‹ Prequel: My Dad, My World.
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My Dad, My World : The Battle
Find Somebody
The after life… no matter how violent it could get sometimes, it was really quite lovely of a process to
witness. Yes, maybe we all miss the fact that evil is just as present as beauty is when it comes to
getting close to the afterlife, but when dad gives his whole life to both sides, you see that the result is
beautiful more times than none. I would take the evil everyday if it meant creating beauty for a lost one
and his family if not just his peace of mind. They all have their own story. Just like my mom, who was
born a sweet person, who was great in school and excelled on things. Who made bad decisions but
made up for them by picking other people to hang out with. Where she met my dad and got married
and bought a home and had a daughter. She died too young, but she lived a gorgeous life inside and
out and for others.
Today had been bright. The sky was blue and the clouds were puffy. But the unusual thing was the
unseasonal weather that we were having. It felt like fall. Don’t get me wrong, it was that time. Had we
been on the other side of the country, it would've been the start of the leaves falling off the trees.
September was usually still really hot here in vegas. We usually didn't start seeing all the pretty colors
until mid October, mine and dads favorite time of year. Dad and I always went wild with our festivities.
I’m sure we can all remember our party this past year and the negativity that became of that. But for
the most part it was friggin awesome! But I was thinking this year I would be more homey about it. A
little more old fashioned. The list of things in my head all seemed cute. Apple diving, glow in the dark
spiderwebs hanging off the corners of our porch. Bowls of candy with pop up hands in them, streamers
and pumpkin lights. Dad and I would carve jack-o-lanters and put small candles inside. We could
caramelize some apples. I personally wanted to have a family halloween party where we all dressed up
and danced to old music.
The urge to smell pumpkin spice in the air, to feel the crisp breeze, to witness the beauty of falling
leaves, was indescribable. Dad will be so happy. And this year I planned on treating him with pumpkin
pie, his favorite. I missed our times with mom. How she would be a witch every year. How beautiful she
would look with the green makeup smothering her face and hands.
“You look just like your mom.” Dads voice floated to me from the doorway of the kitchen. I looked to
him and saw the pain in his eyes. Sometimes it felt like a burden that I looked like the woman he loved,
like the woman's death he thought he had caused. The fact that there was nothing I could do about it
made it worse sometimes, but I cherished that even though it was hard for him, I knew that seeing her
face everyday lets him know that she's still here. With his proof from Persephone, he was kind of going
mad. I can openly admit that he’s been obsessed with what had happened with us going to a small
corner of heaven. Of course we all know that he wants to figure it out so he can tell the world. But I
think he also knows that if he did they would put his ass in an insane asylum with no trouble at all.
When it comes to angels and demons and thinking they are actually among us…even the uber religious
would throw a fit about him being crazy. I can also assure you all that no matter what dad thinks he’s
figuring out, the workers above us aren’t going to let it slip. It'll be changed or something like that. It’s
heaven after all, who knows what they can and cant do. Considering i’ve only seen a small portion then
I know that much more is to be there. I’ve been to a small place that mimics the rolling emerald hills of
Ireland, and the pastures of lush green that resemble any country meadow, and knowing! that it’s a
SMALL PORTION, it makes me wonder what it looks like in the rest of heaven. I marked that down as a
question to ask Persephone the next time I saw her.
“Yea, I know.” I replied with a frown. He came and sat down next to me, a look of pure dad on his face.
“It’s ok. I know you know. It does hurt. but its ok. Your beautiful and I couldn't ask for a better
daughter.”
“ Thanks dad.” I paused. I wanted to spend time with him. Our throw down at the barn last year was
pretty serious. Dad was still sore and it showed every time he had to pinch his side in pain. And after
not seeing him for several days before it happened when he had went missing, I wanted nothing more
than to spend time with him. Sam had work today so I tried my hardest to find out something I could
do with dad. With all this thinking about halloween…
“Lets go halloween shopping dad. We need to get a head start.” I said and he shook his head in
agreement.
