Find My Place in This World

Taz did his best to cover Bucky's metal hand, sure people had prosthetic for their lost limbs, but none were metal like Bucky's and if they were they weren't such a fine piece of equipment. Bucky's arm is amazing, made out of something not even Taz's father knew of, sturdy and intense, really packed a punch and from everything Taz knew of Bucky's arm was not just one of a kind but similar to Captains America's shield. Secretly Taz was in love with Bucky's arm, the mechanics of it, the build, the way the metal would sometimes shift when Bucky was practicing in the sparring room. Maybe Taz was just a bit of a mechanics nerd but Bucky's arm always caught his interest.

Taz just gave a hum to agree with Bucky's offer of a walk, he wasn't paying too much attention. He kept his face close to Bucky's, glancing up at him when he caught the man by the pole glancing over at them and he could see his body change, his shoulders square. And so Taz put as much as he could into the act at hand," A walk? Think I'd rather just go home with you, get right down to business" he said, lowering his voice to a whisper because it looked believable. Taz moved the hand from Bucky's bicep to his neck, his fingers cold but warmed by the touch as they landed on Bucky's neck, thumb pressed to his jaw. Up close he could see the flecks of grey in his eyes, the little stubble that line his sharp jaw, and Taz was a little in awe by how attractive Bucky was, like he knew the other was good looking, but up close he could see all the little details, the soft curve of his lips. "I'm so sorry, but I just wanna say that I so support you guys. You two make the cutest couple ever! keep strong yeah" One of the girls spoke up, pretty brown hair curling by her dark face as she spoke to them and Taz had to snap out of having the urge to kiss Bucky to smile at her, sliding his hand down to Bucky's chest instead."Thank you so much! That's so sweet right James?"

The man by the pole moved a little closer to them as some people came into the train, his sleeve dropping the slightest and Taz could spy tentacles and a skull, his hand squeezing Bucky's metal one.

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"I think it's good that people want to stay away from me." Steve said with a deep chuckle. He used to always be friendly with people, always enjoy making a new friend, talking to strangers and just being good with other people but over the time and the things he has been through he has shut himself off from such things. He still liked people and their complexities but now he liked to watch them from afar. He had the Avengers after all, they were enough for him, and so was Eleanor so if strangers felt weirded out by him and the way he looked around then he was alright with it.

Steve stood quiet as he pulled his arm back and watched Eleanor throw the balls, she was close but didn't make it. Steve knew he could with the very first ball, knock all of the bottles down, after the serum his aim had improved, he was much stronger of course as well and these sort of small challenges were rather easy. He felt like he was a bit of a cheat if he played because of the serum, but not so if he played for Eleanor."Would you like any of those prizes?" Steve asked as he pointed to the plush animals that hug above the stands, ranging in different colors and sizes. Ifhe was going to play then he was going to do it for Eleanor in hopes of giving her a gift, she's done enough for him over the course of weeks than he could have ever expected anyone too. She was a real gem and he felt the need to treat her.

@ sugarplum.

Bucky grew more uncomfortable by the second though he knew Taz was acting this way for a good reason, he was only uncomfortable because he knew that all of it was an act. That Taz didn't actually want to be that close to him or to touch him like he was, however Buck did his best to not let his comfortableness show as that would ruin the whole act. But as he turned his head slightly he felt the coldness of Taz's fingers on his neck, his eyes lingered on his pale face and although Bucky himself wasn't overly tanned, he seemed to be with just how fair Taz was. His smooth milky skin looked so incredibly soft and gave him to the urge to gently sooth his thumb over Taz's cheek, he didn't but he sure did want to. It was the first time that he noticed Taz's eyes and how beautiful they were, Fiona's were completely different and if he had to pick then he'd chose to look into Taz's eyes over his sister's.

