Wow..thats just amazing! it really explained how i feel. Like in exact detail.This was really moving and it got me thinking so many things. Thanks for asking me to read this. It really got to me.
Ok, so I feel like most people feel like this. A great majority of people feel like they're on the outside looking in. To me this gets to the point where the outside of the box is the center of the world. Or at least that's where it's going to be. Me, myself. I exist inside the box deeply delving into it's many folds and levels. And everyone in the box honestly feels like they don't really belong there either. People naturally aren't secure with wherever they are so they work to make themselves fit. But I have to stress. I Am Inside The Box. It's possible to exploit the system to your advantage. That's why it's still there. If it didn't give somebody an advantage it would have been put out long ago. But now that the peripheral is the central things might begin to change. The appendix becomes the heart and those that used to be brain are seen as the infection. Have you noticed that the ones that are the most hated are the ones that try the hardest to be the most loved. The popular ones that direct the flow of social strata. they're the infection. and they've made the heart of the body feel like it's something completely outside the body.
very very good journal-a lot better than many ive read on this site as all people seem to do these days is broadcast their personal problems. its very thoughtful< made me think a lot.. its so damn true too, good work :)
Something like this, is, well something I'd look to read when I feel as if I should just get removed. You know.
I have been there, and this....
"If you have felt like this you'd know too well what it feels like to be alone, to be abandoned. You know how hard it is to look at the people that surround you and see them look so happy, so much better than you. They all seem to have it figured out, whatever that something is that we all need to figure out in life, they got it and you don't. Since as long as you can remember you've noticed that everyone "fits" somewhere. But no matter how hard you may try you never do. Everyone are set up in their place in the world and you're just the neglected piece. So what do you do? do you do everyone a a favor and just off yourself? Or do you just sort of move among, roaming around the moving pictures?"
...is just describing that to a 'T'.
I really have no words, other then what I've already said that would truly describe what reading this has made me feel. So thank you for posting, more importantly thank you for the comment that you left on my profile, that made me read it. I'm really glad I did. And I'll defiantly read it again when/if I feel like that again.
And it hits close to home. Very... real. Something I might just bookmark so I can read it later when I'm getting... unhappy. Thanks for posting this. :)
You really do have a way with words. Fantastic post. You definitely channel, as puppet master said, a motivational speaker, but different from the typical ones. More interesting.
By the time i finished reading this, there were tears in my eyes. You just stated everything I feel on a daily basis. I may not be a believer in God but I feel you know exactly what you;re talking about. This was completely moving and I'm wondering how many other people feel this way? How many don't realize the way we feel?