Riverside Girl

Its been four days since that night I flipped out on Travis I mean from another girlfriend's perspective it didn't seem like such a big deal but it was to me the love of my life who I spend every moment of the day with if I am not at work is leaving me for a 6 month tour what was I suppose to think? was he going to never tell me and just leave? was he going to dump me and then fuck all the girls he wanted on tour? all this shit was racing through my mind which made me even more unstable then I have been for the past 4 days Madelyn let me crash at her and Tony's place she was more than welcomed to have me since she did feel it was her fault for the reason I am this way but it wasn't at all I haven't gone to work either I called out and told my boss I needed a personal week to do handle something's she understood I needed to know and the fact he didn't even tell me until I called him flipping out like how was I suppose to react? calm ? NO I will not act calm when he couldn't even tell me himself my best friend for those 4 days become those 4 white walls that's all I did I slept cause sleeping was the only way to stop thinking of it I needed to talk to him I needed him to hear me out and know why I was mad I decide to call him phone didn't even go past 3 rings his voice appeared on the other side of the phone "Hello..Babe I miss you his voice broke I tried my hardest not to cry I had this huge lump in my throat like I didn't know what to say I took a few seconds to respond "Travis I need to talk to you I do not want to fight nor end the last 2 days you have left a horrible mess we need to come to some sort of agreement" I finally broke out and said it he waited to see if I more I wanted to get off my chest then told me "I'll pick you up after my meeting with my manger get everything settled before I go off on tour..is that alright babe?" I let out a sigh reminding myself that he was leaving for tour again I said it was fine and just pick me up from Madelyn we said our goodbyes and I threw the covers over me once again and felt my heart start to ache again and the lump in my throat had came back I should feel happy and excited that he is achieving his dream and doing what he loves its not that I don't trust him I do completely I don't trust girls he has this affect on girls when he walks into a place or just in general girls look and throw themselves at him yeah he's an artist but still he has this certain attraction about him that just makes girls do that I try my hardest not to get mad at fans but sometimes they push their limits all this nonsense was making me more upset I decide it was enough time sitting around pouting and got myself out of bed which was hard to do but I needed to see him being away from him made me more of a mess I needed my boyfriend my best friend my lover and everything that came when you love him he was my motivation if it wasn't for talking to him I don't think I would be getting up right now to go shower I needed to talk and make everything okay I opened my door quietly not to disturb anyone I stepped out from the corner of my eye I saw Madelyn I studied her laying on the couch and tony knocked out next to her stomach holding it the smile she had on her face when she would glance down at the site of the father of her child and her stomach it was pure happiness she's finally getting what she dreamed of soon to be marriage and family I quietly tip toped into the bathroom and locked the door behind me I grabbed a towel from the closet and went to turn on the shower I made sure the water was hot and made the room steam I undressed myself and stepped into the shower the hot water quickly hit me it felt so amazing like I was being awaken from a long dream I let the water hit my body I quickly rinsed my hair and shampooed and conditioned my long locks then ended off with shaving my legs and other body parts that needed to be smooth that took about 20 mins I finished off with rinsing my body with body wash and wrapped the towel around my soaking body once I stepped out the shower the steam made it less cold then it usually does after my shower I put on a clean white shirt and shorts just to hang around in until he would tell me he's on his way I decide I would blow dry my hair and do semi curls in my hair just very wavy and lose and I decide to go with a natural look today no bright colors on my cheek I decide to take out my suitcase and look for something to wear I was thinking this black crop top with a flowy front to it and some dark high wasted jeans with rips in them and cute black high heels I wanted to look good I missed him it took over an hour and a half to get ready I got a phone call saying he was outside waiting for me my heart started beating I haven't felt nor seen him in what it has seemed like its been forever I told Madelyn I'd be back I was going to go talk to Travis and I'd be back soon to tell her everything I kissed her stomach and her goodbye headed out the door he was standing outside next to the passenger's door leaning up next to it he always looked so god damn perfect he was looking at his phone til he heard the door close I stepped out and his facial expression changed like he was so happy to see me I must admit I was still pretty upset with him but I couldn't help myself I wanted to kiss him and hold him I threw myself around him and he grabbed me picking me up with my legs wrapped around him we just stood like that for so long then I finally broke the silence with a long tender kiss the moment our lips touched we were in sync I longed for more kisses I just miss the texture and how his kisses made my knees weak to the touch we broke ways and he told me I looked good I blushed and told him he always looks good we opened my door for me like old times and walked to his side of the car we got in I asked him what we had plan for the rest of the day cause I did actually want to talk to him and actually see where both are minds were about this tour thing he told me we are going to eat at one of my favorite restaurant which is by the beach and its just so calming and relaxing I love the beach he knows that I decide since I haven't updated my