Stay Forever Please Because It Will Hurt If You Don't

i woke up and he was sleeping next to me i smiled i love how he sleeps....he sleeps like an angel...i got up and he grabbed my arm and i looked and he smiled and he went to my neck and nibbled on it"hey my beautiful Girlfriend"he said and i smiled"hey my handsome boyfriend"i said and he smiled and kissed my lips"it just to good to be true"i said and bit my lip"i'm here...for as long as you want me"he said and pecked kissed my lips and he got up and i smiled"hungry?"i asked and he nodded his head"veggie burgers is all i have that's vegan friendly"i said and he smiled"its okay...a veggie burger sounds great"he said and bit his lip"i'm sorry its just your so cute"he said and he smiled and i smiled"i don't believe you"i said and he smiled"i know...but its true"he said and he grabbed some water and i made him the veggie burger and i made me one too and we sat down and ate...then we went for a walk so i can burn the carbs i just ate"what is your wildest dream?"he asked"to be married at 22"i said and i looked at him"that's just around the corner..."he said and smiled"you said wildest..but the way i'm going i won't be married until almost 30...i'm still a kid even though i'm gonna be 19...so that's the wildest the normal dream is to get married and have kids and fall in love....have a guy who will be there for me"i said and he smiled"in time....maybe...i could be that guy"he said and i smiled"don't say that"i said blushing and smiley"you will give me hope on it"i said"i'm just saying maybe its in our future...i mean look at us getting so close so fast...we are together after what a week without the months we we're apart from each other..."he said"i know what you mean....i guess something that feels so right can get us rushing"i said and he smiled and we walked and talked for awhile...we went back to my place and i was laughing at a joke Damon made and then i saw my dad was here"hey Alicia where were you...you didn't text me"he said"i'm sorry dad i forgot"i said"its fine..at least your okay"he said"hey"Damon said"oh Dad this is Damon Fizzy....my boyfriend"i said and Damon waved and my dad looked at him..my dad knew who Damon Was but he always thought Damon was Gay and fake"hey i'm Alicia's Dad"my dad said"so you have a boyfriend..."he said"yeah"i said"you didn't tell me this.."my dad said calm but had this serious look"are you mad?"i said"no...your 19...you date whoever you want your an adult"he said and i nodded my head hating the word adult"just be careful k"my dad said"and you seem like a good guy so..."my dad said"i'm trusting you know boundaries"my dad said"dad.."i said embarrassed"what?"he said"total respect"Damon said and i can tell Damon was scared of my dad"okay...i'll talk to you later Alicia....i'm going out with my girlfriend"my dad said"okay"i said and Damon nodded his head and my dad kissed my forehead"bye sweetie"my dad said and left and i locked the door"sorry...did he scared you"i said"a little but its okay...had to meet him someday glad its over"Damon said and i smiled and grabbed his hand and brought him to my room and we sat on my bed"so which are you? Daddy's girl?or mommy's girl"he said and i smiled and shoved him"hey"he said and bit his lip cutely and i smiled and looked at my hands on my lap"i'm none....i love them both equally"i said and smiled at him"i lived with my mom most my life...she was always there but you know as you get older you start pushing people away and i pushed her away but its not because i didn't love her...it was just i had issues and i tried not to let her get involved...all she wanted was to love me and be close to me but just wouldn't let her...i don't know why...and for my dad...he's tough...he doesn't try to hard to get me to be close with him and idk...i kinda like the space to breath but then there's so much he doesn't know about me....he doesn't know that i'm depressed and when i try to tell him he just won't hear it...but there's times when he comes around and does this little thing to fix it for awhile....its complicated....its not like how you are with your mom....i'm jealous...you know how to show the love and respect and the thanks she deserves for being there but for me its so hard...and i don't know why"i said about to cry and he hugged me"its fine one day it will come to you"he said and he smiled and i laid down and we looked at each other"you know you have a cute face"i said and he smiled"sure it is"he said and rolled his eyes and i smiled...i like how we are...even though we don't love ourselves we show what love is like with each other...we can make jokes of it and maybe one day we will believe the other when we complement each other for real and he held my hand and i smiled and i looked at him and bit my lip"i like being with you"he said and smiled"i like being with you too"i said and he smiled and i kissed his lips and i bit my lip after and i went on top of him and he looked nervous and i kissed his lips slowly