Wreckage From the Past Haunts Me; Shakes Me to the Bone

"Sshh." I whispered to Lauren who was on the ground next to me laughing from the various amounts of soda we had drank already. Me, Lauren and Tegan were currently climbing under everyone's chairs and stealing all of the Cokes and Dr. Pepper. So far Lauren had drank Sid's, Acey's, Ville's, Brandon's, and Bazie's Dr. Peppers and was currently working on getting Joey's. Tegan had drank Zacky's, Gas's, Linde's, Craig's, Jyrki's and James's cokes, and was trying to get Dan's, but he kept moving it. that's be cause he saw what we trying to do and wasn't going to have his taken. I have drank Corey's, Alex's, Mige's, Wednesday, and Jussi's cokes and am really trying to get Matt's. He's talking even though there's a movie on and it's right next to his foot. I reached for it making Tegan laugh. I instantly pulled my arm back as they looked down. They were all laying on the full body lawn chairs with their girlfriends or in Matt's case, he was laying on Jocie. The chairs were not even three feet apart to make sure that everyone could see except the few people laying on blankets in the front of them. Their sodas we couldn't steal. That was Mick, Travis, Marc, Archzie, Johnny, Paul, and Chris. Shawn...well we weren't going to steal his soda. Plus he has Ice Tea and none of us really wanted to drink Ice tea right now.

"Where the hell did Trista go? Aidyn's getting hungry." I sighed and looked down at my watch to see it was noon. I quietly crawled back to the bus before "walking" outside with a bottle.

"Oh hey I was just gonna call you." Corey said as I picked up Aidyn from his arms.

"Nah I was sitting inside reading and I looked up at the clock and saw it was noon. So I made a bottle and came out." I said as I walked over to Jimmy and sat on his lap.

"Hello baby." He said with a smirk.

"Ello love." I replied. He chuckled and kissed me before kissing Aidyn's head. We heard a cry from inside the bus so I got up for Jimmy. He smiled and got up and walked on to our bus.

"How are her dreams?" Shawn asked. Me and him were talking on the way back from the airport and I filled everyone in on what as happening.

"They're worse. Jimmy talked to her doctor before we left and she said that it could be something that was inherited. Jimmy had nightmares really bad when he was younger and still has them today."

"Dude that's gonna suck when she's older." Corey said as he shook his head before picking up his empty soda. He shook it slightly only to hear that it was empty before he looked at me.

"Oh you’re the worse."

"What are you talking about?" I asked innocently as I could without giving it away. He just shook his head and got up to get a new one. I giggled slightly under my breath when Aidyn dropped his bottle and snuggled into my neck more. I set the bottle down next to me and ran my hand up and down his back. He let out a huge burp making everyone burst out in laughter.

"Mama." He said as he grabbed my nose. I laughed and nodded. That was the first time he said "Mama" I grabbed his tiny hand in mine and moved him so he can go to sleep. Jimmy came back with Vicki who had tears running down her face.

"Twista." She said as Jimmy handed her to me. I set her on my other side and she snuggled into my arms. She wrapped her arm around Aidyn and the other one was bent at an odd angle so she could suck on her thumb. Jimmy smiled down at us and sat on the floor next to the chair. Vicki sat up and smaked her dad on the back of the head making everyone laugh.

"Up here daddy." she said as if he was supposed to know.

"Baby girl I won't fit up there." He said with smile. I slide over some more and made enough room. He laughed at me before sitting in the chair with us. Aidyn looked up and reached for Jimmy.

"Dada!" Aidyn schreeked. I looked over at Jimmy who was smiling proudly. He picked Aidyn up and rested him on his chest. Aidyn giggled slightly before he snuggled into his chest. I switched Vicki sides so she was laying on my left side staring at Jimmy and Jussi who was making faces at her.

"You want to go see Uncle Jussi?" I asked as she looked up at me. She nodded and got up and wobbled over to him. He grabbed her and threw her up in the air. she screamed before laughing. Me and Jimmy looked over at her and smiled.

"You know she said somehitng about her mom earlier and when I asked who it was she said you." Ville said as he sat next to me. His words were heavily laced with his Finnish accent.

"Really?" Both me and Jimmy asked at the same time.

"Yeah Trista. I've been here for a day and I can already tell that she thinks of you like a mom." Lauren said as she sat down next to me. Acey followed and took a seat on her. She just laughed and wrapped her arms around his waist. He leaned forward and ruffled my hair.

"Why did you do that?" I asked as I stared at him.

"Because I can." He siad shrugging.

"Uhh...no you can't."

"Yeah I can. I'm older then you."

"And I care why?" I asked smiling.

"Because you're supposed to respect your elders."

"Dude my dad told me the same thing. You know what I did? I flipped him off and walked out of the house." I said. Yeah that's why he was so pissed when you came home and why there was always a nice gash on your head the next morning. I mentally slapped my self as I shook my head to get the thoughts out. Matt never knew and can never know about what happened. Acey smiled before poking my nose. He went to pull his finger away, but I had another plan. I bit his finger hard.

"Ow! Wednesday Fiction bit me! I'm going to get rabies!" He yelled as he ran away. He tackled Wednesday hard to the ground and "cried".

"Your man is so...masculent." I said as I laughed.

"I was thinking childish." Jimmy said not lifting his head from my shoulder. She stuck her tongue out at me and "pouted". I laughed and looked at how Jimmy was laying. He had one arm behind my back and the other wrapped around my middle. his head on my shoulder and his legs tangled with mine and some how managed to keep a sleeping baby on his chest. I think another "baby" was going to fall asleep. For some reason Jimmy will get really hyper and then completely mellow like to the point of falling asleep. He doesn't do it very often though. I think this is the second time since we started tour.

