Fic Live Blog: Seasons - Comments

@ sheepcat;
@ heroes.

I associate a lot of songs with that fic, actually. Lately I've been listening to "Kiss You Goodnight" and it fits that story so much, it hurts. Goddammit Meg & Dia.
If I ever get my own show, I want you guys to be in it with me. It wouldn't be complete.

The library fic ended my writer's block.

I'm doing the live blog for Heartbreaker, guys.

@ sheepcat;
She does, oh my goodness. Miss Aliya, how my heart is punched occasionally, ahhhh. But it's okay, because the pain usually comes from something so sad but also so good. I hurt myself by reading things repeatedly that I know will hurt me. Also writing occasionally, but the readings definitely overpower it.

@ bullets are hailing.
That lyric just took the fic and turned it into a heavy-duty knife or something and jabbed me everywhere and noooope nope.

I REMEMBER THAT FIC. I AM SO GLAD THAT FIC HAPPENED. OH MY GOODNESS EEEP.

It wasn't very good lyric placement. I shall now associate that song with Seasons and it will make me tear up.
Slapstick comedies are hilarious.

Thank you; I just went through your works and apparently I've already read it but whatever. I can't remember.
Well thank the heavens you did write it.

@ heroes.
@ sheepcat;

I was really being serious when I posted that lyric.
You have no idea how I loud I yelled that when I first read the fic. And yeah, I realize that I end up hurting myself sometimes. So much that I think I belong in one of those slapstick comedies. But of course, the comedy would also be black comedy. Yeahh.

Here's the library story: Your Eyes Caught Mine

Fun fact: If it weren't for this fic, none of my other Haylivers would've existed.

@ heroes.
I know, Aliya just really hits you in the heart. And herself, which I find a little bit humorous.

Aliya: I must find this library story. Libraries are so peaceful; I can only imagine the conversation you wrote to accompany it.
Most of my chaptered stories take place in the real world, but somehow always slip into AU - the band breaks up or something or they just have a really long, not explained break off touring.

THERE'S A TIME AND A PLACE TO DIE BUT THIS AIN'T IT.

MY GOOD LORD.

THAT ACTUALLY HAD ME CHOKING FROM SADNESS BECAUSE CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT BEING SAID TO POOR HAYLEY AS SHE SLOWLY SLIPS AWAY? MY GOOD LORD TWICE. SHIT MAN, OUCH.

THIS FIC, MAN, THS FIC HAS ME IN TEARS AND I CANNOT STOP REREADING IT, REREADING ALL OF THEM.

Okay, so I was reading through the comments and the non-linear one-shotness of all this Hayliver wonderfulness just made me so happY AND THEN YOU THREW IN THE DEREALIZATION AND I CHOKED AGAIN OH MY GOOOD.

YOU SEE ALL THESE CAPS? AAAAAH.

@ sheepcat;
Way to tear my heart out again. Do I even have a heart anymore? The poor thing's been so mutilated.
I believe I also damaged my own heart because I added that link and that just puts all these other stories in a different light.

Yeah, I do prefer real world now that I think about it. Most of my Haylivers are based around real life events. Though I do like doing AU once in a while. Like when I wrote that one about Hayley and Oli in a library.

OH MY GOD. That is an incredible link!
She said six months or more; no exact timing. She'd outlive it by three months or so. (Mainly because I still want to imagine Oli over her grave)
The derealization could work perfectly. All the times she's calling out for help it could be for the Ferris wheel, the doubling over in pain, being judged for her hair. Oh. That could work. Nice idea. And since that happened after she saw Oli, she's basically shipping herself with him!

That just sucks. But everyone writes differently. I prefer AU to real world, I'm assuming you prefer real world to AU. No big deal.

@ sheepcat;
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That would be so cool! Can you imagine if somebody combined all these stories and made them all into one? That'd be awesome. Ooh, so does this mean that since Hayley outlives her six months deadline, it's all a happy ending? I like the non-linear one shots idea and yeah, I just realized that my Haylivers don't fit because they include the band-related stuff. Dammit, Aliya. And if we really wanna make it all twisted, we'd add in The Rushing of the Water and all these stories are just in Hayley's head. But nah, that's just me being crazy and not making any sense. You know what, just ignore what I said.

But really, how ironic is it that I'm the "Hayliver Momma" yet my fics don't fit in with this.

That sounds absolutely fantastic.

Well, to start off with the easiest Pressing Flowers and Seasons has Hayley's assumed love of gardening. Say Come & Go was the beginning of the tale and Seasons was the sequel, it could show how Hayley's lost contact with Jeremy and Taylor and has started a life with Oli. Next could come Pressing Flowers - Hayley's outlived her six month deadline, she may have been pregnant at the time of her diagnosis. You could also throw Ink and Chopped Orange Locks somewhere in the continuum as memories that Oli is telling Hayley. Disregarding the band-related stuff, of course. Just so that it becomes AU too. Also imagine there was another story that had him standing over Hayley's grave and consequently making an explicit statement to audience that she had died and you've got yourself a pretty nifty non-linear one shots series. (Otherwise Ink and Chopped Orange Locks have no business being in the timeline. Or you could switch Come & Go and Seasons and put Pressing Flowers first and confuse everyone in the process of telling the story.
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@ sheepcat;
I still can't keep in the tears. That fic ruined my eyeliner yesterday...

My commentary of your fics will have a lot of caps. And there will be more tissues. And I might also need a doctor to repair my heart. So yep, just letting you know what to expect.

Oh, really? That's interesting. What connections have you made?

It was even worse. You were right. I managed to keep the tears in, however. (I was sitting in the lounge room - might look a bit suss.) Thank you for the added emotion.

Oh... I'm hesitant to read my stories' versions of these. A knot in my stomach is forming just thinking about it.

As I've been reading all these Haylivers, I've realised something: they could be a non linear sequence of time between the two, disregarding some fics, or making up different timelines to suit each. And that's pretty cool. I've been making connections between them.

@ sheepcat;
That's what happens when I read this fic for like the hundreth time. Sorry.
I tried to make some of my commentary at least a little humorous.
But really, we might need to build an ark because I'm gonna be reading your fic again, so the world's going to be underwater soon.

I know... I'm going to read it again and imagine it like that. (You're horrible for even suggesting it, just so you know.) The rest of the commentary was pretty good. Especially the "bring two of each animal". I snickered; I couldn't help myself.

@ kitsch
NO THEY DON'T. THEY'RE CHEESY. Yours shoved my heart up my throat and pulled it right out of my mouth.

@ sheepcat;
That just made the story even more sad.

Standing over her grave... I'm sobbing too!

Mine don't, yours do. End of.

@ kitsch
Uh what are you talking about. My fics don't tear out hearts.

Well I can say the same about your Hayliver fics, babe.

@ kitsch
Now you know what went through my mind when you tore my heart out with this fic.