Ash

“come here, I want you.”
I always tell myself
I’m going to play that girlfriend
the one who wants her space
wants her side of the bed more
than she wants her boyfriend’s embrace
but I know better
I’m cold anyways
so I move over and let him push
his knee between my legs
like he always does
and I’m warm
and I feel safe
and loved
I replay Clark’s words in my head
during nights like these
and sometimes
I can believe them
especially when
he wakes up in the middle of the night
kisses my forehead
and pulls me closer into his chest
“I love you.”
I don’t want to know
if he’s dreaming or not
I don’t care
sometimes
it’s enough.