You Don't Know A Thing About My Sins

*Gerard’s POV*

“What?” I asked shocked.

That came out of the blue! When Charlie was pregnant we decided to wait till the baby, or Elena as I should now be calling her, was at least six months.

“I want to get married, before anything else stops us,” she told me.

“Babe, we agreed to wait until Elena was older; you said you were ok with it.” I said confused.

“I know! I’m not pissed off about Elena delaying it, I mean before something like Matt happens again,” she confessed.

“We can’t just run off and get married, let’s just wait a little while ok?” I tried to reason.

“No!” she said now crying “I don’t want to risk it Gee; I want to be married to you, now! Before it’s too late! Before something else screws it all up!” she sobbed.

“Charlie I understand but I want our wedding to be special! We’ll start planning it next month and we’ll have our wedding as soon as possible ok?” I said gently, reaching out my freehand to hold hers.

I mean it; I want our wedding to be special, just like it should be.

I understand where she’s coming from, hell I wouldn’t mind running off and doing it right now before something fucks us up again, but if we did we’d regret it later on in life.

I would anyway.

I know it’s supposed to be the girls job to plan her wedding when she’s little and stuff, but ever since Charlie and I got engaged I’ve kind of been planning it in my head, I have this picture of a perfect day and that’s how I want it to be.

I don’t want some rushed thing that’s done on the spur of the moment.

“Ok, sorry Gerard,” Charlie said placing her hand in mine.

“Don’t worry babe, now let’s get these two little one’s home!” I smiled.

“Wow, we have two babies now,” she stated.

“Ha, yeah, think we can handle it?” I giggled.

“I’m sure we can,” she smiled at me.

“I’m sure you can, I have a hard enough time with Mark…..and he’s five!” I laughed.

I really don’t know how I’m gonna handle all of this.

A baby and a five year old?

Ok so Mark not really listening to me is my fault…..I should have listened to mom, Charlie and Frank when they said not to spoil him and such……but I couldn’t help it!

He’s my baby boy!

“You can do it too Gee, you’re a great dad….just don’t spoil her too!” Charlie giggled.

I groaned but smiled after.

“We’ll be able to do it, together…” I nodded.

And we will because we will always be together.

“That we will gee, that we will,”

“To the...” I started but Charlie cut me off

“Oh god please don’t ruin the moment by being all cliché and stating one of your song titles!” she laughed

“Fine I won’t be all sweet and “cliché” then, I’ll just….shit!”
*Gerard’s POV*

“What?” I asked shocked.

That came out of the blue! When Charlie was pregnant we decided to wait till the baby, or Elena as I should now be calling her, was at least six months.

“I want to get married, before anything else stops us,” she told me.

“Babe, we agreed to wait until Elena was older; you said you were ok with it.” I said confused.

“I know! I’m not pissed off about Elena delaying it, I mean before something like Matt happens again,” she confessed.

“We can’t just run off and get married, let’s just wait a little while ok?” I tried to reason.

“No!” she said now crying “I don’t want to risk it Gee; I want to be married to you, now! Before it’s too late! Before something else screws it all up!” she sobbed.

“Charlie I understand but I want our wedding to be special! We’ll start planning it next month and we’ll have our wedding as soon as possible ok?” I said gently, reaching out my freehand to hold hers.

I mean it; I want our wedding to be special, just like it should be.

I understand where she’s coming from, hell I wouldn’t mind running off and doing it right now before something fucks us up again, but if we did we’d regret it later on in life.

I would anyway.

I know it’s supposed to be the girls job to plan her wedding when she’s little and stuff, but ever since Charlie and I got engaged I’ve kind of been planning it in my head, I have this picture of a perfect day and that’s how I want it to be.

I don’t want some rushed thing that’s done on the spur of the moment.

“Ok, sorry Gerard,” Charlie said placing her hand in mine.

“Don’t worry babe, now let’s get these two little one’s home!” I smiled.

“Wow, we have two babies now,” she stated.

“Ha, yeah, think we can handle it?” I giggled.

“I’m sure we can,” she smiled at me.

“I’m sure you can, I have a hard enough time with Mark…..and he’s five!” I laughed.

I really don’t know how I’m gonna handle all of this.

A baby and a five year old?

Ok so Mark not really listening to me is my fault…..I should have listened to mom, Charlie and Frank when they said not to spoil him and such……but I couldn’t help it!

He’s my baby boy!

“You can do it too Gee, you’re a great dad….just don’t spoil her too!” Charlie giggled.

I groaned but smiled after.

“We’ll be able to do it, together…” I nodded.

And we will because we will always be together.

“That we will gee, that we will,”

“To the...” I started but Charlie cut me off

“Oh god please don’t ruin the moment by being all cliché and stating one of your song titles!” she laughed

“Fine I won’t be all sweet and “cliché” then, I’ll just….shit!”