“But I think we should hold back this year you know? Take a different approach.” I added and while on
our way to our local halloween goody store, I explained to him my previous thoughts about going the
cute way, he was excited to get some things.
“We should have a family party too dad. Me, you, Jess and the baby, grandma, grandpa, Nick and his
babies and Veronique, Arron and his girlfriend, Billy and his wife, the dogs. I think it'll be a nice touch
this year. Considering.”
“I think thats a wonderful idea. I’ll call the guys later this evening so they can get trip preparations
going. Plus I’m sure Aaron’s going to want plenty of time to look for the perfect costume.” Dad said. His
mood had been exceptionally better as I’m sure you can imagine with there NOT being a demon inside
him anymore. But it was just such a relief to be able to even talk to my dad without getting either yelled
at or just straight up ignored. The thing was, theres always been a dark side to him. Being a ghost
hunter of course thats going to make you a bit somber. It is death after all. Not even God could fix such
a willing heart as his. not that he wasn't worthy of being saved but there is only so much you can do
with a soul that takes the pain from spirits who are trapped and just want to be set free. Dad wouldn't
be completely free until he was up there with mom. Thats where his other half is. The half of him thats
been void all this time and been occupied by demons and lost souls.
With the gifts I have been given, I’ll be able to keep dad especially safe now. I’ll be able to protect him
in every way possible. To be quite honest I didn't ever want him to go on a lock down that didn't involve
me. He will never be left alone on a lockdown ever again. A big one was coming up. They were going
back to salem Massachusetts to see if they could get more responses from the hundreds of women and
children who had died at the hand of false accusations. or were they? The witch trials were gruesome
and vulgar and just down right disgusting when it came to the murders of these young people. But I
guess it isn't that hard to believe that people were killed out of fear. Such holy people too is what
amazes me most. Yea I know it happened, but it’s just such a hard thing to wrap my mind around. It
seems exciting though, I never get to learn the history of places when I go to them. Watching the
show, then yeah, but being there and experiencing it’s way better. Plus it seems less of a place to be
possessed.
Currently dad had a witch hat on his head and I was trying to get a few shots of him while pretending
to text. Unfortunately I got caught.
“Taylor, don’t. I’ll ground you.” he said sternly but the smile on his face said otherwise.
All of a sudden everything stopped. Nothing moved and my heart froze. My body heat up and then I
could feel myself falling to the floor. A bright light shown and I could tell then that I was having another
vision. It had been such a long time since I had had one that I didn't remember what it was like.
Terrible. All it was was mom. In the meadow of course, gorgeously wrapped in light lavender silk. She
smiled and walked closer to me.
“I need you to tell your dad something for me.” she said.
I shook my head yes, coaxing her to go on.
“I want him to find somebody.” she said.
“Find somebody? Who are you looking for mom? “ I asked but she just giggled and shook her head.
“Taylor Bagans, I want your dad to be happy. I want you to help him find somebody that will take care
of him in ways that neither I nor you can.” As she spoke I felt my eyes pop open in disbelieve. I
understood what she was saying but…
“He wont do it. you know he won’t.” I replied.
“Yes he will.”
“Mom, wha-why are you doing this?” I shook my head and tried to rid the image of any other woman
being with my dad.
“Taylor, please! This will make me feel better. He wont hurt so much so I wont hurt so much. Everyone
wins sweetie.” she begged.
“No…no, i can’t…it cant be that way. Theres no replacement, nothing will ever cover the pain. Don’t you
know that?!”
“It will give him solitude. Are you talking about him…or are you talking about you?” she asked and I felt
my breath give way and the lump start swelling in my throat. I closed my eyes and tried to think about
this. I knew she was right. I …couldn’t imagine another family. I couldn't imagine trying to fill dads void
half with someone other than who BELONGED there. It didn't make sense to me.
“Listen baby, its ok to feel this way. I know you miss me, you both do and you always will. But I didm
my hardest to give your dad some closure. I gave him a freedom that he's been looking for. “
“Taylor!…daddy’s here.” dads voice floated in the air above us and I could tell I was starting to drift back
to the present.
