what even is my life this is a serious question - Comments

@ Elodin
-hug- there there :c it'll be ok XD

@ Sam Carter

SUCH LOVELY PEOPLE I CANNOT

sobs

@ Elodin
yes yes it was :D

and omfg I can't cope they're one of the best bands I've heard in a good while omg

@ Sam Carter

everything makes sense now yes this was the universe's intention all along

aw yes I've been completely in love with Death Rattle for like six months. And Beggars, holy shit. Don't even get me started. SAM'S VOCALS IN THAT JFKFLLDKDLFK I AM DEAD.

@ Elodin
AND THAT FIC IS PERFECT SO IT'S ALL GOOD. :D

omfg hahahaha I'm like that with BMTH omfg and thAT SONG I CAN'T EVEN. That, Beggars and Death Rattle are my favourite things.

@ Sam Carter

ACTUALLY. I THINK THAT CONVERSATION ENDED UP WITH MY DECIDING TO ACTUALLY WRITE YOUNG AND LOADED AS OPPOSED TO JUST HAVING THE IDEA FLOATING AROUND THE BACK OF MY HEAD. GOOD THINGS.

I am slowly going insane because of them I am not joking I'll just sort of be quiet for a while and then squeal something about how they're so perfect and nobody even gives me strange looks anymore

1949 CAN I JU S T

@ Elodin
yeahhh it was something like that :') THERE NEEDS TO BE MORE OF THOSE FICS THO OK THERE ARE LIKE, NONE.

and they are the definition of perfection, literally I can't even

@ Usako

Yeah, that was more or less an idea I had. The thing is, I love writing, but if you study literature it's pretty limited afterwards. Like, it's either attempting to write professionally or teaching, and teaching is a huge ew.

Ah. I am in a couple of extracurricular activities, but I barely have time for anything nowadays and... I don't know, I don't tend to make friends, just those people you'll say hi to when you see them but never actually hang out or anything. But anyway. I appreciate the suggestion, thanks.

@ Sam Carter

actually

if I recall correctly

we may have bonded over complaining about how there were no Sam/Oli fics anywhere on the internet

WHAT? Omfg someone tell me if it's normal to be tHIS EXCITED SOBS THEY ARE SO PERFECT AREN'T THEY

@ Elodin I understand what you mean. I always wanted more to be into the "artsy" side of things, and my parents were never for it because those aren't "real" jobs as they put it. However, just because you are going into the sciences or something more "practical" as they would say, doesn't mean you have to abandon your passion for art. Just keep it as a hobby and hon it, you know? Who knows maybe you'll become the next big artist or writer and may not even need your science job anymore.

If you are feeling lonely, maybe join a sport or a club of some kind? While you won't have friends right off the bat, it'll draw you to people with similar interests as your own.

@ Elodin
it does omfg like that was back when I actually used deviantart :') aw tho was I? Hahahaha aw yes definitely :D we need to talk more because I think you're the only one that shares my love of Architects.

(((also I'm reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally getting into Mallory Knox like so much omfg)))

@ Sam Carter

AW REALLY

WOW I NEVER REALLY THINK ABOUT THIS BUT IT'S TRUE THAT I DID START TALKING TO YOU OVER BEAUTIFUL DANGEROUS AND STUFF

omg that seems like so long ago

I actually think you were one of the first people that I, you know, actually talked to on the internet? so yeah. ILY TOO. LOTS AND LOTS :''D

@ Usako

I know choosing a-level subjects and stuff certainly isn't a permanent decision, but I really can't help but feel stressed, you know? And constantly having hormonal existential crises isn't helping. Or the fact that I have to consider the whole recession-and-unemployment thing (it's pretty high over here, as you might have heard) and might have to do what might be more useful for my future as opposed to what I like. I mean, I'd much rather do arts than sciences, although I'm pretty good at both - but what will I do later if I study art? I don't know, I guess I should be panicking less, but family members and teachers and stuff are always going on about the same thing and it's hard not to feel at least a little pressure.

Ah, no, I've heard that so many times too. It's just that... well, I do tend to feel lonely sometimes, but it more or less goes away after a while.

@ Elodin
YOU WERE LIKE ONE OF THE FIRST PEOPLE I TALKED TO THAT I STILL TALK TO OK THAT ALONE MEANS ILY LOTS. BUT NO YOU'RE AWESOME AND STUFF AND ILY :D

damn fucking right!

@ Sam Carter

WOW REALLY BUT WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT I MEAN YOU ARE A SUPERIOR BEING IN PRETTY MUCH EVERYTHING

pffffft. I know. who needs friends when you have tumblr and a wifi connection.

@ Grump Bunny

Yeah, I know, I've been told that, but... ugh, it still seems like there's so much pressure all the time to "do well for the future", and it honestly drives me insane with the whole not-feeling-so-happy-lately thing. I mean, obviously, you have so much room for change later on, but I still feel like I'm having to make important decisions with no idea of what I actually want.

Awh, I should probably feel grateful for that. And thank you, honestly. I'll keep that in mind c':

I had no idea what I wanted to do when I was fourteen years old. Like, at the time, I wanted to be a rockstar photographer that helps third world countries on the side. Like, shoot, I'm going on 21 and I'm still thinking about it really. You have a lot of time to figure these things out, and don't freak out about it. Freaking out about it will only make you sick and make you think less clearly.

To be honest though, I didn't have friends in high school either. I had maybe one or two at most, and if that. And as cynical as it sounds, you probably won't keep those friends after high school anyway.

I LIKE YOU I THINK YOU'RE AMAZING D: friends are overrated anyway pffft

I know school can be stressful, but if it helps you really don't need to have figured out what you want to do with the rest of your life right now. I'm 20 and in college, and I still only have a vague idea of what I might possibly want to do. I think school only does that so that you have maybe a little direction, and so that they can help you better understand ways of achieving that goal.

It is just an urban myth, we won't take down your blog for lack of punctuation. If you ever need to talk my inbox is open.