I'm a Psycho, Baby...
Let me in
'So, how are you feeling Jack?' Allison, my counsellor, asks,
'Better. I still want to be found hanging from the ceiling but better, a lot better.' I shrug, playing with my hands,
'Okay... Well, do you know why you're better?' she asks,
'Alex.' I whisper with a smile on my lips,
'Excuse me?' she asks,
'Alex. He's the reason I'm happier.' I tell her happily,
'Are you a thing?' she asks,
'Yeah.' I smile,
'This is Gaskarth, right?' she asks and I nod, 'thought so, he's a good kid. Been hurt a lot in the past. Don't hurt him Jack.' she smiles softly,
'I don't plan on it.' I shrug,
'Are you able to talk to him about how you feel?' she asks,
'I don't want to trouble him. He often comes to me crying, saying he needs to cut. I don't want to overload him.' I sigh,
'You should try talking to him. Alex is a very, very smart boy and knows a lot in that slightly confused head. He is very good at advice. Trust me, I used to see Alex 5 times a week when he first came in, he helped me aswell as I helped him. He completely solved my marraige problems. He can help you Jack. He likes to help.' she explains,
'I'll bare that in mind.' I say quietly.
(a few days later)
'Jack, are you in there?' I hear Alex call as he knocks on my door again,
'Alex just leave me alone for a while.' I snap,
'No babe. Let me in.' He says sternly and I sigh and go unlock the door before getting back into bed,
'Let me see inside your head.' Alex whispers, getting in next to me, he wraps his arms around my waist and I sigh shakily, putting my head on his chest, 'tell me honestly why you wanted to die.' he sighs,
'I couldn't take it all. The pressure. The bullies. The neglect. Being the little rich kid isn't all it's made out to be. I was in so much pain and no one realised because they thought I'd be happy because i had a good life.' I explain quietly, my fingers locked onto his shirt,
'I knew it.' Alex sighs, kissing my head,
'Baby, it doesn't have to be that way. It's your life. You can live it. And should live it because you're so perfect and you're worthy of living it... And I hope I can stay in the picture.' he whispers and I lean up and kiss his jaw softly,
'I love you.' I whisper,
'I love you too Jack. I want you to let me into your head some more babe.' He says quietly.
'Better. I still want to be found hanging from the ceiling but better, a lot better.' I shrug, playing with my hands,
'Okay... Well, do you know why you're better?' she asks,
'Alex.' I whisper with a smile on my lips,
'Excuse me?' she asks,
'Alex. He's the reason I'm happier.' I tell her happily,
'Are you a thing?' she asks,
'Yeah.' I smile,
'This is Gaskarth, right?' she asks and I nod, 'thought so, he's a good kid. Been hurt a lot in the past. Don't hurt him Jack.' she smiles softly,
'I don't plan on it.' I shrug,
'Are you able to talk to him about how you feel?' she asks,
'I don't want to trouble him. He often comes to me crying, saying he needs to cut. I don't want to overload him.' I sigh,
'You should try talking to him. Alex is a very, very smart boy and knows a lot in that slightly confused head. He is very good at advice. Trust me, I used to see Alex 5 times a week when he first came in, he helped me aswell as I helped him. He completely solved my marraige problems. He can help you Jack. He likes to help.' she explains,
'I'll bare that in mind.' I say quietly.
(a few days later)
'Jack, are you in there?' I hear Alex call as he knocks on my door again,
'Alex just leave me alone for a while.' I snap,
'No babe. Let me in.' He says sternly and I sigh and go unlock the door before getting back into bed,
'Let me see inside your head.' Alex whispers, getting in next to me, he wraps his arms around my waist and I sigh shakily, putting my head on his chest, 'tell me honestly why you wanted to die.' he sighs,
'I couldn't take it all. The pressure. The bullies. The neglect. Being the little rich kid isn't all it's made out to be. I was in so much pain and no one realised because they thought I'd be happy because i had a good life.' I explain quietly, my fingers locked onto his shirt,
'I knew it.' Alex sighs, kissing my head,
'Baby, it doesn't have to be that way. It's your life. You can live it. And should live it because you're so perfect and you're worthy of living it... And I hope I can stay in the picture.' he whispers and I lean up and kiss his jaw softly,
'I love you.' I whisper,
'I love you too Jack. I want you to let me into your head some more babe.' He says quietly.
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Sorry this is short :3 I ran out of ideas, I'll update soon xokyra