The question is - am I strong enough to deal with this? - Comments

First off, I wanna say I'm here for you if you need anything. Second, he'll never really be gone. He'll always be there watching over you. I believe your grandfather will be your guardian

Death is never easy, I don't want to go all Christan on you but it says in the Bible that Jesus had a best friend named Lazarus and Lazarus died and "Jesus wept" which is the shortest verse in the Bible and when Jesus wept he wept so hard that he actually brought Lazarus back to life. Death is a powerful stage to overcome but sticking close to family and prayer is the best medicine.