“Do this for him taylor. do this for dad. Give him peace.” mom said and walked to me, embracing me in
a hug that was soon replaced with dads loving grip on me. I groaned and tried to open my blood
stained eyes. My head was killing me.
“Jesus taylor…are you ok?” dad whispered while he handed me a tissue to wipe my tears. people were
standing at either end of the isle that we were in. I didn't want to scare anybody so I shoved my face in
dads chest and shook my head yes, continuing to wipe my tears. an employee was there with some
water and I smiled to her in gratitude when I had gotten myself together enough to face the public. At
the same time I took the water, dad reached a hand out and in it held two small white tylanol. And boy
did I need that.
“Thank you. I’m ok now.” I said and the employee nodded her head, leaving dad and I to stand up.
“Another vision?” dad asked. Everything flooded back. I remembered moms wish. The thought of it sent
a shock shooting through my whole body, but I looked up to dad and reminded myself that no matter
how much I hated it, mom was right. Dad needed someone to give him a happiness here on earth that
I wouldn't be able to give him. and…I had to help.
“Yeah. come on, lets pay and go home. I’ll explain everything while we make dinner, ok?” I asked
hoping he wouldn't put up a fit and pry. Luckily, he didn’t.
“Yea sure. your ok though?”
I smiled and nodded my head yes and pushed our cart to one of the many ungodly over filled lines.
*************************
At this point, all I wanted to do was go to bed without dinner. my vision had made me feel bad for two
reasons. One because moms request was still just too much. And two because the literal feeling it had
given me was an aching head and an upset stomach. I didn't know how much food I was going to be
able to hold down and I was in no mood for puking my guts up. But, I stood by dads side, stirring the
pasta he had boiling in a pot while he chopped some tomatoes for a secret sauce recipe from grandma.
We kept the mood low. The music was low and was smooth jazz, something we rarely listened too but
our usual techno or heavy metal wasn't what we really wanted to end our night with. We kept the lights
now, which I specifically enjoyed for my ponding headache. The TV was on but we kept it mute. The
only thing missing was the use of our fireplace. It never got cold enough to use it so we never ever got
the opportunity. I was hoping really bad that this year it would drop several degrees, considering our
unusual weather today. I made another note to ask persephone about what she might be able to do
about that.
“It’s not a bad thing…for you.” I started. I watched him slice into his second tomato.
“It was mom. She wants you to do something. I don’t like it but…unfortunately she's right about it’s
possible outcome.”
“Taylor, let’s get to the point, shall we?” he could tell I was stalling. if I had felt better, I would have
laughed. I sat myself up on the counter next to the stove.
“Well I don’t know what to think of it.” I started.
“That pasta isn't going to stir itself.” he glanced at the bubbling pot of noodles. I quickly picked up the
wooden spoon that I had been using to make the noodles swim and started again.
“Whoops, sorry.” I said and dad smiled at me.
“So mom wants me to do something?”
“I dont think your going to do it though.” I said lowly.
“Oh come on, i’ll accept a challenge any day.” he said playfully and put up his arm and flexed it. I shook
my head and laughed. I honestly wasn't sure how he was going to take this. I was scared to tell him,
afraid to hurt him. I knew mom meant it out of love but I feared that dad would take it as a sign that
maybe mom didn't love him anymore and I really didn't want him thinking that.
“Dad…mom wants you to….ok look. You know mom loves you right?” I asked and watched dads cutting
come to a hold with one really loud crack sound on the cutting board, and then he started again trying
to play it off.
“Yea of course I know she loves me.”
“Well she means this out of complete love so don’t think that she loves you any less ok?”
“Ok I won’t.” he said.
I took a deep breath and looked at dads face. I tried to measure how well he was taking this so far and
he seemed to be doing ok. But then again, this was Zak Bagans we were talking about here. Yes he is
strong but he is also human.
“She wants you to…find..someone.” I worded slowly.
“Find who?”
“No, dad,” I jumped down off of the counter and took the knife from his hands. “she wants you to find
someone special. Someone for you.”