fans on everything I wanted to take a picture and post it on twitter and instagram to show them I'm alive since I was always sleeping when I was at Madelyn's house I took out my phone and hit the front face camera and the camera sound went off I looked at the picture I was smiling I haven't seen that smile in so long I opened up the instagram up and uploaded the picture "Selfie in the baby's car" I put my phone away and it was going to be a lengthy ride even tho it was 20 mins long the wait was too long I wanted to hear his response I needed him to hear what I had to say what I was feeling I kept trying to figure out what I wanted to say and what I wanted not to my mind was such a big scrabbled mess I felt sick to my stomach I needed to eat I wanted to throw up why was I feeling like this? everything was fine when I seen him now this is just crazy I guess this is the thing that makes us or breaks us I took out a cigg and smoked I know the doctor told me I shouldn't but I had to I had to get rid of the nerves I had I wish I had a blunt to be honest I asked him if he mind if I rolled up a blunt he looked at me shocked since I haven't smoked in so long I poked out my cigg and started breaking up the weed into tiny bits to rill up a joint I wanted to get high not super stoned since I hated going out in public like that especially during the day like that I just don't want the media to get the wrong idea of me you know not even 5 mins later I was done I sparked it up I took what felt like the longest hit of my life it burnt the back of my throat it felt so amazing the stress was soon being released after every hit I took I look over at Travis to pass him the joint he has a hand on the steering wheel and his elbow on the window with his hand on his face that was his thinking face what was he thinking about? I wanted to know I elbowed him to take a hit he looked at me I finally broke the silence "so what are you thinking about?"I asked him he looked over at me waited a few seconds to respond after taking couple hits of the bomb joint I just rolled he said "nothing bad just thinking of what my manger said that's all no biggie babe" I looked confused "oh? what did your manager say.. of course when I say something we pull up to the restaurant the I sighed and waited for him to park i I threw the little tiny j out the window and sprayed myself with some perfume to make it less noticeable we got out of the car of course we had people swarming us this is a normal thing for us I let him do his thing while I waited for our waiter to come bring us to our table we had a little table close to the window as possible as we could cause the place was busy I wouldn't blame people the food was amazing I sat down and waited for Travy to be done with all the fans I ordered myself a water and got him a coke since thats one of his favorite soda's he kissed me on the cheek and said sorry for the wait I said its fine he took a sip out of his coke he was scrolling through his phone I thought it was cute the way he was looking at his phone he was typing on twitter tweeting how he's so happy hes with me right now and how much he missed me one thing he knew how to do and it worked was sweet talking me I'm such a sucker for him when he does that I decide I would take a picture of him the flash went off which caused him to look up in the picture I looked at it and smiled it was picture perfect he gave me that look like really bitch I showed him he told me he was going to get me back for it just not gunna tell me when I stuck my tongue out at him and proceeded to upload it to instagram "Lunch date to my favorite place with my favorite boy" I clicked upload and looked up at him as I was about to speak our waiter came over asking us if we were finally ready to order we did our usual he got the steak and I got alfredo pasta with chicken we handed the waiter our menu's that should be the last interruption for awhile until our food comes out I took a deep breath " Travis why.. why didn't you tell me" he tried to respond but I interrupted him "No listen to me don't speak yet listen to what I have to say before I lose my thoughts I thought we had that type of relationship where we could tell each other everything I mean this doesn't seem like a big deal to most people but to me it does your leaving for 6 months and you were waited til what the last couple days to tell me? why couldn't you just tell me from the start so I could have at least be ready for all this to happen but no only have two days here until you are gone do you not know how this makes me feel? Its only been 4 days since I last seen you I'm completely unstable how do you think I will last 6 months without you Travy.. explain t me" I seen his facial expression change after I was done speaking he just looked at me and took my hand into his hands " Ashton Drake I love you I knew this would tear you apart and don't think it doesn't fuck with me emotionally and mentally I knew you'd be really upset I just thought if I told you later on you would make my last couple days and spend it with me but my plan backfired I didn't want you to find out like that I was going to tell you just Madelyn beat me to it I'm not mad at her she was being a good friend like she's suppose to I'm sorry babe yes this is a long tour half a year but I want to see you any chance you and I can or you can come on couple shows with us and then fly back to California later on I know its going to be a challenge but we can work it through it babe your the only girl I want so you don't have to worry about girls and me I stopped all that shit for you I promise you on everything " he leaned over and kissed me it was a lot to take in what he said I mean he was right if I knew sooner I would have dreaded our days together and convinced him to stay but I can't do that its not fair to any of us who was I to stand in the way of all his hard work? he was finally getting bigger than he was already it made me happy our waiter came back with our food and we dug in I haven't eaten in so long this tasted so fucking good I ate pretty fast Travis just kept laughing at me and telling me I was so adorable for eating like that.


