@ Zirara Well, that's pretty much what I figured. But it's just weird, I guess. Aw. And you'll never be alone either, so that won't ever be a problem :3
I'm pretty sure that whole thinking people talk about you behind your back is all down to depression and a low self esteem. It's just like, thinking everyone will leave you in the end, because of, other reasons. The past usually and low moods don't help that. But I'm pretty sure that everyone feels like that at some point. As if everyone will leave and you're just paranoid about it until eventually, they notice and they will leave. I think you need to have more confidence love. I know it's not something you can suddenly gain but you can help it. Realise that you are important, people care about you but they also care about other people too. If they're closer to other people and have been close to other people longer than it's pretty normal for their to be a choice to be made in their favour. It's just how it works really. Being alone is not a good idea love beside, you won't be allowed to be alone so long as I live :D
I hate to go all psychological on you but... it sounds to me that the conflict has more to do with perhaps feelings of inferiority.
I feel that way a little bit sometimes when it comes to protecting my friends, in a way. If I feel like they're becoming my close friend, I want them to feel the same. If they don't, then I start weening myself away.
Yeah, I get that
Good ;D