Wreckage From the Past Haunts Me; Shakes Me to the Bone

"I hate you all!" Lauren screamed as she walked down the stairs in none other then a pair of high heels. Well I really can't call them high heels more like punk wedges. They have her style just more of high heels then her normal shoes. I tried to get out of going out, but she made a deal that I could dress her. She kind of altered what I gave her! Its not like I was going to make her wear a skirt...just a dress. All well! I at least got her in an open back shirt and a pair of heels! That's good enough for me. Tegan was holding onto the wall as she laughed.

"Oh come on it's not that bad!" I said as I tried to reassure her.

"I live around the guys! I mean come on how many times a year do you need to wear heels around the Muderdolls or Slipknot really?" She asked trying to keep a straight face, but she was failing miserably, "Ok it's not that bad. I just haven't walked in heels in a long time so I'm not used to it."

We both nodded knowing it was true. I found out that the real reason we're going out tonight is not only the fact that I haven't been out in nearly a year because of my baby boy and Slipknot, Muderdolls and Lauren are leaving early tomorrow morning. So we have to make the most of tonight. Meaning we probably are going out to drink...I hope not.

"Girls lets go!" I heard my brother yell. I shook my head before fixing my outfit.

"Speaking of clothes why the hell are you wearing a skirt?" I Jocelynask as she finished fixing her necklace.

"It's easier to get on." They all looked at me with a funny look, "Ok Jimmy picked out what I'm wearing!"

"Why?" Britteny asked fixing her earrings before fixing her hair in the mirror.

"He said that he wasn't going to go that he was busy so I bribed him. I didn't think that me saying he could pick out my clothes he would actually agree."

"Only you sis!" Tegan said as she turned around, "I don't look like a geek do I?" She said as she fixed her vest.

"No for something simple it's really hot!" I said as I smiled, "Where are we going anyways?"

"We're just going to Mario's!" I heard Nikki say as Johnny stepped into the room.

"Hey are you girls done. I think the guys are going to scream." He said just as we heard someone yell, "Mick and Clown are playing quarters." We all shook our heads before following him out of the room.

"Alright lets go." Matt said as he placed his arm around Jocelyn's waist. I looked over and saw Jimmy sitting on the couch with his head against the the arm of the couch, asleep.

"I'll wake him up and be out in a minute." I said as I walked over to him. Matt nodded and I knelled by Jimmy.

"Jimmy. Jimmy." I said as I shook him slightly, "Hey wake up." He finally did and shook his head before sitting up and looking at me.

"Huh?" He mumbled as he stretched.

"We're leaving." He nodded and stood up, before walking out of the house. Somethings different with him. I just don't know what. I sighed and stood up and followed his trail. He was walking pretty slowly. I walked up to him and grabbed his hand in mine, hurrying him up. He smiled slightly and nodded his head understanding what I was doing. We got to the car and jumped in before...of course, a smart comment was made from my brother as he pulled out of the driveway and down the street.

"God I thought you two were screwing each other!" I looked at Tegan who smiled and nodded towards me. Man am I gonna make him regret that!

"Well we would have been, but Jimmy seemed a little tired." I replied as Matt slammed down on the he brake making all of us nearly fall out of our seats, but of course I was still messing with his mind. I kissed Jimmy. My brother watching my every movement. Jimmy was trying so hard not to laugh. Zacky, and Tegan were covering their mouths and everyone else was snickering.

"Sullivan you keep your hands away from my sister! Do you understand?" Matt growled and I mean growled. I felt Jimmy gulp before nodding, "Zacky the same thing goes for you. I don't want to see your lips, hands, or you even think of touching my sister in any way other then what you're doing right now!"

"Sorry." I whispered back to Tegan who was cutting me a look that clearly said 'I'm going to kill you once we get home' I looked up at Jimmy and whispered the same thing. He was laughing slightly so I think he thought the whole thing was funny. I laid my head down on his shoulder and yawn.

"You're tired." He stated. I nodded and sat up. He looked at me with confused look.

"If I stay like that I'll fall asleep." I explained. He nodded and put his head back on the seat. He was starting to fidget a lot.

"You ok?" I asked as I took his hand in mine.

"Yeah, just withdraws." He said. Now it wasn't news to anyone that Jimmy did drugs.

"How long have you been off?" I asked looking at him.

"Two weeks." He said without looking at me. I grabbed his chin and made him look at me before smiling.