I'm sitting at the table with my wonderful girlfriend we just talked it out on the situation that had happened I felt bad I never wanted to have Ashton put in this situation I never want to hurt her ever I loved her it broke my heart knowing I hurt her bad over my own selfishness of not telling her but I'm going to make it up to her as much as I can for the next 48 hours before I leave I wanted to spoil her I wanted to make everything right after we finished our lunch I decide to take her down the strip to some of her favorite shops I let her do her thing while I did my own thing finding clothes for tour I sneaked away from her site to go to look at couple promise rings at a jewelry store I wanted this promise ring to be nothing like the rest of them they had to stand out and shine just like she did I kept looking finally I came across one that I thought would be outstanding I knew she would like I knew she would be speechless I told the store clerk we had a deal and paid the amount I hid the bag in another bag I had from a previous store I made sure she wasn't in site so I could walk out I went into couple other stores until she started calling me telling me she missed me and wanted me to go be with her she told me the store she was in I hung up the phone and went to see her of course she had tons of bags in her hands one thing that girl knows how to do and its shop she has tons of clothes and still feels the need to have more but it makes me happy knowing shes happy I told her I wanted to have the rest of the day for ourselves in our home since we never really had a chance to settle in I paid the lady the total amount and grabbed all of Ashton's bags and mines and carried them all into the car we both got in at the same time I put the car in reverse and headed back home occasionally I would look at Ashton and she looked so hopefully and happy she still looks beautiful as the day I met her at that shoot she had fallen asleep so it was perfect time to call Rosa my house keeper to get everything ready I wanted a romantic evening roses on the bed the whole 9 yards because I wanted this full night to be filled with amazing surprise and no bad moods or stupid fights I drove around for an hour or so that Rosa had a little time to do somethings for me she was an amazing person for doing all this she texted me that she was all set and that she will be staying at the guest house across the pool if I needed anything else I made our way back to our house she will still knocked out as I was arriving into our gate I parked the car in the drive way I carried her into our house I laid her on the couch gentle as I could be I began to kiss her lips as like she was sleeping beauty and I was her prince charming awaken her from this spell she had she wrapped her hands around my neck and pulled me down I had to stop myself because if it was for me I would have done it right there and then but I think this should wait til after I give her the gift I told her she has quite the surprise waiting up there her eyes light up and she made her way up the stairs I had to catch up to her I got ahead of her and told her the only way she can enter is if she is blindfolded she pouted at my answer I covered her eyes and opened the door I counted to 3 and made her open her eyes 1..2..3 and she gasped it was dark out and the bed had a heart shape filled with rose petals I brought her to the bed and sat her down I took out the box out of my pocket and showed her Listen Ashton when the time comes when we both are ready I know what your thinking I sound like an idiot but this is a ring to show you I promise you from this day on that there will be nothing filled with laughter love kisses marriage and a family this is a promise to you that I will never hurt you no matter how far or near I am I want you to look down at this and remember that I love you always and nothing will change ever I promise to love you through the good and the bad through it all I'm your man I got up and put the ring on her finger and kissed her I kept kissing her I couldn't picture my life without her we ended up on the bed next thing I know clothes are on the floor bodies are exposed I entered her and from that moment on everything was a blur all I remember was our bodies were in sync with ever thrust and grunt we went on for hours it was 4 am when we finished all together it broke my heart that I had a flight at 3 pm to catch I couldn't seem to fall back asleep all the thoughts were rushing into my head how was I suppose to live without this girl for the next 6 months I felt a tear run down my face I tried to contain my composure so Ashton wouldn't wake up and ask questions I forced myself back to sleep I needed to take