March 2nd, 2014 at 11:47pm
Hugs
The worst part about this is that you thought it was your fault. The verbal abuse is just as bad as it leads to emotional abuse in which you blame yourself. The part where he broke up with you to make you beg, and for you to say you didn't care how he treated you? Happened to me too. My guy was cheating and I couldn't let go. :( Eventually I just said 'F' it and went out with a bunch of ppl to get him out of my head, which wasn't healthy either. I think because of my age (teens) I was immature and didn't know about love or how someone should treat me since it was my first bf. I didn't have a great environment growing up, listening to put downs and name calling from my parents not to mention the conditional love they put upon me to be perfect which I couldn't attain because, hell, who can?
You are not worthless, helpless or stupid. He is for treating you so bad. He sounds so jealous and envious. That's where that name calling comes from when he got in contact with you again. You have a better life now without him. Yes, they say you never get over your first love, but once you find someone that treats you right, you'll know you're better off without him in your life and without his sh!tty attitude. Let someone in and take care of you for once. Don't let his mindgames get to you. You can pm me if you want. I'm not always on here, but I come on at least 3 times a day to check stuff out. Just an offer. Don't feel obligated. Hey,
YOU DO DESERVE BETTER! XX
I know how you feel. It sucks ass. I've dated like three people since her. One girl, who used me and she betrayed me. Though I didn't really care for her. I dated a doushey guy who I apparently owe 50 dollars. Now I'm currently dating the guy I've had a crush on for two years, but pushed away because of her. I feel ya. It sucks