Im so sorry. I lost a good friend in March, and I really do know how you are feeling. He was the nicest kid I knew. But I really hope you feel better. I suggest thinking of him a lot, even if it hurts. It will help remember, and in the long run, it will make you smile when you think of the good times.
I agree with KittyxAmour freak accidents do happen, as I found out yesterday. Again, I'm terribly sorry for your loss.