I don't know what's happening to me. - Comments

Welcome to being a teenager.

Happens to almost everyone. I've lived through it, My friends lived through it, even my mother has lived through it. Things get better though..trust me.

There's a chance I understand where you're coming from, because I feel like the same happens to me sometimes, too. I used to hang out with... well I still kinda do, the kids who get high and are on probation and stuff. I smoked weed and cigarettes, just like you did and I loved it. I loved the feeling it gave me, I loved being able to feel like I've got experience that not everyone has. It wasn't like I was doing it to be cool, because a very small amount of people even knew and I always felt stupid when I talked about it. After a year or so I ended up quitting smoking everything. But every once in a while I just feel like I have to smoke a cigarette or something, just because ... I honestly don't know. I've learned that sometimes you just have to tell yourself to shut up, though. There's really no other help you're going to get than you just sucking it up and putting out the cigarette.

I love you. You'll get through it.

Mold your mind to what you want to become and focus only on what you want.

Could be

If you know you're like this then you have to sort it out, surely? No one else can fix the problem but you.... it just sounds like, well... a batch of rebellion and laziness. No offense.