I'm Falling Back Into That Deep Dark Mindset Again - Comments

Thank you @green20, it's not as though I have anything to be depressed about. I have a good job, to be fair it was only a year as I'm covering maternity leave - but I'm thankful for the chance to work and gain experience of the world after my education finally finished. I doubt I'll go back into education now I know what having a job is like. It would feel as though I am going backwards. Also I don't think that I could handle a job and getting educated at the same time.

My family are lovely, really supportive. Occasionally I do get frustrated with them, mostly my mum - but who doesn't?

My friends are fantastic but sometimes I don't think they truly understand what I'm going through. Especially when we go out and I struggle being stuck in a crowd of people with no visible way out.

My responsibilities equal to keeping my car on the road and in good shape. Other than that, there's nothing. I want/need a laptop and a new iPod. One of these days I'll manage to switch it off (not that I've tried for a while as the button is being daft and won't do anything) and then it won't come back on. Also a new laptop as mine struggles with Photoshop and the Internet being on at the same time.

But as I have said there is nothing that screams to be trigger into depression, and I thought when I looked back that there would be.

Thank you for offering to listen

I'm sorry I know how it is . I suffered with depression for 4 years and even though I'm not on medication anymore sometimes it comes back and when I get upset or something happens that isn't good I slowly fall back into that sadness and I hate it so much. A lot of things trigger it and it's hard but maybe going to counseling will help I wanted to go back to but it's expensive and I don't have the money right now . But you can always talk to me I'm not sad all the time just sometimes but I'm a good listener to ☺☺:)