His attention was captured by a nice girl speaking to them, Bucky wasn't anywhere near as friendly as he had been a long time ago. So instead of saying anything to her, he just gave her a small smile and a slightly nod of his head. He knew he'd regret telling Taz that his real name was James, only his parents called him James and he wasn't used to hearing it but when Taz said his name than he felt a warm feeling flow through his body. His eyes moved from the dark skinned girl to the man that he had been keeping an eye on, Bucky knew that he looked different with his hair back and normal clothes on. But maybe that wasn't enough for the Hydra agent that was watching him, he had seen the beginning of tentacles and just knew. So he turned more to face Taz in which he slid his metal hand under the thick sweater to hide it from sight, "See? We don't have to worry about being in public, muffin." He spoke to Taz before pressing his lips against Taz's lips, it was a short kiss but hopefully it was enough for the agent to move on without thinking he was the Winter Solider.

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Eleanor knew that Steve wasn't really a people person now, she had heard stories about him from before he was frozen. He seemed to have so many friends and was so outgoing, which was completely different to the Steve she knew. But she did know that he has been through so much and all of that would change anyone, she was just glad that he trusted her and was able to open up to her. She sighed a little disappointed when she didn't knock the bottles down, it was a silly little game but once she had seen the adorable panda plush toy that was hanging, she knew that she wanted it. She loved animals and if she hadn't gotten into SHIELD, than she was sure she'd be working with animals in one way or another. She looked back at Steve and nodded, "The panda," She pointed at the medium size plush toy that looked so soft and cozy, "But you don't have to play, if you don't want to." She told him knowing that he'd get the bottles down on the first throw.

He was Captain America after all, but she knew he only liked using his gift if he really had to. She'd get over not having the panda, if Steve didn't feel like playing the game than he didn't have to. Although she did really like when she got to see him either work out or fight or just do something physical, the way his muscles moved and flexed was to die for. Or that is how she felt of course, but she did find him extremely attractive so maybe that is why she liked watching him so much. It wasn't something that she'd ever admit to him, she didn't want to have him reject her and still have them work together because that would just become awkward and Eleanor never wanted that.

@ heart;;

Taz was great at acting, he was quite the trickster and was very quick on his feet. He could adapt to any situation in the matter of seconds and it saved his ass many times. His father would say his best skill was being deceitful and yeah, Taz would agree. He had a wonderful way with words and could make anyone believe whatever he is saying. Taz never actually got to kiss someone before. It wasn't in his line of work, and he didn't really live a normal life where he had attended school and had a high school sweetheart. He was raised into fighting and lying, he never had that chance for a 'normal' life which he had always been alright with. He felt like he had a taste of it when Emanuel and Sorai took him in(who hee now just calls mom and dad), made him their son and gave him that taste of a family and kept him and he couldn't ask for more of a 'normal' life.

Thing was, Bucky's lips were pleasantly soft and the small kiss was so new to him. And it did the trick. Nothing made people more uncomfortable than public display of affection from strangers, the male by the bar quickly looking away before he moved off to the door. The girl in front of them laughed--charmed. "Lovely! I'm so happy you two are so comfortable publicly, I couldn't for three months even hold my girls hand in public, but seeing you two do it so effortlessly is amazing" she cheered and the girls by her smiled, soft and warm and accepting. Taz was a little surprised Bucky played along so well, put in 150% with that really nice kiss that Taz would have never done himself unless it was really, really needed. He couldn't stop himself from giggling against Bucky's shoulder, easily falling into this act of boyfriends."Good to hear. It's not always easy but-" he shrugs, glancing up at Bucky and he doesn't mean to but he smiles so soft and sincere and open,"It's worth it" he breathes and then the doors open and people get off including the hydra agent that had been in the cart before.

Bucky would be worth a lot of things.

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Steve looked towards where she was pointing and nodded as he eyed the medium bear, soft and plush looking. It was quite cute honestly, button eyes and had that really sweet and child like look to it, like it could sit on someone bed or desk as a gentle reminder of their childhood or the special someone who had given it to them. He wanted to give it to Eleanor, Steve felt like she deserved it at the very least and so he send her a side ways smile and gave the man enough money for the game, he took one ball in his hand and glanced at the stacked bottles, he had three balls and three stacks of bottles, so he knew basically he had one shot for each and then he would win. He didn't even need to try if he was honest, just threw the ball and it whizzed through the hair, smacked right into the middle of the bottles and they went tumbling down. The worker smiled and nodded in appreciation. He took the next ball and send the next tower of bottles down, and then the last open without a single fault.