and then i put a hand on each of his cheeks and made out with him slowly our first make out and he was nervous where this might lead but i kept my uges in check and i stopped and he looked at me in the eyes and i smiled and he smiled"that was...majestic"he whispered and i giggled and then i kissed his lips but a peck and i got off of him...he looked at me and smiled"i know this is a random question but.....are you a virgin?"he asked"no...lost it at 16 but i kinda regret it.....because my first time wasn't you"i said and he smiled"if i could be a virgin again...i would for you"i said and smiled at him"its fine that your not...it doesn't change anything between us....just because i am i don't expect you to be or not"he said"same with become a vegan...i don't expect you to turn vegan because i am"he said"cool"i said and smiled and blushed and he smiled"hey"he said and i looked at him and he kissed me again"the past is the past...look into the future"he said and i smiled and he kissed my cheek..."you think your dad is gonna let me stay tonight?"he said and i looked at him"no... probably not"he said and smiled"but...i can stay at your place...if your mom don't mind of course"i said"no...i think she be relived i found a girl finally"he said and laughed and i laughed"so you want to?"he said"yeah i'll text dad and say i'm gonna sleep at your house"i said"do you think that's a good idea?"he said"yeah if your mom is there and i say i'm sleeping on the couch"i said and he smiled"okay"he said and i got my PJ's and put it in my book bag and he grabbed my toothbrush and contact case and glasses and stuff from the bathroom and i put it in my bag and we went to his car and i went with him and we drove there by the time we got there it was almost 1:00am and he fixed the bed and i played with the dogs and i smiled and laugh and then Damon came in the room and knocked to get my attention and i smiled"hey sexy"i said and smiled"yeah right"he said and i stuck my tongue at him and he smiled and i held him and kissed him over and over..."wheres your mom i want to say good night"i said interrupting the kiss and he smiled"she's asleep so shhh"he said and i smiled and kissed him again..."gosh i can kiss those lips forever"i said and bit my lip and he smiled and we went to his room and he gave me some pillows"i know how much you like pillows to help you to go to sleep"he said and i smiled and laughed a little"hey"i said and he looked at me and i hit him with a pillow"oh its on"he said and he hit me back and we had a pillow fight we tried to be quite as possible then he ended up falling on top of me and i laughed and he looked at me and smiled and kissed my lips and then he made out with me my body screaming do it but i let him chose what he really wants and the make out started to speed up and i had to do something to ese the erg..and i started to moan a little the passion of this moment is so intense that kissing is doing as well as sex would feel and he stopped and my breath was unsteady he put his forehead on mine and looked at me"I Love You"he said and my heart skipped when he said that"I Think...i'm in love with you"he said and i smiled and bit my lip"I Love You Too"i said and he smiled and he kissed me a few more times before we went to bed...he went to take a shower and i went to the bathroom to take my contacts off but i didn't look at the shower certain....but before i can take off my contacts"Aly can you pass me a towel?...please"he said and i nodded my head and i got the towel and i took the wrong step and i fell in the shower with Damon i knew it would be really awkward if i see him naked so i covered my eyes by instinct"Aly Are You Alright?"he said worried and he helped my up...now i'm standing in the shower with Damon i still had my hands over my face but he thought i hurt my face and he pulled them away from my face so i closed my eyes"are you okay Aly?"he said"i'm fine...just grab the towel and cover yourself...i'm not aloud to see it yet"i said and he laughed a little"what?"i said and he kissed my lips and i still had my eyes closed"your to cute..."he said"open your eyes i covered up"he said and i did and i looked at his blue eyes and then i looked down and i jumped and covered my eyes again"liar"i said and he smiled"its okay...i'm...okay with it"he said shyly and i smiled and looked at his eyes"i respect you so cover up"i said and he did this time and he nibbled my neck and smiled and he got out and i tooked off my contacts and let him change and i laid down and i looked at his face and he smiled"hey"i said softly and he smiled"hey"he said softly and smiled and i bit my lip"how did i get so lucky?"i said and he smiled"i should ask you that?"he said and i smiled and laughed a little and then i looked at him"Stay Forever Please...Because It Will Hurt If You Don't..."i said and he smiled"I'm not planning to go anywhere..."he said and i smiled and we went to bed and when i woke up the next day he was sleeping like the angel he is.......