"I'm proud of you." I said as I kissed his cheek. He smiled back and kissed my cheek before wrapping an arm around my shoulder. His smile was shortly turned into a frown as we heard the familiar intro to Barbie Girl. We both looked at each other. Then I looked at Tegan who was smiling. Nikki, Johnny, Jocelyn, and Brittney were laughing to hard to say anything and Brian was covering his ears. When I thought it couldn't get worse I was proven wrong. My lovely older brother started to sing it! Tegan smiled and jumped out of her seat and into Jocelyn's lap and started to sing it with Matt.

"- hi barbie!
- hi ken!
- you wanna go for a ride?
- sure, ken!
- jump in!
- ha ha ha ha!

I’m a barbie girl in the barbie world
Life in plastic, it’s fantastic
You can brush my hair, undress me everywhere
Imagination, life is your creation

Come on, barbie, let’s go party

I’m a barbie girl in the barbie world
Life in plastic, it’s fantastic
You can brush my hair, undress me everywhere
Imagination, life is your creation

I’m a blonde single girl in the fantasy world
Dress me up, take your time, I’m your dollie
You’re my doll, rock and roll, feel the glamour and pain
Kiss me here, touch me there, hanky-panky

You can touch, you can play
You can say I’m always yours, oooh whoa

I’m a barbie girl in the barbie world
Life in plastic, it’s fantastic
You can brush my hair, undress me everywhere
Imagination, life is your creation

Come on, barbie, let’s go party, ha ha ha, yeah
Come on, barbie, let’s go party, oooh, oooh
Come on, barbie, let’s go party, ha ha ha, yeah
Come on, barbie, let’s go party, oooh, oooh-"

I was burying my head as deep as I could into Jimmy's trying to block out the sound. I felt Jimmy kiss the side of my head before pushing me off him.

"Watch this." He said as he leaned forward without anyone seeing him until he pressed the eject button on the radio stopping and sound. Matt tried to grab it out of his hand, but since he was driving he failed. I was laughing as Tegan tried to grab it too. He got out of her reach quickly and back over to me. He smiled at me before rolling down the window and throwing the cd out of the car and into the windshield of Slipknot's SUV. It broke on impact making me, Johnny, Zacky and Syn (and from what we could see of Slipknot) was laughing at Jimmy's smug look. Tegan was pouting now making me laugh.

"And you say that I act like the younger sister." I said as she reached back and smacked me in the head. I smacked her back, which resulted in Zacky and Jimmy having to separate us. By the time they got us apart we were laughing so hard we couldn't breath. We didn't even know that the car stopped until Matt opened the door and all four of us fell out on top of each other. It was Zacky on bottom, Tegan on top of him, Jimmy and then me. For once I wasn't on the bottom. I laughed at the thought making everyone look at me funny before I got up, with the help of Corey. I noticed Jimmy glare at Corey before he was pushed off of Tegan. I put the thought of him glaring to the back of my mind. Must be withdraws. We all walked into the restaurant and immediate had the classic Mexican food comfort feel. I smiled as we were seated. I sat next to Jimmy and Corey on my right side.

"I'm going to call Shawn alright?" I told Jimmy before kissing his cheek. He nodded and smiled slightly before I walked out front. The phone rang three times before Shawn picked up.

"Hello?"

"Hey how is he?"

"Tris you left an hour ago. He's fine. Go eat and go party before I call Mick and tell him to drag you back and staple you to the seat." He said as he hung up. I stayed out side for a few more minutes just looking at the sun setting before I felt two arms wrap around my waist. I looked back to see Jimmy standing behind me.

"Everything ok?" He asked laying his chin on my shoulder. You see I'm 5'10" and I know what you're thinking. 'Well then Tegan must be tall right?' Nope! She's short. She's roughly 5'4". That's why people don't think that we are twins. Oh that and we don't look a like, but yep she's my little big sis and I'm her big little sis.

"Yeah. I just can't get over everything." I replied not looking away.

"Well for tonight you need to. I'm not trying to sound mean or anything, but this is all of our night out. Plus look on the bright side. Did I or did I not hear the doctor saying that tomorrow you and Tegan can get your cast off?" He said with that smug look again. I nodded my head. Just another thing to add to the list of things to celebrate. We all finished eating and then piled back into the car and it was off to Johnny's we go!