It took him a few seconds to process but slowly I could see him coming to terms with her request. He
looked down and shook his head yes.
“I understand. She's trying to lessen the pain.” He said and smiled softly. “a good woman she is.”
“I told her you weren't going to do it. I mean…mom. She's the love of your life and I know you would
neve-“
“Im doing it.” he said turning back to the counter and taking the knife from me.
“What?!”
Dad turned his face to me and his eyes went from squinted and focused to calm and and soft when he
saw my face.
“So this is about YOUR concern huh?” he said and smiled a soft smile. Turning off the pot of noodles, he
took me by my shoulder and led me to the kitchen table where we sat.
“I will always love your mom. No one can ever replace her. She will always be with us and watching
over us. But she's a good woman like I said. She knows me better than anyone, even my mother. So if
theres anyone who knows somehow to make me happy, it’s her. I trust her judgement and if she wants
me to find someone then I will. Because heres the thing: it'll make HER happy and thats something I
cannot bare to keep from her.”
I was still having a hard time wrapping my head around this. To me, it felt like my family was falling
apart. I don’t understand how they can just up and …just be with other people. It just doesn't work.
Yea, she's gone, forever, and theres nothing I can do about it. But with how close we are with the after
world and the power that I have, it doesn't make sense that dad is acting like we can’t just talk to her
whenever we want. She's here all the time. I just know that i’m going to have a hard time trying to
ignore the fact that mom, my dads wife, would be here while dad and his new girlfriend were here also.
I could already feel he tension of meeting these women that dad would be having dates with. The
tension that would be had when he would bring them home to see how they would treat me and react
around me.
I so wasn't looking forward to this. But I nodded my head and looked up to dad, his eyes pleading with
me to understand. And I guess I did. Dad loves mom. And mom loves dad. And they will do anything to
make each other happy. I had to remember that that was real love. A love that I wished I soon would
share with sam.
“Ok. But you have to let me help you find her.” I said.
Dad sat back in his seat and put his hands up in playful defeat.
“You got it.”
witness. Yes, maybe we all miss the fact that evil is just as present as beauty is when it comes to
getting close to the afterlife, but when dad gives his whole life to both sides, you see that the result is
beautiful more times than none. I would take the evil everyday if it meant creating beauty for a lost one
and his family if not just his peace of mind. They all have their own story. Just like my mom, who was
born a sweet person, who was great in school and excelled on things. Who made bad decisions but
made up for them by picking other people to hang out with. Where she met my dad and got married
and bought a home and had a daughter. She died too young, but she lived a gorgeous life inside and
out and for others.
Today had been bright. The sky was blue and the clouds were puffy. But the unusual thing was the
unseasonal weather that we were having. It felt like fall. Don’t get me wrong, it was that time. Had we
been on the other side of the country, it would've been the start of the leaves falling off the trees.
September was usually still really hot here in vegas. We usually didn't start seeing all the pretty colors
until mid October, mine and dads favorite time of year. Dad and I always went wild with our festivities.
I’m sure we can all remember our party this past year and the negativity that became of that. But for
the most part it was friggin awesome! But I was thinking this year I would be more homey about it. A
little more old fashioned. The list of things in my head all seemed cute. Apple diving, glow in the dark
spiderwebs hanging off the corners of our porch. Bowls of candy with pop up hands in them, streamers
and pumpkin lights. Dad and I would carve jack-o-lanters and put small candles inside. We could
caramelize some apples. I personally wanted to have a family halloween party where we all dressed up
and danced to old music.
The urge to smell pumpkin spice in the air, to feel the crisp breeze, to witness the beauty of falling
leaves, was indescribable. Dad will be so happy. And this year I planned on treating him with pumpkin
pie, his favorite. I missed our times with mom. How she would be a witch every year. How beautiful she
would look with the green makeup smothering her face and hands.
