I am a coward. - Comments

thanks, I figure I will move out once I find a friend that can actually move in with me.
But i know it can be hard cause all my mom does is pay the bills every month and she gets stressed every time it comes back around.

Aw man, I just read your other journal...
Bummer.

I advise you to move out on your own as soon as possible. XD
No, seriously, or else your parents will mooch you for every penny you get. As harsh as it may sound...
One thing is helping, another is being used.

Finding a job is only hard at the beginning.
It's hard to pick up the phone and dial the numbers, but once you do it a couple of times, you see that it's no big deal.
Same goes with interviews - once you get sure of yourself, I guarantee that they will hire you. Just believe in yourself - try imagining you've already got the job, it helps.

If you want to move out, then you really do need to get a job.
I'd advise you not to rush into moving out, but I don't know your situation at home. If you get along with your parents, there's really no rush for it; save some money, enjoy life a bit before you fall into the 'bill paying category', because frankly, it sucks.

How to motivate yourself?
Just get up and do it - that's the hardest and scariest part and no one can do it for you. Once you're on your feet, the worst is over.
Think of how good it'll feel once it's behind you and let that motivate you. :)