Only two of us were sitting around the table. Various drinks all over the table. Jimmy was pretty sober. Having only drank like two beers so far. The only one who was really wasted was Johnny, who was dancing with Nikki. Lauren was dancing with Acey and the rest of Slipknot was in various places. Everyone else was up and dancing. I think my brother and Jocelyn are going to end up leaving us here. It's funny. When I first met Josie she wasn't really quite, but defiantly wasn't loud. I never thought she would flaunt her sexuality towards someone especially a guy. That sounded wrong. I mean I never thought she would be so open with someone. Shes had some trouble with guys in the past.

"I'll be right back ok?" Jimmy said as he slide out of the booth. I nodded slightly worried, but I knew he would be fine. There were still the classic questions of 'what if', but I pushed them to the back of my head. Corey came back over to me and wrap an arm around me.

"What's up?" I asked looking a t him.

"Jimmy likes you."

"No I don't."

"That's not what I said." He said as he smiled at me.

"What are you talking about?"

"I said Jimmy likes you. Not do you like Jimmy." He pointed out. I blushed and hid my face. I knew he was going to find out.

"Ok. You caught me, but please don't say anything."

"I won't. So who all knows."

"Me and Tegan were talking about it yesterday."

"When you were sitting with your head on his shoulder?" He asked with his eyebrow raised.

"Yeah why?"

"Well you were speaking in Finnish and he understands it. I was hoping that wasn't what you were talking about because he now knows." I about screamed!

"Are you joking?" I asked as I climbed out of the seat.

"No." He stated simply. I shook my head and ran my hand through my hair before I realized something. If he knows I like him. He knows Tegan likes Zacky. I walked over to her and pulled her away from zacky. Unfortunately he was in hearing range even over the music so I spoke in Finnish again.

"Minulla on joitakin huonoja uutisia." (I have some bad news).

"Mitä?" (What?)

"Kun minun ja te puhu eilen ... Jimmy ymmärtänyt." (When me and you were talking yesterday...Jimmy understood it.) I said biting my lip.

"Joten hän tietää, että I..."(So he knows that I...) She trailed off.

"Joo. Olen niin pahoillani." (Yeah. I am so sorry). She nodded and hugged me before pulling me to the bar.

"Bartender!" She called out. I looked at her funny before realizing what she was doing. You see when you want to have a good time you need us girl there. I mean the guys are wild, but I think even we have them beat.

"What can I get you ladies?" He asked as he walked over.

"Can we have two shots of Jack Daniels?" She asked as she leaned over the counter slightly. He laughed and nodded before filling up two shot glasses.

"To twins!" I said as I laughed.

"And getting rid of some extra luggage." She said as she clinked out glasses together before taking our poison. I felt the familiar burning go through my throat as I smiled. She looked up at me before we heard The music be cut and the intro to "Gun Powder and Lead" start up and Jocelyn's voice roll through the bar. Nikki and Brittney ran over and joined her in singing.

"This goes out to a good friend of ours! You might know her as Fiction." The bar started cheering. I was blushing and hiding my face.

"County Road 233 under my feet
Nothin' on this white rock but little ol' me
I got two miles till he makes bail
And if I'm right we're headed straight for hell
I'm goin' home, gonna load my shotgun
Wait by the door and light a cigarette
He wants a fight well now he's got one
He ain't seen me crazy yet
Slapped my face and he shook me like a rag doll
Don't that sound like a real man
I'm gonna show him what a little girl's made of
Gun powder and lead"

Tegan and Lauren pulled me to the front and got up and joined them making me laugh.

"Well it's half past ten
Another six pack in
I can feel the rumble like the cold black wind
He pulls in the drive
Gravel flies
He don't know what's waitin' here this time"

"Come on Trista!" Tegan yelled and pulled me up on stage even after my protest. Soon we were all finishing the song.

"Hey I'm goin' home, gonna load my shotgun
Wait by the door and light a cigarette
He wants a fight well now he's got one
And he ain't seen me crazy yet
Slapped my face and he shook me like a rag doll
Don't that sound like a real man
I'm gonna show him what a little girl's made of
Gun powder and lead
His fist is big but my gun's bigger
He'll find out when I pull the trigger
I'm goin' home, gonna load my shotgun
Wait by the door and light a cigarette
He wants a fight well now he's got one
And he ain't seen me crazy yet
Slapped my face and he shook me like a rag doll
Don't that sound like a real man
I'm gonna show him what a little girl's made of
Gun powder and gun powder and lead
Gun powder and lead"

We got off the stage to see a very fake girl flirting with Jimmy. You know the find you would see on The Hills or Laguna Beach. You could tell by the look on his face that he did not what her to be around him. He was physically pushing her off him.