The worker seemed a little shocked that Steve managed all three of them and so easily at that."Ma'm you got yourself a man with a good arm there" The worker said before he got a stool and pulled the Panda from the top and climbed back down, passing it over to her and needing to just shake Steve's hand which left him a little floundered, chuckling softly and not correcting the other for calling him Eleanor's man. He didn't very well care. Instead he turned to her and smiled shyly between the two. The serum gave him a body he could have never imagined but it didn't give him any sort of confidence boost and although Eleanor was a good friend by now he was still a little struck that a lady like her would spend her time helping him."You like it right?" he asked, running his fingers through his blonde hair and looking a little uncertain.

@ sugarplum.

Kissing Taz was the first time that he has ever shared a kiss with another male before, it didn't really make him feel any differently than when he had kissed women before. It didn't bother him at all, he actually really enjoyed sharing a kiss with Taz. However that would be something that he'd keep to himself for right now, he'll share that thought soon enough. He glanced over at the man once he had backed away from them, he turned his eyes onto the girl in front of them. He let Taz talk with her as he was the more friendly one between them, she didn't seem to mind though. He had never really paid much attention to people who like the same sex, but ever since he got to know Taz than he had been thinking more about it. What it would be like, what people thought (although he couldn't care less about that). He was slightly worried that Taz would laugh at him or make a rude comment about how inexperienced he was with being with another male, he had no idea what Taz has done or if he was experienced.

He could finally relax once the agent had walked off the train, he sighed in relief and slowly moved his metal hand away from Taz's warm sweater. Although for some reason he still stayed close to him, he really liked the comfort of having someone that close to him. He hadn't been imitate with anyone for a very long time, he hadn't even hugged anyone but now he was letting himself get used to being close to someone. He'd rather it be Taz than anyone else, Taz just seemed to fit against his body nicely. He wondered if Fiona would be the same, but then he ignored that thought as he highly doubted she would be anywhere close to how comfortable Taz was sitting beside him. "Everyone who is special to us, is worth it." He spoke in his deep manly voice.

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Eleanor knew that Steve would win the game so easily, but she still watched him and couldn't help but hope that he'd win. A wide warm smile spread across her face when the panda was handed to her, "Thank you." She took the soft toy into her arms, she gave the toy a quick squeeze before she turned her attention onto Steve. She also didn't correct the man when he thought that Steve was her man, she wasn't bothered if people thought they were together. In fact she wouldn't mind if they did start to date, they were always spending time together and they both knew the other so well. Eleanor had never been the type of person to only like someone for their looks or the job they had or anything swallow like that, so with Steve being the Super Solider didn't bother her in the slightest. He was just Steve to her and nothing would ever change that.

"I love it, Steve. Thank you," She said sweetly to him as she leaned up on her toes and pressed a kiss against his cheek, she had only kissed his cheek a few times. She linked her arm around Steve's so they could continue to walk and explore the little town that they had come across, she wanted to see Steve fully relax. She'd try her hardest but he was stubborn and protective, he'd check people out even if there wasn't a threat. It was just how he was but that had to be tiring and stressful on him.

@ heart;;

Taz couldn't bring himself to pull away from Bucky, for one it would look strange in front of the girls, and secondly, he was far too comfortable. Bucky's body was solid and warm by his side. the faint memory of his soft lips against his own still present in his mind and he'd be a liar if he said his lips weren't tingling or that his skin wasn't suddenly hot unlike how he was always cold. Taz nodded along to what Bucky had said, curling his fingers into the shirt under Bucky's leather jacket. It felt so nice to have someone so close to him, their sides pressed against one another and their limbs connected, from his peripheral vision he could see Bucky's profile, the soft slope of his nice and the curves of his lips.