“You look just like your mom.” Dads voice floated to me from the doorway of the kitchen. I looked to
him and saw the pain in his eyes. Sometimes it felt like a burden that I looked like the woman he loved,
like the woman's death he thought he had caused. The fact that there was nothing I could do about it
made it worse sometimes, but I cherished that even though it was hard for him, I knew that seeing her
face everyday lets him know that she's still here. With his proof from Persephone, he was kind of going
mad. I can openly admit that he’s been obsessed with what had happened with us going to a small
corner of heaven. Of course we all know that he wants to figure it out so he can tell the world. But I
think he also knows that if he did they would put his ass in an insane asylum with no trouble at all.
When it comes to angels and demons and thinking they are actually among us…even the uber religious
would throw a fit about him being crazy. I can also assure you all that no matter what dad thinks he’s
figuring out, the workers above us aren’t going to let it slip. It'll be changed or something like that. It’s
heaven after all, who knows what they can and cant do. Considering i’ve only seen a small portion then
I know that much more is to be there. I’ve been to a small place that mimics the rolling emerald hills of
Ireland, and the pastures of lush green that resemble any country meadow, and knowing! that it’s a
SMALL PORTION, it makes me wonder what it looks like in the rest of heaven. I marked that down as a
question to ask Persephone the next time I saw her.
“Yea, I know.” I replied with a frown. He came and sat down next to me, a look of pure dad on his face.
“It’s ok. I know you know. It does hurt. but its ok. Your beautiful and I couldn't ask for a better
daughter.”
“ Thanks dad.” I paused. I wanted to spend time with him. Our throw down at the barn last year was
pretty serious. Dad was still sore and it showed every time he had to pinch his side in pain. And after
not seeing him for several days before it happened when he had went missing, I wanted nothing more
than to spend time with him. Sam had work today so I tried my hardest to find out something I could
do with dad. With all this thinking about halloween…
“Lets go halloween shopping dad. We need to get a head start.” I said and he shook his head in
agreement.
“But I think we should hold back this year you know? Take a different approach.” I added and while on
our way to our local halloween goody store, I explained to him my previous thoughts about going the
cute way, he was excited to get some things.
“We should have a family party too dad. Me, you, Jess and the baby, grandma, grandpa, Nick and his
babies and Veronique, Arron and his girlfriend, Billy and his wife, the dogs. I think it'll be a nice touch
this year. Considering.”
“I think thats a wonderful idea. I’ll call the guys later this evening so they can get trip preparations
going. Plus I’m sure Aaron’s going to want plenty of time to look for the perfect costume.” Dad said. His
mood had been exceptionally better as I’m sure you can imagine with there NOT being a demon inside
him anymore. But it was just such a relief to be able to even talk to my dad without getting either yelled
at or just straight up ignored. The thing was, theres always been a dark side to him. Being a ghost
hunter of course thats going to make you a bit somber. It is death after all. Not even God could fix such
a willing heart as his. not that he wasn't worthy of being saved but there is only so much you can do
with a soul that takes the pain from spirits who are trapped and just want to be set free. Dad wouldn't
be completely free until he was up there with mom. Thats where his other half is. The half of him thats
been void all this time and been occupied by demons and lost souls.
With the gifts I have been given, I’ll be able to keep dad especially safe now. I’ll be able to protect him
in every way possible. To be quite honest I didn't ever want him to go on a lock down that didn't involve
me. He will never be left alone on a lockdown ever again. A big one was coming up. They were going
back to salem Massachusetts to see if they could get more responses from the hundreds of women and
children who had died at the hand of false accusations. or were they? The witch trials were gruesome
and vulgar and just down right disgusting when it came to the murders of these young people. But I
guess it isn't that hard to believe that people were killed out of fear. Such holy people too is what
amazes me most. Yea I know it happened, but it’s just such a hard thing to wrap my mind around. It
seems exciting though, I never get to learn the history of places when I go to them. Watching the
show, then yeah, but being there and experiencing it’s way better. Plus it seems less of a place to be
possessed.
Currently dad had a witch hat on his head and I was trying to get a few shots of him while pretending
to text. Unfortunately I got caught.
