What Scares You the Most? - Comments

@ ScreamingIntheNight
Thanks for those encouraging words. I am a very insecure person when it comes to believing in my own abilities. Same on this site. I am very insecure about my writing. I need way too much confirmation by comments and readers than I like to admit.

@ Alex Moore.
I believe you can be a good doctor. It takes a lot of patience for medical school. Anyone with that patience has what it takes to me.

Wow this is so much to handle. Losing your mum, shouldnt be this early in your life, shouldnt be the way it happened. I am so sorry for you loss and I hope you can grieve and mourn the way you need to.

to answer your queation; what scares me? Not living up to my potential. All these years of medical school and I still fear of not having it in me to become a good doctor. so yeah thats my fear.

@ pocahontas.
Thanks. It's been a couple of months now, but with my birthday having just passed and my doctor who knew my mom as well asked about her, I feel like I'm back on that down slide. Not talking about her feels wrong, but talking about her brings back the nightmares. Caught between a rock and a hard place

Oh god I am in tears and I just want to hug you and I am so so sorry you're going through this. If you need anything at all, just message me and I'll try my best to help you. I think my fear is just the same as the fear you had. Even more so, now. I hope you don't believe your family about you being a bad daughter. I don't think you were at all, and clearly neither did your mum.

My deepest condolences goes foremost to you and consecutively to your family. I cannot even begin to understand your pain. I'm moving out to a new country in two weeks, and I've no idea when I'll get the chance to see my parents again. I think the worst is that although I know this is happening, I haven't quite registered yet so I'm not kissing them or hugging them or declaring my love as often as I should.

My biggest fear is waking up and feeling different. Or having someone else I care for waking up and feeling different. Because we can never be sure that tomorrow, we'll wake up and our feelings towards somebody won't be any different. And that's shit scary.