October 1st, 2014 at 07:49am
I wish I could help you. I'm generally pretty good at math. But I suck at explaining it through text; I usually can only explain through showing. ><
I know how it goes. I've been really overwhelmed with school, too. This is my last semester and the work load is super heavy, and getting all of it done while balancing it with work and other aspects of my life...I've been having anxiety issues and panic attacks again this semester.
Just because you're not organized does not mean you aren't smart. I've had my lack of organizational skills used against me to berate my intelligence most of my life, by teachers and others, and I want you to know that that's bullshit. Organization and time management is an important skill and it's one that can be learned. It is not the be-all, end-all of your intelligence. Just from reading this I can tell that you possess other kinds of intelligence. The ability to communicate effectively, for example, and the ability to analyze your own actions and behaviors objectively. Those are not skills everyone has.
I'm sorry you're going through so much stress. I've been there. I'm there currently. But I hope you know that you CAN recover from it. It'll be hard, but you can do it and if I can help in any way let me know.
Good luck with everything.
I'm sorry that you are having a hard time with school and anxiety, too. I hope that things get better for you. And your kind words really mean a lot to me, it means a lot to know that I am not alone. I wish that I somehow knew that it would all be better in the end, but the stress from school makes me somewhat blind to reality. I forget that it isn't going to be like this forever and I get overwhelmed, because I don't seem to see a light at the tunnel. But I know that things are going to get better. I have some business to handle. But I will get there and I will conquer what needs to be done to get where I want to be.
And I know you will, too. You're awesome. Rock on.