“Taylor, don’t. I’ll ground you.” he said sternly but the smile on his face said otherwise.
All of a sudden everything stopped. Nothing moved and my heart froze. My body heat up and then I
could feel myself falling to the floor. A bright light shown and I could tell then that I was having another
vision. It had been such a long time since I had had one that I didn't remember what it was like.
Terrible. All it was was mom. In the meadow of course, gorgeously wrapped in light lavender silk. She
smiled and walked closer to me.
“I need you to tell your dad something for me.” she said.
I shook my head yes, coaxing her to go on.
“I want him to find somebody.” she said.
“Find somebody? Who are you looking for mom? “ I asked but she just giggled and shook her head.
“Taylor Bagans, I want your dad to be happy. I want you to help him find somebody that will take care
of him in ways that neither I nor you can.” As she spoke I felt my eyes pop open in disbelieve. I
understood what she was saying but…
“He wont do it. you know he won’t.” I replied.
“Yes he will.”
“Mom, wha-why are you doing this?” I shook my head and tried to rid the image of any other woman
being with my dad.
“Taylor, please! This will make me feel better. He wont hurt so much so I wont hurt so much. Everyone
wins sweetie.” she begged.
“No…no, i can’t…it cant be that way. Theres no replacement, nothing will ever cover the pain. Don’t you
know that?!”
“It will give him solitude. Are you talking about him…or are you talking about you?” she asked and I felt
my breath give way and the lump start swelling in my throat. I closed my eyes and tried to think about
this. I knew she was right. I …couldn’t imagine another family. I couldn't imagine trying to fill dads void
half with someone other than who BELONGED there. It didn't make sense to me.
“Listen baby, its ok to feel this way. I know you miss me, you both do and you always will. But I didm
my hardest to give your dad some closure. I gave him a freedom that he's been looking for. “
“Taylor!…daddy’s here.” dads voice floated in the air above us and I could tell I was starting to drift back
to the present.
“Do this for him taylor. do this for dad. Give him peace.” mom said and walked to me, embracing me in
a hug that was soon replaced with dads loving grip on me. I groaned and tried to open my blood
stained eyes. My head was killing me.
“Jesus taylor…are you ok?” dad whispered while he handed me a tissue to wipe my tears. people were
standing at either end of the isle that we were in. I didn't want to scare anybody so I shoved my face in
dads chest and shook my head yes, continuing to wipe my tears. an employee was there with some
water and I smiled to her in gratitude when I had gotten myself together enough to face the public. At
the same time I took the water, dad reached a hand out and in it held two small white tylanol. And boy
did I need that.
“Thank you. I’m ok now.” I said and the employee nodded her head, leaving dad and I to stand up.
“Another vision?” dad asked. Everything flooded back. I remembered moms wish. The thought of it sent
a shock shooting through my whole body, but I looked up to dad and reminded myself that no matter
how much I hated it, mom was right. Dad needed someone to give him a happiness here on earth that
I wouldn't be able to give him. and…I had to help.
“Yeah. come on, lets pay and go home. I’ll explain everything while we make dinner, ok?” I asked
hoping he wouldn't put up a fit and pry. Luckily, he didn’t.
“Yea sure. your ok though?”
I smiled and nodded my head yes and pushed our cart to one of the many ungodly over filled lines.
*************************
At this point, all I wanted to do was go to bed without dinner. my vision had made me feel bad for two
reasons. One because moms request was still just too much. And two because the literal feeling it had
given me was an aching head and an upset stomach. I didn't know how much food I was going to be
able to hold down and I was in no mood for puking my guts up. But, I stood by dads side, stirring the
pasta he had boiling in a pot while he chopped some tomatoes for a secret sauce recipe from grandma.
We kept the mood low. The music was low and was smooth jazz, something we rarely listened too but
our usual techno or heavy metal wasn't what we really wanted to end our night with. We kept the lights
now, which I specifically enjoyed for my ponding headache. The TV was on but we kept it mute. The
only thing missing was the use of our fireplace. It never got cold enough to use it so we never ever got
the opportunity. I was hoping really bad that this year it would drop several degrees, considering our
unusual weather today. I made another note to ask persephone about what she might be able to do
about that.
