Too much Pain. - Comments

You know, I feel the same way most days... Maybe not to such an extreme, though.
Most days I want something to go wrong, then I'll have a reason to feel the way I do. A reason to feel so low.
I have to fight the urge to drive into oncoming traffic most days, and a few other urges I don't feel like mentioning...
It sucks. It really does.
If you need to talk, you can talk to me. You know that.

It's a way so that her pain is meaningful.
Like, she feels hopeless because her supposed pain is just imaginary. She wants a reason to feel this way.
It sounds odd but makes sense, in some ways

VV o.x

I want to be raped, beaten
You what?
Don't ever wish that upon yourself.

I actually get what yu mean.. Surround yur self with people that care and love yu... And will help yu feel better...