February 7th, 2009 at 10:31am
1.) Does she know?
2.) Me too, sweetie, me too.
3.) I know it seems bad, and I've been there, but it really helps, maybe she isn't the best person to talk to about that, but you've got plenty of other people. I'm always here for you, I promise. Its going to be painful to talk about how you feel, but if you don't, you end up dead. Its really that bad.
4.) Its ok. Trust me. She'll understand. Its hard to stop. Its hard to stay away. She will forgive you and it will be ok. Maybe not right now, but evetually. Everything will be fine in the end; If its not fine, its not the end.
5.) I'm hoping you don't. Cuz, Hell, I don't know you, but you're awesome. Very, very awesome. I care. I know it seems hard to believe, but I read this, and I felt it, and I cried. And I care about you. And if someone told me you had died, I would cry until we all fucking drowned.
6.) The bleeding will stop. The wounds will heal. They won't hurt anymore. Give it time.
2) =/
3) I've been opening up to several people and to be honest, it's just making it worse for me.
4) I hope so.
5) I'm sure I won't. I'm just not that lucky.
6) I'll just make new wounds. I like the hurt. I like the bleeding. It proves I'm still alive.