My struggle - Comments

I wanted you to know I read this out of curiosity, but I feel deeply for you. No one should ever have to feel hated for no reason like that, and I can't imagine what it makes you feel even today. You have your son, and he is your reason to keep going and love yourself. I hope someday you are able to shake those demons off your back (meant in a metaphorical sense).

Yeah. I just struggle sometimes. I have my other best friend, not mentiones in this, who is going through the same phobia as me and also has ptsd. He is a great help.

I just really wanted to explain what the struggle I mentioned was. i felt like it was time to put at least some of it out there. Im currently in a position where I can't continue that story just yet so I'm hoping readers will read this and see why

I know that saying sorry from a computer isn't going to help in the ways you (also more myself) wish it could. I'm terribly sorry you've had such a shit time in your teen years and with boyfriends. I know from experience how much a boy can just drag you down, especially if you think you love him and he loves you. I just wish there was more I could say; you're a great person and your stories are awesome, and, this is a big one, you've got a great son who you love and take great care of.
Even though things are so tough and emotionally draining, you've still got a lot to look forward to. More than anything, you got a son who loves you and adores you. I hope that what I've written here has given you just a little something. You've got great support in friends and family.