It felt like an out of body experience. The girl brought him back though, something so kind and genuine about her as she spoke to them, her voice not filtering through because all Taz could pay attention to was Bucky, Bucky, Bucky. But then she was standing along with her other two friends, waving at them and he assumed she was saying goodbye and so he snapped out of it and smiled back,"Stay safe" he said because he didn't do goodbyes, not with his parents, not with strangers. The doors then opened and they filed out. Taz didn't pull back, acted casually as he pressed his cold fingers against Bucky's stomach, under the gentle lift of the others shirt,"Do you even have anyone special to you?" Taz snickered softly, green eyes vibrant.

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Steve tries not to blush, tries really hard not to, but he stop himself. Laughing too himself while his face turns a little pink and he looks away from her, unable to make eye contact because this, this sort of human interactions he had never had before. Not nearly sixty years ago and not now either. Ladies never paid any attention to him before, he was scrawny, ninety pounds and as small as his own mother, he was noticeable but very much ignored. It hadn't bothered him too much back then, he grew up with it, didn't mind ladies not giving him a second glance, he had other things to focus on like getting into the army and fighting the guys who were bullies.

There had been only two woman who had taken interest to him, though one happened after his serum and he had been extremely uncomfortable by her forwardness while the other, Peggy, he had too many mixed feelings about. Steve tried to not think about Eleanor in a personal way, made him uneasy because he didn't know crap about woman-not then and very less now. He didn't want to make he uncomfortable either. Keeping in step with her Steve bit down on his lip and kept his arm linked with her."Anything you'd like to do here?" he asked, finding too many options to choose from himself and most he didn't even understand.

@ sugarplum.

Bucky wasn't paying attention to the girls when they walked off the train, he was staring off at nothing in front of him which he tended to do often. It gave him time to think about anything that was on his mind, right now the only thing that was on his mind was Taz. Feeling the warmth that he was getting from having the other pressed against his side, he felt like he could do anything and nothing would stop him. He had felt that before when Hydra had kidnapped him and used him for their own pleasure, he still couldn't get his head around the fact that he did Hydra's dirty work for them. But he wasn't himself and he couldn't even think for himself, he couldn't see how bad he had gotten and he couldn't stop himself from hurting people.

"Have you ever seen me with someone special? You know that I don't get out much," He told Taz quietly not sure if they were still playing along with the act, or if they had finished. Taz was still leaning into him, so he was confused as to what was happening. The girls have gone and no one else seemed to be paying attention to them, he didn't want to ask Taz so he'd just go along with it. "I don't need anyone special, you and Fiona are enough trouble." He told the boy and he was telling the truth, Taz and Fiona always kept him on his toes and also kept him busy. He knew he was different and didn't know how strangers would react to him, he wasn't sure if he could go out and meet people now.

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Eleanor smiled to herself when she saw the pink tint cover Steve's cheeks, it was just an innocent kiss on the cheek as a thank you for winning her the panda that she really wanted. But it must have been enough to cause Steve to blush, although it would probably be easy to make him blush. She wasn't sure how much experience Steve had with women, she had read his file and saw that he spent a lot of his time with Agent Peggy Carter but that didn't mean that they were involved with each other. She already knew that if she ever did want to take things further than just being friends, it would be Eleanor who would have to make the first move.

That didn't bother her because women could do whatever they wanted these days, if she wanted to ask Steve on a date than she would. "Hmm... how about we go get a drink and see where the day takes us?" She suggested as she could see them coming upon a little coffee shop, they didn't have to actually do anything. She wasn't really interested in playing anymore games, but the little town was too nice not to walk through. She looked up at Steve as she wanted him to take it easy and enjoy himself, it would be a challenge but she was up for it because Steve was worth it and he deserved it.

@ heart;;

"Oi, don't speak about me like that. I don't cause any trouble" Taz groaned as he pinched Bucky, annoyed that the other would even think of him as trouble even though he very much was. Taz was chaos in a human form, he was always running around throwing darts and shurikens, nearly braining himself at the same time as well. And even when he wasn't physically there his remains were, knifes stuck in the walls, oils used to clean off weapons on the couch, his fucking pants were always on the ground by the door because he couldn't wait to get out of them. His father nearly died walking inside and slipping on them last week.