"When we get to New York we should go shopping." Lauren said breaking her pout. I nodded and looked over at Tegan who was tracing designs on a sleeping Zacky's chest.

"Hey everyone. Since we're all falling asleep. Why don't we all go get a few hours of sleep before the show starts. Slipknot’s up first on stage right?” I asked/said as I got up, much to Jimmy's displease. I grabbed Aidyn and helped Jimmy stand up.

"Yeah then Murderdolls, Angels, Avenged, Atreyu, H.I.M., and then The 69 Eyes. That's all right?" Corey said as he counted all of the bands in his head. Jimmy walked over to Jussi and picked up Vicki.

"Yeah I think so. I don't know. I'm tired." Dan said as he got up. He leaned on Alex for support which made me laugh. After the show most of the guys had gone out. Yes even the Avenged boys. They decided to have a "boys night out" Yet there were over 25 grown men! If I remember right they said that they went to three bars or something to that affect.

"Come on let's get to bed before I pass out!" Jimmy said as he groaned. I laughed and nodded. We both walked over to Angel’s bus.

“Are you sleeping over here with me and Vicki or on your bus?” I asked as I opened my door as I looked at him. He stared up with me with tired eyes and I knew the answer. I laughed slightly and walked onto my bus. I placed Aidyn in his bed and walked into the bunk area. Our bunk area was different and kind of hard to walk into. It has three queen size bed downstairs and two upstairs. The ones downstairs are up against a wall and there’s barely any room to get by, but it’s cool. I love it! I walked back out of the nursery and over to my bed. I told the girls ‘Good night’ and laid down in my bed. I looked over to see that Vicki was laying at the end of my bed with her pillow and her favorite blanket. You might think that sounds weird, but she does it frequently. I laid next to Jimmy and smiled. He smiled back and wrapped his arms around m, pulling me into his body. I smiled and sighed in content. With tour going on I haven’t been in the same bed with him for a while. I rested my head in his neck shutting out all light and I heard him sigh as well. I kissed his neck lightly. He pulled his head back and smiled before kissing me hard on the lips. I put more pressure into the kiss and felt him nip at my bottom lip. I moaned quietly and parted my lips. He wasted no time was he pushed his tongue into my mouth. We fought for dominance before he won and roamed my mouth. We pulled apart knowing that if we didn’t stop it was going to get bad, well good, but Vicki’s like three feet from us. It was messed up for me to be even kissing Jimmy like that.

“God I missed you.” He said as he rested his head against mine. His breath was uneven and he was smile and huge smile. So big that it was like he was on a drug high.

“I missed you too.”

“Dude do not make out with her when Vicki is laying right there!” Nikki said as she starred at us. Yeah since out beds were so big they really didn’t have walls, just curtains and I guess I forgot to close them.

“My bad.” I said as I looked at mine and Jimmy’s position.

“Here let me take her for right now.” She said as she picked up Vicki and set her on her bunk.

“You don’t have to do that.” I said as I sat up as far as I could with how I saw laying.

“Hun you deserve to be with be with Jimmy and plus by how he looks he’s going to pass out any second.” She laughed. I looked up at Jimmy and nodded. Jimmy’s head was barely up and his eyes were closed. She winked at me before getting into her bed. I pushed Jimmy’s head down onto my shoulder and laid back. He sighed and set his head in the crock of my neck and kissed the skin there making me tilt my head to the side without realizing I even did it. He smiled against my skin and sifted slightly so he was laying half on my and half off, with his leg between mine and his left arm laying lazily over my hips and his right bent under my back and over on my right shoulder. I smiled and closed my eyes hearing him snore slightly before I feel into a black state as well.

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I woke up with a start having the same dream again. I shook my head to get the thoughts out before I climbed out of my bed seeing as Jimmy had left already. I got changed into a pair of purple hot pants with fishnet stockings underneath and a custom Syn clothing shirt. I slipped a pair of thigh high socks over my stockings and put on my boots. I did my make up again and fixed my hair so it was straight and down. I grabbed my drums sticks and walked out to the front of the bus and saw Tegan sitting there with a vacant look on her face. I tapped her shoulder and she looked up.

“Sorry.” She said smiling.

“It’s cool. I just got out here, but I know we’re up soon.” She nodded and helped her hand out. I grasped it in my own and walked out of the bus and into the Arena flashing our badges at the guards. We walked over to the stage to see that the Muderdolls were playing 197666. One of my favorite songs. I started to sing along with Wednesday. I saw Lauren at the other side of the stage and waved. SHe waved back and smiled befor eiwnking and running out. She tackled Wednesday and took the microphne and started to sing making the crowd go crazy. They went off stage and it was our turn.

“How the fuck are all of you doing?!” Jocie screamed into the microphone. The fans screamed back three times as loud. She laughed.

“This song is called Dead Memories.” She said as she started into the song. We played serval songs before we saw that something was wrong with Lusty.

“Uh...I just want to say that I’m sorry guys. I can see that some of you can see that something is wrong. Last night I was hit in the head with a bottle and I still have a huge headache and well to be honest I’m kind of dizzy.” She admitted to all of us and the fans. We all nodded to each other and pulled Lusty off the stage and ended our set.

“Hey guys since we ended early all Angels Of Deception shirts are free of charge!” I said in the microphone as I walked back out on stage, “but in the mean time I give you all my big brother Matt and his band...”

“Avenged Sevenfold!” Me, Tegan, and Nikki yelled together. We all smiled as the guys ran out on stage. All except Jimmy.

“I’ll find him.” I said to Matt as I walked back behind the stage. I checked the dressing room and he wasn’t there. I checked the bathroom and there he was. With his head down and straw in hand.

“Not again.” Was the only thing I could say.