“It’s not a bad thing…for you.” I started. I watched him slice into his second tomato.
“It was mom. She wants you to do something. I don’t like it but…unfortunately she's right about it’s
possible outcome.”
“Taylor, let’s get to the point, shall we?” he could tell I was stalling. if I had felt better, I would have
laughed. I sat myself up on the counter next to the stove.
“Well I don’t know what to think of it.” I started.
“That pasta isn't going to stir itself.” he glanced at the bubbling pot of noodles. I quickly picked up the
wooden spoon that I had been using to make the noodles swim and started again.
“Whoops, sorry.” I said and dad smiled at me.
“So mom wants me to do something?”
“I dont think your going to do it though.” I said lowly.
“Oh come on, i’ll accept a challenge any day.” he said playfully and put up his arm and flexed it. I shook
my head and laughed. I honestly wasn't sure how he was going to take this. I was scared to tell him,
afraid to hurt him. I knew mom meant it out of love but I feared that dad would take it as a sign that
maybe mom didn't love him anymore and I really didn't want him thinking that.
“Dad…mom wants you to….ok look. You know mom loves you right?” I asked and watched dads cutting
come to a hold with one really loud crack sound on the cutting board, and then he started again trying
to play it off.
“Yea of course I know she loves me.”
“Well she means this out of complete love so don’t think that she loves you any less ok?”
“Ok I won’t.” he said.
I took a deep breath and looked at dads face. I tried to measure how well he was taking this so far and
he seemed to be doing ok. But then again, this was Zak Bagans we were talking about here. Yes he is
strong but he is also human.
“She wants you to…find..someone.” I worded slowly.
“Find who?”
“No, dad,” I jumped down off of the counter and took the knife from his hands. “she wants you to find
someone special. Someone for you.”
It took him a few seconds to process but slowly I could see him coming to terms with her request. He
looked down and shook his head yes.
“I understand. She's trying to lessen the pain.” He said and smiled softly. “a good woman she is.”
“I told her you weren't going to do it. I mean…mom. She's the love of your life and I know you would
neve-“
“Im doing it.” he said turning back to the counter and taking the knife from me.
“What?!”
Dad turned his face to me and his eyes went from squinted and focused to calm and and soft when he
saw my face.
“So this is about YOUR concern huh?” he said and smiled a soft smile. Turning off the pot of noodles, he
took me by my shoulder and led me to the kitchen table where we sat.
“I will always love your mom. No one can ever replace her. She will always be with us and watching
over us. But she's a good woman like I said. She knows me better than anyone, even my mother. So if
theres anyone who knows somehow to make me happy, it’s her. I trust her judgement and if she wants
me to find someone then I will. Because heres the thing: it'll make HER happy and thats something I
cannot bare to keep from her.”
I was still having a hard time wrapping my head around this. To me, it felt like my family was falling
apart. I don’t understand how they can just up and …just be with other people. It just doesn't work.
Yea, she's gone, forever, and theres nothing I can do about it. But with how close we are with the after
world and the power that I have, it doesn't make sense that dad is acting like we can’t just talk to her
whenever we want. She's here all the time. I just know that i’m going to have a hard time trying to
ignore the fact that mom, my dads wife, would be here while dad and his new girlfriend were here also.
I could already feel he tension of meeting these women that dad would be having dates with. The
tension that would be had when he would bring them home to see how they would treat me and react
around me.
I so wasn't looking forward to this. But I nodded my head and looked up to dad, his eyes pleading with
me to understand. And I guess I did. Dad loves mom. And mom loves dad. And they will do anything to
make each other happy. I had to remember that that was real love. A love that I wished I soon would
share with sam.
“Ok. But you have to let me help you find her.” I said.
Dad sat back in his seat and put his hands up in playful defeat.
“You got it.”
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eh. i didn't really like this one lol but here it is :)