"I'm really hurt you would say such a thing, I'm very nice and I don't cause trouble" he grumbled leaning away from the other now, his hand slipping out from his jacket and instead he curled his fingers into his own soft pullover."Try and keep talking smack Buck, we're gonna end up fighting till the death one day" It's something he would always say, 'come and fight me Bucky', 'I SAID FIGHT ME' ,' Got an issue? Punch me then' and much more, always looking for a fight with someone. Honestly, Taz wasn't even sure if Bucky could die? He had searched about him before, after he joined the house, and that fall he took should have killed him but clearly he's not dead, and he hasn't even aged.

"Oh my goodness, I'm going to grow old and get wrinkles and you're still going to look good, not this isn't fair"

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Steve wasn't used to not having a plan, not having something set in front of him so he knew how to go about it. Juts going along with the day and letting things play out wasn't how he lived. Steve liked knowing what was going to happen and what was in store for them, knowing that this or that will happen. It felt weird, not having something planned out, or even an idea of what to do beside 'letting the day take them'. It made him a little unsure but he would go along with it for Eleanor, she seemed comfortable with it so he might as well trust her instincts. He should have gotten used to that before, the 'not knowing whats ahead' sort of thing but being in the army everything was laid out for then in time. Wake up this hour, eat then, workout, show, supper, workout, sleep, and it repeated itself till missions came along, and even then they had strategies.

Steve figured the land now isn't a war ground so he shouldn't be planning ahead for shit."Sure thing, Eleanor." he agreed quietly, opening the door for her to walk through first before he came up behind her, his large hand gently placed on her lower back. Steve always felt out of place when he was inside of nearly any store, there was just so many new things, there were drinks and fashion and people, technology was insane, and the prices were numbers he never thought things would cost. He tended to stick to very basic food and drinks now, unsure of everything else that was new.

@ sugarplum.

Bucky couldn't help but raise his eyebrow as he turned his head to look at the boy sitting beside him, "I always talk to you like that. You should be used to it by now, you do cause trouble. We both know it," He said lightly to the other and watched as Taz scooted away from him, apparently they weren't pretending to be a couple any longer or what he had said had ruined Taz's mood. Bucky wasn't sure which one it was but he wasn't really bothered by what the reason was, he tried to stretch his legs out in front of him as much as he possibly could under the seat that was in front of him. "I'd said it to you before, you shouldn't be that hurt." He stated as there has already been so many times where Taz has tried to start a fight with him, he's never given in because he didn't want to hurt Taz.

"You're only nice when you want to be," He spoke and it was true, Taz went through moods and Bucky still wasn't used to it. He frowned a little, "What do you mean? I'll grow old as well, why wouldn't I?" He had to age like everyone else, why would his aging stop? He had stopped aging when he was frozen, but now he was defrosted and was like everyone else again. He didn't want to grow older, when he had been found he really thought he could have a normal life once again. A life where he didn't have to fight anyone, he could have some friends and maybe even someone who would love him for who he is now.

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Eleanor knew that Steve wasn't used to not having a plan and that he didn't really like not having a plan, she had seen how well he worked when he knew what he had to do for the day. But they didn't have anything that they needed to do other than fight Bucky, that wasn't working out so they might as well try to have some time off as SHIELD really did work them hard constantly. She smiled when he held the cafe door open for her, she stepped inside with him and was glad the store wasn't busy. She walked over to the counter and ordered a black coffee for Steve and a flat white for her, she knew Steve didn't like trying new things and she had seen him drinking plain black coffee before. She guessed that's all that was around back when the war was going on.

