You'd Be My Sun; You'd Be My Light

Hannah is the greatest friend ever. I had all intentions of just planting myself on the couch all weekend until Jake got back. She always seemed to have something planned for us to do. Just before we were going to watch the race, we went on a food run… and got way too much, but I had cravings! We made it back just in time to see Jake’s heat race… that he won! He even gave me a little shout out during his interview. It made me smile the rest of the night… until he got on the podium and Michelle was next to him again.

I tried to not think about it, but… that’s all that consumed my thoughts! Jake wasn’t coming home till Sunday night either. When Sunday morning came, I told Hannah and Wil that I was just going to go home and wait for him. I ended up curling up in bed and watching movies until I fell asleep. The next thing I knew, I was awoken because I felt movement on the bed. Once my eyes focused, Jake’s smile greeted me.

“Hey,” he grinned and came closer.

“You’re home,” I couldn’t help but smile.

“And someone’s sleepy,” he chuckled quietly as he came over and wrapped his arms around me, holding me tightly against his chest.

“Your child makes me sleepy,” I muttered.

“Go back to sleep then,” he countered and ran his fingers through my hair while planting a few kisses against my forehead. I knew it was nighttime from the dim lighting in the room. But… he just got home and I wanted to spend time with him! It wasn’t happening though. When I did wake up, sunlight was shining through the windows… and I heard Jake’s soft voice… but he wasn’t talking to me.

“No, she’s sleeping…” was what I made out first. “Yeah, this… weekend was amazing,” he went on, making my brow wrinkle up. “Yes, we have to do it again this weekend,” he gave a chuckle… I didn’t like this… Who was he talking to? What’d he do this weekend while I wasn’t there?!

While I lay here, I felt my stomach get queasy. I haven’t had much morning sickness lately since I just entered my second trimester, but… I could only assume that I was just working myself up with this conversation that Jake was having. While it was still going on, I had to rush into the bathroom and empty the contents of my stomach. As this was happening, Jake said he had to go and hung up his phone to rush to my side. He bent down and rubbed at my back… If I weren’t throwing up right now, I would have swatted his hand away! Once I was done, I let out a grunt and leaned against the wall.

“You ok?” he asked gently.

“Fine,” I muttered and pushed myself to my feet to brush my teeth.

“Someone’s moody this morning…” he teased.

I just rolled my eyes and continued to brush my teeth. All I could picture was him talking to Michelle and I… didn’t want to talk to him right now. I had a doctor’s appointment to get ready for… and if he weren’t also getting ready to go with me, I would have called Hannah and asked her to go with me. But here I sat with Jake in his truck… heading towards the doctor’s.

“So…” he broke the silence between us, “What’s going on at this appointment?”

“I don’t know,” I pushed out.

“… No idea?” he glanced over at me.

“I guess we see the baby,” I shrugged… DUH! He’s an idiot…

“When do we find out what it is?” he questioned.

“Fuck if I know,” I grumbled.

“What is with the attitude today?” he countered.

I just rolled my eyes in return and crossed my arms. We didn’t share any more words throughout the rest of our trip. Once he pulled into a parking spot and turned his truck off, I went to get out… only to have him lock the door. I huffed and reached out to unlock it… only to have him lock it once more.

“Jake,” I huffed.

“We’re not going anywhere until you tell me what your problem is this morning. I’ve been gone for the past three days. Why are you pissed at me when you seemed happy to see me last night?” he asked me.

“Well, that was last night,” I muttered.

“Then what the hell did I do this morning?” he kept going.

“Why don’t you ask your ex-girlfriend?” I said under my breath. I didn’t mean to say it, but it just… kind of came out.

“Really?” he obviously heard me.

“I don’t want to talk about it,” I shook my head.

“Why are we still even discussing this?” he sighed and fell back into his seat.

“You just felt the need to tell her that I was sleeping and that you had an amazing weekend and you should do it again in the next one?” I snapped at him.

“What are you…”

“Who were you talking to this morning, Jake?!” I cut him off.

“Seriously?” he glanced over at me… and was obviously trying to hold back a chuckle… and it pissed me off! “It was Dana,” he finally told me… His mechanic. “His wife had a baby not too long ago. He asks about you,” he cleared that up. “And I had an amazing weekend because well… I rode well and… I hope we do that again,” and then that…

“Oh,” was all I said.

“Babe,” he chuckled now.

“Sorry,” I replied quietly as I felt tears gathering in my eyes. This is just awesome! Totally hormonal breakdown before my doctor’s appointment!

Without saying anything, he got out and walked around the front to come and open my door. “Come here,” he spoke and opened his arms for me. I felt bad! I jumped to conclusions and… I’m not… trusting him and I know that can’t feel too good on him, but… damn it! This pregnancy has me all messed up and I’m not handling it very well!

“I’m sorry,” I sniffled against his chest.

“Just talk to me instead of getting a pissy attitude with me,” he chuckled.

“But I’m pregnant! All I am is pissy,” I tried to suck some humor out of this.

“And I still love you,” he let his smile curl across his lips.

“I don’t see how…” I teased.

“Just tell me you love me too so we can kiss and make up,” he chuckled once more

I let out my own giggle before I did tell him that I loved him… and we shared a kiss before I slid out of the truck, letting him lead me inside the building. I still felt bad about it… But we got to see our baby and that just seemed to make everything better between us. We both couldn’t stop smiling. As it moved on the screen, Jake would squeeze at my hand and it was just so precious. My doctor told me that she couldn’t tell for sure, but she thought that baby Weimer was more than likely going to be a girl… and I cried again. But they were happy tears this time!

After everything was through, Jake convinced me to stop and see Wil and Hannah so we could tell them our news in person. On the way, all I could do was stare at the pictures that were printed for us. The one was a perfect silhouette of her facial profile. And then her little hands were raised and it was just so cute.

“That’s our little girl,” I couldn’t hold back once Jake pulled up to Wil’s and looked over at me.

“She’s going to be beautiful,” he replied and reached out to put his hand on my stomach. As we were sharing this moment, he reached out and gave my forehead a soft kiss.

Why do I ever doubt how much he loves me?! I still feel bad for this morning, but… I couldn’t help but let my mind jump to where it did. We made up though. That’s all that matters. We’re ok… for now. But right now, we have some exciting news to tell our best friends.