An attempt at an apology? i don't know. - Comments

i know exactly whatcha mean, i erase my journals alot XP

I love you is overused, I have two different contexts in which I use it

1- For my best and closest friends and family who I could absolutely not live without, these people are my family of course I love them.

and

2- For meaning that I am in love with someone, I however won't say it until I completely sure I am absolutely completely in love with them.

Its good that you apologised though really you just realised something which is also good. Revealations are a great part of life