Status: first story! still in progress.
I Could Be Your Perfect Disaster
The Secrets You Keep
The drive back to my house was quiet. I really had no clue what to say after the events that just happened. Matt pulled up my driveway and turned off his car. I heard him sigh and then he spoke up. "Look again..I'm really sorry if I made things awkward between us..I just wanted you to know-" "Matt, it's fine. I swear to you, nothing is awkward." I smiled at him. He smiled back. "If you say so.." I was about to get out of the car when I felt him softly grab my arm and pull me towards him. He gave me a short, but sweet kiss. "G-goodnight Leah." He was so adorable and I couldn't help but smile at him. "Goodnight Matt."
I got in my house and quickly went up to my room. I hated myself for leading Matt on, those were never my intentions. I just don't think I have the heart to tell him how I really feel. He's such an important person to me, I don't want to have to lose him over something like this. I changed into sweatpants and an old shirt and climbed into bed.
I almost began to doze off when I heard a noise outside my window. I listened closely and it sounded like rocks were being thrown at it. I looked over at my clock and it was one in the morning. Who the hell could be at my house? I walked over to the window and sure enough Josh was outside. He smiles once I come into view and waves at me. I couldn't help but smile at him. I opened the window. "Josh, it's one in the morning, what are you doing here!?" I could hear him laugh before he spoke. "Sorry I didn't know it was a crime to want to see you." I giggled. "Well it's not..but it's a little crazy considering what time it is." "I want you to come on an adventure with me." He whispered. Adventure? Josh was out of his mind. But of course, I agreed.
I climbed out my window, into his car, somehow managing to do it all while not waking my mom up. Josh turned his car on and smirked at me. "I can really get you to do anything for me, can't I?" I felt my cheek burn and I shoved him. "Shut up!" He chuckled and we began driving. "So where exactly are we going?" He kept his eyes on the road. "No idea, but I guess we'll find out once we get there."
We ended up going to the park I had seen him at the second time we kissed. Of course I'd remember something like that. It looked so much creepier at night. We sat on the swings. Josh seemed to be completely zoned out until I snapped my fingers in front of him. "Hellloooo? Earth to Josh." He stared up at me and I noticed his eyes were a little bloodshot. "Are you okay? Have you been crying?" He shook his head. "No what are you talking about? I'm totally okay." He smiled at me..but he seemed a little loopy. I was starting to get worried. "Josh...did you do drugs or something..?" He laughed at me. "Drugs are bad! Don't they teach you that in school?" He began laughing again and he wouldn't stop. I laughed nervously. "Um..Josh.." What was wrong with him? I was honestly terrified to find out. "Josh please, be honest with me. What did you do?" He turned to me and stared into my eyes. I tried so hard to hold our stare but his eyes could make me melt in seconds. "Leah..you're so beautiful." I blushed but I knew this was no time for sweet talk. "T-thanks Josh but..you have to answer my question.." He held our stare. "I'm on heroin" He whispered.
My heart dropped into my stomach. "H-heroin? Josh..that stuff can kill you..." I couldn't even believe I just heard him right. He shook his head. "Don't worry about me, Leah. I won't do it forever, just for right now...it takes the pain away." I shook my head, trying to hold in my tears. "Josh..you'll become addicted...you can't just do it for a little while and stop, it just doesn't work like that...this isn't a good way to numb your pain..." He sighed. "I think it is...you wouldn't understand cause you've never tried it.." I didn't say anything. He was right but I could never imagine myself getting into drugs. I was never that kind of person. After a while, Josh spoke up again. "Do you-do you want to try it?" I stared at him wide eyed. Did I want to? No Leah, drugs are bad. They never put you down the right path. Don't do them because of some pretty boy. On the other hand..maybe one time wouldn't matter....
I would end up regretting that decision for the rest of my life.
I got in my house and quickly went up to my room. I hated myself for leading Matt on, those were never my intentions. I just don't think I have the heart to tell him how I really feel. He's such an important person to me, I don't want to have to lose him over something like this. I changed into sweatpants and an old shirt and climbed into bed.
I almost began to doze off when I heard a noise outside my window. I listened closely and it sounded like rocks were being thrown at it. I looked over at my clock and it was one in the morning. Who the hell could be at my house? I walked over to the window and sure enough Josh was outside. He smiles once I come into view and waves at me. I couldn't help but smile at him. I opened the window. "Josh, it's one in the morning, what are you doing here!?" I could hear him laugh before he spoke. "Sorry I didn't know it was a crime to want to see you." I giggled. "Well it's not..but it's a little crazy considering what time it is." "I want you to come on an adventure with me." He whispered. Adventure? Josh was out of his mind. But of course, I agreed.
I climbed out my window, into his car, somehow managing to do it all while not waking my mom up. Josh turned his car on and smirked at me. "I can really get you to do anything for me, can't I?" I felt my cheek burn and I shoved him. "Shut up!" He chuckled and we began driving. "So where exactly are we going?" He kept his eyes on the road. "No idea, but I guess we'll find out once we get there."
We ended up going to the park I had seen him at the second time we kissed. Of course I'd remember something like that. It looked so much creepier at night. We sat on the swings. Josh seemed to be completely zoned out until I snapped my fingers in front of him. "Hellloooo? Earth to Josh." He stared up at me and I noticed his eyes were a little bloodshot. "Are you okay? Have you been crying?" He shook his head. "No what are you talking about? I'm totally okay." He smiled at me..but he seemed a little loopy. I was starting to get worried. "Josh...did you do drugs or something..?" He laughed at me. "Drugs are bad! Don't they teach you that in school?" He began laughing again and he wouldn't stop. I laughed nervously. "Um..Josh.." What was wrong with him? I was honestly terrified to find out. "Josh please, be honest with me. What did you do?" He turned to me and stared into my eyes. I tried so hard to hold our stare but his eyes could make me melt in seconds. "Leah..you're so beautiful." I blushed but I knew this was no time for sweet talk. "T-thanks Josh but..you have to answer my question.." He held our stare. "I'm on heroin" He whispered.
My heart dropped into my stomach. "H-heroin? Josh..that stuff can kill you..." I couldn't even believe I just heard him right. He shook his head. "Don't worry about me, Leah. I won't do it forever, just for right now...it takes the pain away." I shook my head, trying to hold in my tears. "Josh..you'll become addicted...you can't just do it for a little while and stop, it just doesn't work like that...this isn't a good way to numb your pain..." He sighed. "I think it is...you wouldn't understand cause you've never tried it.." I didn't say anything. He was right but I could never imagine myself getting into drugs. I was never that kind of person. After a while, Josh spoke up again. "Do you-do you want to try it?" I stared at him wide eyed. Did I want to? No Leah, drugs are bad. They never put you down the right path. Don't do them because of some pretty boy. On the other hand..maybe one time wouldn't matter....
I would end up regretting that decision for the rest of my life.