She handed over some money before she found a table that was away from everything, she sat down and looked at him. "I know this makes you uncomfortable, but we can't really do anything else. I can't give you plans if I don't even have any myself," She told him and she did feel bad, she was fine with not having any plans but he hadn't grown up that way and she tried her hardest to make a plan for everyday but it was beginning to become harder. They literally had nothing to do, she could only do so much with finding Bucky and if she had more leads than they'd have more to do on a daily basis.

"I'm always hurt by your words Buck, don't go thinking they don't okay, I'm going to cry once we get back home because everyday you hurt my feelings" Taz exaggerates, digging his fingers under Bucky's leather jacket and into his sides, curling his fingers into his shirt and tugging him close on the train seats though they were already close enough with their thighs pressed snug against one another. He knew that Bucky wasn't ever going to take him up on a fight, an actual fight that is. He loves sparring with Buck, tussling in the safe room and building up a bit of a sweat before going for dinner. "I'm nice all the time, stop hurting my feelings Buck, it's not very nice"

There was something about the other, something so soft and warm and solid that drew Taz in. Usually he is always able to keep his hands to himself, keep his flirting very light and nearly nonexistent with Bucky, to not make the other feel uncomfortable or pushed for anything since his sister was always right around the corner with a gorgeous smile and a delicate touch. "You'll be handsome the older you get, like fine wine" Taz mumbles against the others shoulder, smiling at him sweetly.

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Steve knows he has got just relax, take a step back, a deep breath and just fucking relax. Let it loose because of he keeps himself wound up so tight and always on alert then it does no good for anyone, especially Eleanor who has been nothing but good to him for the last couple of months. She's always by his side, always ready and willing to help him out, in any way possible from work to just situating down and getting used to the new age. It's not that he's not trying, because he is, but it's so different now and not having plans and things to do without them leading somewhere it's just a struggle.

Keeping his hand around the cup of plain black coffee Steve just shrugs, he doesn't really feel it. He's just frustrated and he's going to try and just air himself out and give Eleanor, this, just a nice day out by the shops with some food and the sun beaming down on them."What shop would you like to go to then El?"

@ sugarplum.

Bucky didn't realise that a small smile had crossed his lips as he listened to Taz, "You aren't going to cry. If my words hurt you so much, why aren't you snapping at me like usual?" He commented knowing when Taz was grumpy or upset over something, he became snappy and Bucky had learnt quickly to stay away from Taz until he was feeling better. He felt much better sitting on the train with Taz being so close to him, the contact was putting him at ease when he was always so tense. He couldn't just relax even if he wanted to, being the Winter Soldier for so long had made him be on guard constantly. It was just how he was now, but Taz seemed to be making it better.

"I don't mean to hurt your feelings, Taz. But we both know that you aren't nice all the time, you have your moments." He told the other quietly and gave a slight shake of his head, he wasn't sure if fine wine was a good thing or not but Taz seemed to think it was. "I don't believe that," He had been kept at this age so he was in peak physical condition all the time.

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Eleanor sighed softly as she looked at Steve, "I saw a sign outside for a home wares store. Let's go have a look," She held her coffee in one hand and wrapped her other arm around Steve's free arm, she guided him out of the coffee shop and along the store fronts. She leaned into his side gently as they walked in step with each other, she knew that he was giving her this one day and she was going to enjoy every single second of the it. It wasn't hard to find the store and even though Eleanor couldn't buy anything, she still loved to browsed what items a store had. She sipped her hot drink and stepped inside the cute little store, there was an older lady behind the counter who gave them a lovely smile.

"Can I help you find something, dear? Perhaps something for your home?" The lady asked sweetly which caused Eleanor's cheeks to flush pink, "Oh... we're not together," She murmured as she begun to look at all the different mugs and teacups, to distract herself as she had wanted to be able to say yes to the lady. She knew she held feelings for Steve that he wouldn't return, she loved the idea of having a house or an apartment with him though she knew that would never happen.