in all the texture of her skin as much as I can it didnt take me long enough to fall back asleep I woke up to the bed little emptier than usually I woke up and Ashton wasn't on the side of me so I threw on sweatpants and poked my head through my door and yelled out for her I heard her tiny voice telling me she downstairs I opened my door all the way and walked down the stairs I pass my hall way going towards the kitchen I see a huge feast of breakfast anything you can think of pancakes french toast eggs omelets toast bacon sausages homefries & breakfast sandwiches and so much more I asked her what was all this for she told me she invited all the homies and our friends for breakfast since they were't seeing me for a long time I honestly couldn't believe she did this it must have took her hours to do it I kissed her cheek millions of time this was the sweetest thing ever I told her I was going to get dressed I ran upstairs I threw some black pants on a white vneck shirt my black and white vans with a young fav snap back on by the time I was done the doorbell was ringing young favs came in first of course with the very lovely Madelyn for such a young stage or pregnancy you could tell she was pregnant she had a cute tummy and the way Tony treated her and was very protective over her stomach its adorable I hope one day me and Ashton are like that after greetin everyone the door bell rang again I looked confused cause I thought that was all the people but I opened the door to my surprise it was my parents and my sister I hugged them tight I missed them so much I haven't seem them in awhile my mom came in and hugged Ashton and so did the rest of my family everyone always gave her a warm welcomed she was very likable they parted ways then Ashton announced that breakfast is on the table to help ourselves to whatever we want so we all digged in about an 2 hours into it everyone was having such a good time laughing just enjoying everyone else's company it completely slipped our minds that we should be packing very shortly for the bus I wish this was all a bad dream and that I didn't have to leave but sadly it wasn't I decide I should end this breakfast/brunch on a good note I stood up and hit my fork against the glass trying to get the attentions of the others the room went silent and all eyes fell on me "Thank you for everyone for attending today I mean theres not crazy amount of people here but its best that way to spend our final moments with our loved ones before we hit the road I just want to give an amazing shout out to Ashton for putting this all together and making this amazing food she's honestly best girlfriend hands down I also want to give also just tell everyone I'm grateful for each and every one of you I wouldn't be able to have this opportunity of going on tour thank you for supporting me and my dreams and also being a part of amazing memories in my life and hopefully more to come very soon" everyone clapped and took a sip out of their beverage everyone started clearing out in an hour it was reaching 2 o' clock and we had to be at the airport very shortly I was upstairs cuddling with Ashton I just played with her hair inhaled her scent it was her it smelt like home to me you know? couple minutes passed along my alarm on my phone went off notifying me it was time to get all my bags in the car and head out very soon I got off the bed and started to get my shit together she just sat on the bed with her hands over her knees watching me I had everything all packed up in the car Ashton got herself dressed and met me in the car she drove I just wanted to sit back and hold her hand and just spend every last second with her I can get the mood that once was there earlier was completely good it was just a sad emotional atmosphere by the time I knew it I was already at the airport the ride seemed so short and it annoyed me she helped me bring my bags into the airport and through baggage claim that was our stop.. I didn't want to part ways I wanted her to come but it was selfish of me to have her leave her life to come on tour for 6 months I looked down into her eyes as they filled with tears which made me tear up I pulled her closed to me and wrapped my arms around her waist tightly her eyes always melted me I kissed her softly filled with passion we stood there what felt like forever in my mind until I heard the speaker go off saying that flight is boarding we kiss once more we said our i love you's and part ways I wiped the tears from my eyes pulled myself together and headed towards the airplane I took one look back and she waved to me and blue me a kiss I caught it and put it in my pocket meaning I would save it for later here we go on this 6 month journey..