You were probably banned from the journal overview site for profanity. Yeah, you've got to censor curse words, it sucks. But, hey, the fact that I found this on the overview site means you're not banned anymore.
I see myself very different in my dreams too. I know it's me, but I don't look like myself at all. Most of the time I dream I'm this skinny girl with brown hair, wearing a blue shirt, looking over the sea from a white rock, it's pretty weird. Or trains, I dream about trains a lot...