"Get away from me. I have a girlfriend and frankly I'm not interested." He said as he pushed her away again. By now even the other guys were trying to get her away, but she just wasn't budging.

"I'm gonna go save Jimmy." I said as I walked over to them, "Hey babe." I said as I kissed him.

"Hey. I missed you." he said as he quickly caught on.

"Um excuse me. I was like trying to talk." She said. Her voice was high pitched and annoying.

"Yeah and obviously my boyfriend isn't interested." I quickly shot back.

"I was like here first."

"Actually I was. I came with them and trust me hun they like their girls real. Not fake." I said as I smiled. I could hear the guys trying not to laugh.

"Why would he want you anyways? You're fat."

"No. I had a kid. There's a difference."

"Ohhhh!" She said in her high pitched voice, "So you're a slut. Rev honey she's just trying to get your money." I quickly caught what she was doing now. She was a groupie gold digging slut!

"Hun. I make my own money I don't need his and I might have a broken arm, but I will kick your ass." I said as I walked away from Jimmy slightly and stood up to my full height. I had a good 5 inches on her and I know she can't fight.

"I'd like to see you try." She said with a high pitch laugh at the end as she slapped me. I smirked making the guys eyes widen before I brought back my fist and punched her right in her fake nose. You could hear the crack even over the music. Blood gushed out and all over her pink shirt. She screamed and grabbed a hold of her nose before bring one hand back and slapping me. I didn't even feel the sting before I jumped on her and started to punch her in the face. I felt a sharp sting go through my left arm, the broken one,
before looking down and seeing that she had somehow bit me. I felt two arms wrap around my waist and pull me off of her before i could do anything else. Her friends all screamed before trying to come after me. Jimmy, who I noticed was holding me, turned around so they all hit his back before I saw my girls smile. They all stood up to their full height, all of us being slightly taller, before walking over to them and knocking them all to the ground quickly. I laughed before turning back around to face the first girl. She was visibly shaking. I shook my head with a smile before all of her friends stood up and tried to pull her away.

"You broke my nose." She screamed, by now I realized that the music had stopped.

"No she fixed your nose. The plastic surgeon did a horrible job." Lauren said laughing. We all laughed before the guys wrapped an arm around our waist. I think it was more for the fakes protection then anything though.

"Well get your guys. I swear Trista!" I looked at her confused.

"How do you know my name?" I asked. I mean I know my stage name is all over the place because of our band, but you really can't find my real name.

"I'm surprised you don't remember. I got your last boyfriend." She said as she laughed and walked away. Tegan shook her head before grabbing Brittney's untouched margarita.

"Here we're sorry. Would you like a drink to cool down?" Tegan asked sweetly. The fake smiled before nodding.

"At least someone is nice around here." She said going to take the drink from Tegan, but before she could grab it Tegan dumped it over her head.

"There now you should be cooled down." Tegan said smiling we all stared at her wide eyed before busting up laughing and high fiving her. Johnny, the owner, who we've known since god knows when, came over trying to control his laughter.

"You guys are going to have to go. You're welcome to come back tomorrow, but I can't have that in my bar." We all smiled before nodding knowing it was true. He pulled me away slightly and pulled me into a hug.

"I'm glad you're ok. You're like a daughter. Don't get into too much trouble." He whispered. I nodded and kissed his cheek before pulling away and walking outside, where Jimmy quickly grabbed my hand as everyone got into there assigned vans. Lauren was driving now because she didn't drink. Johnny was sitting next to Matt, who had Jocelyn on his lap.

"Short-shit stop grouping me you're drunk." We heard Matt yell out. My head, who had been resting against Jimmy's chest with his arm around me, shot up looking up at the seat in front of me.

"And you're sexy." We heard Johnny giggle out. Nikki was laughing at her boyfriend so hard she fell out of her seat. I started to laugh as Johnny kissed Matt's cheek with a nice slobbery kiss. Literally there was siliva there after. Matt quickly wiped his cheek and looked up at Jocelyn, who was laughing, for help.

"Sorry babe you're on your own." She said laughing.