around and continued to bake her muffins. A step father. Holy shit. I should have expected it. But... fuck.

I walked to school feeling really, really weird. Another dad. Whoa. I stumbled into someone short. "Sorry," I mumbled and continued to walk forward.

"Watch were you're going." I turned around to be faced with Kevin and the same short person. I raised my eyebrows. "I said sorry, didn't I?"

Kevin placed an arm around the unknown short person. "Sometimes sorry isn't enough."

The girl raised an eyebrow and looked at Kevin. "Protective?"

Kevin grinned and played with her hair. "Only of you. Plus this guys an ass."

I nearly threw up from his mushiness. "Or are you the ass Kevin?"

Kevin smiled coldly. "No Joshua, I think you're the ass."

I shook my head and stared coldly at him. "I'm pretty fucking certain you're not worth a breath of mine. I'm also pretty fucking certain that I'm not a liar either."

I turned around and walked off to Raven and Alec. Every step I took away from him I felt like I was fading into nothing. It felt like I would never see the Kevin I had loved. I sighed and squared my shoulders to offer a smile and kiss to Alec and a wink to Raven.

After school I was sitting with Raven, Alec, Massie and Jason at the pond which had now been turned into some kind of park. Raven and Jason were cuddling while Massie was randomly talking to them about colors while trying to lure a duck into coming close enough so that she could catch it. Alec was lying on top of me because he claimed that I was squishier than the ground.

"Alec," I whined, "you're as fat as a lady pregnant with twins. Get off!"

Alec grinned evilly. "Well, you're as fat as a pregnant whale and as squishy."

I looked at him with a doubting expression. "You're a bad liar Alec."

He looked at me. "You're worse."

I growled and pushed him off of me. "Am not, fatty fat thighs."

Alec glared at me. "Asshole."

I grinned and lay back down. Soon enough Alec was back on top of me. I felt him make himself dead weight and I sighed. "Massie, get him off me."

She looked as weirdly. "No?"

I huffed. "Bitch."

She threw grass at us. I rolled my eyes and decided to flip us over. Alec squeaked. "Hey!"

I smiled and kissed his lips softly. "You love it."

He smirked and lifted his hips to mine. "Yeah, I do."

I kissed him again. Raven whined and I looked over to them. "What?"

Raven looked at me. "Just keep on making out with Alec."

I stared at her. "Okay?"

Alec pulled my face down to his and so began my display of public affection. Massie called out to Kevin in the distance because the next thing I knew was that Kevin and his girlfriend, I cringed at the thought, sat down near us. I pulled away from Alec and stared down at him with a pained expression. He licked his lips and made a sad face at me. I rolled off of Alec and sat up. Alec immediately afterwards crawled into my lap and kissed my cheek.

I rolled my eyes at him. "Someones affectionate."
He nodded and pouted at me. I pecked him on the lips and he pouted again. I sighed and raised my eyebrows. "Someone wants to get laid."

He looked at me with an expression that said 'are you kidding me?' Massie threw grass at us to catch our attention. "I cant believe that you guys aren't going out Joshua."

I shrugged my shoulders, uncomfortable because Kevin was here. Alec realized this and slid out of my lap to sit next to me. "We're just friends."

Raven snorted and looked skeptical. Alec stuck his tongue out, "With benefits."

The girl who was with Kevin grinned. "You guys are cute."

I cringed inwardly and got up. "I don't want to catch AIDS, lets go Alec."

Alec chuckled and got up next to me. I grinned at Raven and Massie, "See ya, my going-to-be sister and secret lover." Massie rolled her eyes and waved while I winked at her. I grabbed Alec's hand and ran down screaming, "I NEARLY LOVED A WHORE, MOMMY I NEARLY LOVED A WHORE, AM I GUNNA GET AIDS?"

When we stopped I closed my eyes and turned my face to the sky. Booze made me happy.