Status: Verrrryyyyyyy Active.
I Will Make You Believe....
Finally
I had followed Josh to get our bags and quietly get into an Uber. Once we were at his place, I remembered that Jesse was on tour himself and we had the apartment to ourselves. Which was why Josh chose to sit down at the kitchen table for the chat.
"Annabel..." he started but didn't continue. I sighed and sat forward in the chair across from him.
"I'm sorry." He looked at me with sad eyes. Sorry was the only thing I could say at this point. I wanted to scream to him that he was the love of my life and I didn't want to lose him, but maybe it wasn't the time for that.
"Why are you sorry?" He asked me in a sad tone.
"I'm the one that caused this. I'm the one that freaked out about Mark walking in and ruined a really important night for you... us...." I corrected myself at the end. He looked shocked.
"I'm the one that needs to apologize. I shut you out for an entire month because I was scared to tell you my feelings about how that night was handled." He reached across the small table, palms up and begging for my hands. My eyes only focused on the bracelet that still remained on his wrist.
"Chips... I had a lot planned for that night. I really just wanted it to be perfect. Mark came in and you shut down on me. Part of me had to think about the long run. What if I said something to you the next day and they found out we were fighting and you got kicked off tour? I would've never forgiven myself." After a moment, I put my hands in his. He was in the right here on all accounts. I was the one that reacted without thinking.
"Josh... before Mark walked in I was trying to tell you that I loved you," His eyes brightened, but that didn't fix the sad smile he now had," and that I think I was ready to tell the crew..." that's when he locked shocked.
"I reacted on instinct when Mark walked into the room. As ready as I was to tell everyone, there was a time and a place for it and that was 100% not it. It's my fault we're broken right now..." my tears came back and fell freely.
This was when Josh stood and walked over to me. A moment later I was up and in his arms.
"I'm sorry Josh... I ruined the best thing I ever h-had." I sobbed into his chest. He just held me as I cried.
"Annabel," I looked up at him and he had a genuine smile on his face," nothing can change the fact that I'm completely, irrevocably, and hopelessly in love with you." His right hand came up to my face and brushed the tears away.
"This is one hiccup in the road. We are both adults, more than capable of talking things out like we are doing right now. From now on, we need to think about the future though. What's going to keep this from happening again because I don't think I can handle another sleepless month without you..." I sobbed again, this time it was happy tears. He didn't hate me. I felt such a relief as he spoke that I could only cry.
"Oh Josh.... I missed you so much..."
And just like that he caught my lips with his. This time there would be no Mark to break us up and no one to walk in on us. Before I knew it, he had carried me into his room and I didn't think or care... all that matters right now was Josh...
"Annabel..." he started but didn't continue. I sighed and sat forward in the chair across from him.
"I'm sorry." He looked at me with sad eyes. Sorry was the only thing I could say at this point. I wanted to scream to him that he was the love of my life and I didn't want to lose him, but maybe it wasn't the time for that.
"Why are you sorry?" He asked me in a sad tone.
"I'm the one that caused this. I'm the one that freaked out about Mark walking in and ruined a really important night for you... us...." I corrected myself at the end. He looked shocked.
"I'm the one that needs to apologize. I shut you out for an entire month because I was scared to tell you my feelings about how that night was handled." He reached across the small table, palms up and begging for my hands. My eyes only focused on the bracelet that still remained on his wrist.
"Chips... I had a lot planned for that night. I really just wanted it to be perfect. Mark came in and you shut down on me. Part of me had to think about the long run. What if I said something to you the next day and they found out we were fighting and you got kicked off tour? I would've never forgiven myself." After a moment, I put my hands in his. He was in the right here on all accounts. I was the one that reacted without thinking.
"Josh... before Mark walked in I was trying to tell you that I loved you," His eyes brightened, but that didn't fix the sad smile he now had," and that I think I was ready to tell the crew..." that's when he locked shocked.
"I reacted on instinct when Mark walked into the room. As ready as I was to tell everyone, there was a time and a place for it and that was 100% not it. It's my fault we're broken right now..." my tears came back and fell freely.
This was when Josh stood and walked over to me. A moment later I was up and in his arms.
"I'm sorry Josh... I ruined the best thing I ever h-had." I sobbed into his chest. He just held me as I cried.
"Annabel," I looked up at him and he had a genuine smile on his face," nothing can change the fact that I'm completely, irrevocably, and hopelessly in love with you." His right hand came up to my face and brushed the tears away.
"This is one hiccup in the road. We are both adults, more than capable of talking things out like we are doing right now. From now on, we need to think about the future though. What's going to keep this from happening again because I don't think I can handle another sleepless month without you..." I sobbed again, this time it was happy tears. He didn't hate me. I felt such a relief as he spoke that I could only cry.
"Oh Josh.... I missed you so much..."
And just like that he caught my lips with his. This time there would be no Mark to break us up and no one to walk in on us. Before I knew it, he had carried me into his room and I didn't think or care... all that matters right now was Josh...