I am a bit younger than you but I understand where you're coming from and I understand how it is to put yourself out there like this hoping for help and no one helps you in any way. I'm just as afraid as you and have been called ugly things behind my back and have been hurt and had a bit of depression I guess, but as you are I'm working on it. Of course it's never easy to just change your ways over night, and it takes time, but maybe if you really look at what you have in front of you (a loving boyfriend) and give yourself reason to trust him and gradually begin to learn more things about him you didn't know maybe that will give you a chance to open yourself up to him. Just ask him as innocent of a question as "have you ever regretted something?" and you'd be surprised with what type of trust that can bring. I hope you the best. :)
January 20th, 2012 at 04:12am