I'll Be With You Here Until The End

I heard Johnny asked from the other side of the door, "Zack? Are you in there?"

"Y-yeah guys come in" Damn! My voice was cracking Again! I have to stop it

"hey man!" Matt asked loudly

"shhhh she’s sleeping!" I said whispering

"sorry man" Matt said, thank god now he was whispering

"how is she doing? Better?" Brian asked

"No, she’s burning in fever, but she refuses to let me bring her something cold" I was still grabbing Monike’s hand & was by her side when Jimmy came & pushed me apart

"Moniike? Baby I’m here… I'm here for you" Jimmy said, kneeling aside of the bed and putting little kisses from Monike's cheek to her neck.

"huh? J-jimmy?" she mumbled sleepily

"shhh it’s okay babe, I’m here" Jimmy answered

"i-i l-love Y-you J-jimmy" she said coughing a bit

"love you too baby girl" Jimmy said standing up, and walking to towards us

"I don’t want you to go" she complained

"it’s okay I’ll stay here with u" Jimmy said now getting with her into the bed

"thank’s jimmy" she said, Then jimmy crash softly his lips into hers, it was an innocent kiss, their lips just were pressed against eachother.

What The Fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was the one supposed to get that! Not him! I was the one who stayed with her! all fuckin' night long, while his boyfriend was at a fucking party.Damn! But she doesn’t even knows that! She thought I was Jimmy.

"guys I think we’re leaving, cuz monike needs to rest, see you tomorrow, call us if you need something" Matt & Brian said leaving the room.

"sure guys thanks, bye!" Johnny said.

I just wanna go to my room, watch them together it just breaks me … "guys, I’ll be in my room, if you need me"

"night zack"

"thanks for taking care of my baby girl Zacky" Jimmy said hugging me

"no problem jimmy" I hugged him, and then ran to my room, I just wanna be alone, and of course there was a problem, but I just didn’t wanna accept it, what I’m I supposed to do? I’m in love with someone who will never be mine… and that someone has to be my bestfriend, who happens to be dating my other bestfriend, damn! I’m lost!

When I finally got to my room it was around 3: 30 am & I took my ipod and put it on shuffle and the first fuckin' song to play was "Accidents Can happen by Sixx: A.M." Fuck that was our song, it became our song after my parents kicked me out, I was broken and Monike played it for me one night, Why does everything has to remind me of her!

Don't give up, it takes a while
I have seen this look before
And it's alright
You're not alone
If you don't love this anymore
I hear that you've slipped again
I'm here 'cause I know you'll need a friend

And you know that accidents can happen
And it's okay,
We all fall off the wagon sometimes
It's not your whole life
It's only one day
You haven't thrown everything away.

Take some time and learn to breathe
And remember what it means
To feel alive
And to believe
Something more than what you see
I know there's a price for this
But some things in life you must resist

And you know that accidents can happen
And it's okay,
We all fall off the wagon sometimes
It's not your whole life
It's only one day
You haven't thrown everything away.

I hear that you've slipped again
I'm here 'cause I know you'll need a friend

And you know that accidents can happen
And it's okay,
We all fall off the wagon sometimes
It's not your whole life
It's only one day
You haven't thrown everything away.

You know that accidents can happen
And it's okay,
We all fall off the wagon sometimes
It's not your whole life
It's only one day
You haven't thrown everything away.

So don't give up
It takes a while.

The more i listen to the song it just make me realize how fool I’ve been, all my life I have been in love with her and I’ve never realized until now, The more I think about it, more memories come back haunting me.