Falling Through Stars and Pain

Oh God. How did this happen? When did I start to feel this way? I know this is unrequited love... After all, he doesn't like girls... Why, oh why, oh why me, God? Why HIM? Of all people, how could I have let this happen? When did this start?

Maybe it was when he held me as I cried and listened to my troubles. When he kissed my forehead and whispered into my hair. Was that the turning point for me? I know this can not be. He won't ever feel the same way...

Now, I'm afraid that how I feel will affect the way I act, how I treat him. Will he ever find out? I can't let him know? That would make him feel horrible! I can't do that to him! I also can not suffer in silence....

But when I look at that raven black hair and those loving, hazel eyes, I can't deny what is in my heart. I can't believe how things have changed...