Unholy Confessions

(Zacky's POV)

The next morning we arrived in Texas and I couldn't help but feel extremely disgusted by the hot sun.The van smelled like beer and sweat, a combination that could make anybody sick.I couldn't even remember the last time that I had even taken a shower let alone eat a decent meal.I missed the hell out of my girlfriend and being back home, but I knew that this was my destiny and I wasn't about to give it up just because of the circumstances that we were in.I got out of the van as fast as I could before I proceeded to throw up everywhere."Hey dude, are you alright?" Johnny asked me as he crawled out of the back. I nodded simply, rubbing the back of my neck."It's alright, just felt nauseous for a second. I talked to Marigold though, she said that Lacey hasn't stopped talking about you." I nudged him in the side, seeing a smile come to his face." I miss her man. I really hope the girls can come out when we get to Vegas." I agreed with him completely. It would be great to get to see our girls again. Except for Matt, he hasn't been the same since Val left him.

Come to think of it, he's been spending a lot of the time on the phone with Mari too. Not that I minded or anything, I know how close they were, she was close with everyone since we all became friends at the same time. Besides, she loves me and I know that for a fact. There's not a doubt in my mind about that. "Have you noticed anything weird about Matt?" I asked Johnny who was now smoking a cigarette. He exhaled a cloud of smoke and passed it over to me. "Sorta. He said he's just still upset over the whole breakup with Val and everything. I'm sure it's nothing though." I inhaled another large drag before passing it back over to him. He was right, it was probably nothing to be too worried about.

After we had finished a smoke, I headed over towards the front of the venue where Matt and Brian were standing with the promoter of the place. From the looks on their faces I could tell that it wasn't going that great. "Motherfucker!" Matt suddenly yelled, causing the guy to flinch dramatically. I rushed over to Brian who was now holding onto Matt."Fuck that we didn't just drive all the way over here to not fucking play, this is ridiculous!" The promoter only turned and walked away from us, not saying another word. Matt obviously didn't agree with that as he suddenly rushed up behind the guy and punched him right in the face, sending him flying backwards to the floor. Brian and I ran after them, grabbing onto Matt as tight as we could and pulling him off of the guy who's face was almost beaten to a pulp.

This was definitely not the type of shit that we needed right now but I knew that I was going to back up Matt regardless because he was my best friend. "Come on lets just get the fuck out of here before they call the cops." I said to him and Brian who nodded his head vigorously. We gathered up everything and everyone as fast as we could before taking off. The next stop we were headed was Las Vegas only a couple days early now. I decided to call Marigold and let her know everything that was happening. "Hi babe, what's up?" She asked, sounding like she was still half asleep. I looked at the time, noticing that it was only about 8 am over there.

"Heading to Vegas a little early, Matt got into it with the promoter. Almost beat the guy to a pulp. We got out of there though, my ass is definitely not going to jail." I chuckled some, hearing her yawn and sigh. I knew she didn't like it when things started getting out of hand when they didn't have to, but she still accepted everything for the way it was. "You guys better be careful or else I'll head out there and kick your asses!" I smiled at that. I would do anything to see her again. "Come see me baby. You and the girls, we all miss you." I saw Johnny and Jimmy whipped their heads back and grin widely.

"I'll talk to to the girls when I wake up a little more. I know for a fact that Lenny is going to come, but I really don't know about Val or Michelle." She said. I shrugged, I didn't really care if Val showed up or not, she was the reason all this unnecessary drama started in the first place. And Matt was a ticking time bomb waiting to go off at any time. "Alright well I'll call you when we get there. I love you babe." I heard a few muttered curse words and a loud thump before finally just her voice. She probably had fallen getting out of bed. "I love you too. Bye baby." She said then hung up. I laid back in my seat and got as comfortable as I could for the next ten hours of driving until we got to the next rest stop.

(Matt's POV)

As we started on the drive to Las Vegas, I couldn't help but think about how close I was to almost seeing Marigold again. I honestly knew that it was wrong to keep chasing her like this, especially since she was my best friends girlfriend, who I've known since the 7th grade, but I couldn't help it. I wanted the one thing that I couldn't have. I never mentioned it to anybody, but I even had written our song "Second Heartbeat" based around the type of relationship me and Marigold used to have before her and Zacky had become close.

It was around the time we were writing Sounding the Seventh Trumpet, Mari was getting ready to leave for Florida and Val wasn't really around as much, I wrote "Warmness on the Soul" for her as a going away gift. We were on a date at the beach when I sang it to her. I remember the look in her eyes and the biggest smile ever on her face.I kissed her over and over, giving my whole heart to her.Needless to say she was really happy, I had finally hoped that our feelings could blossom more than just friendship. Hell, I had even planned on proposing to her at one point because I loved her so goddamn much.

But when she had admitted to me that Zacky had stolen her heart and that she was afraid of losing him once she left, I knew that my chances had dwindled down to none. So I did what I thought was best for us and I kept my distance from her and when she was gone, I knew that it was over. Only when I learned about her coming home, I couldn't help but feel that damn sense of guilt again. The same guilt that I felt from the moment that I let her get away from me and fall right into Zacky's arms. I prayed that Gena and him would somehow work out and that I could just leave Val for Mari, but it didn't work.

I smiled to myself, remembering the memories of me and her. She used to send me random texts about what I was doing and pictures of herself just because she felt like it. I really missed that girl. The girl that stole my heart and never gave it back.

I prayed that the next few days would play in my favor and that her and Zacky would have a falling out.Only one can hope I guess.