@ efflorescence

"I could cry, I have feelings Bucky" Taz argues, digging his fingers harder into the others side and pouting because he had feelings, he really did. He just didn't have as big as a range as others, and anger was the main one shown because nearly everything pisses him the hell off. "I'm not always snappy either, I can be nice" he sighs, pressing his cheek against Bucky's shoulders as the train door opens and some people file in, crowding the cart with their voices and laughter, most of them woman and men with business suits on. The empty seats were quickly taken, the train door closing. Closing his eyes Taz tucked himself in close beside of Bucky, he wasn't trying to keep the 'relationship' look going but it sure looked like it, and Taz craved intimacy sometimes so whats the harm if he leans his head against Bucky's shoulder? None. "Yeah, well you're wrong. I can imagine you as a silver fox, little grays through your hair and beard, crinkly eyes and smile lines, really handsome" And god was it true, he could imagine it so clearly, Bucky in ten years just as big and handsome, he could imagine him with his hair up in a bun as he sips on coffee and reads the paper.

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Steve never understood home good stores, or the fascination of decorating a home. He believed it was because back in the twenties he didn't decorate much, just his cot in his tiny apartment, the shit sofa and a table with crates for chairs that Bucky had helped him with, money was awfully tight too but now, in this time it was a little easier to get a job, more opportunities and freelance was a thing, a proper job. Steve could possibly get into decorating but it seemed like a hard task, there were themes people went by while Steve just grabbed whatever would be convenient, Natasha still makes fun of his clothes. That's how bad he's at style and decorating. He was so thankful that Eleanor didn't make fun of him, she wasn't as playful as Natasha but he still got along with her fairly well. Smiling at the worker Steve nodded in agreement to Eleanor who cleared up that they weren't together. It seemed that they were always confused for a couple, honestly it happens nearly every time they go out. He thinks it's because Eleanor wraps herself around his arm so easily and they fit rather well with one another. Steve never minds, it used to make him blush even, people mistaking him to be with such a beautiful girl as Eleanor.

@ sugarplum.

Bucky did smile when Taz mentioned that he could cry, "If you did cry then I would be there to wipe away the tears." He told the other simply as he did mean it, he would feel horrible if Taz actually did begin to cry for any reason. "You can be nice, I will give you that." He still had the small smile on his face as he actually did enjoy having contact with someone that he trusted, Fiona's contact was different to Taz's and Bucky would only ever admit to himself that he preferred Taz being close to him. His eyes made a lot of attention to the people who were entering the train, it was a habit of his from being the Winter Soldier for so long. He also needed to make sure that Taz was completely protected at all times, "When do we get off?" He asked as he was finding there to be too many people surrounding him, he wasn't sure if he always felt like this in a crowd of people but he knew that he did now. He'd survive the train ride but his heart had begun to increase in speed a little, but having Taz talk to him was making him feel better. "Why would I be the handsome one? I could not be, I think you'd age very well. You'll only have a small amount of wrinkles and will still look young," He spoke knowing that Taz would always be handsome, no matter how old he was.

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Eleanor still did get flustered and often did blush when people assumed that she was dating Steve, so to keep her mind off what the lady said she continued to search through the cute little homewares. She glanced over to where Steve was standing and smiled, he still tended to look so out of place that it was just adorable. After a few more minutes she thanked the lady even though Eleanor didn't buy anything, but she knew Steve had to have been getting bored. So she left the store with him and continued walking along the line of stores, she did look at a few but was more window shopping now. "Are you sure there isn't anything you want to look at? We could take a look at some clothing stores, I know you don't care what you wear. But a few more outfits may be nice," She suggested as she really didn't mind what he wore, he had enough of Natasha bugging him about his clothes that she didn't bother saying anything for the most part. "You really aren't making this easy, trying to make you relax even the slightest." She knew she shouldn't try so much but always being tense wouldn't be good for him much longer, she looked at him and gave him a warm smile.

@ efflorescence

Taz couldn't help but snot, not expecting that response from Bucky because-well he just didn't. It sounded a bit intimate in a way, something about crying and being comforted just makes Taz shudder and feel all tingly inside. His dad is the best at being comforting, always on everyone's ass about everything, making sure that no one leaves the home with grudges because it always affects the way they do their job. Taz remembers how when they first brought Bucky around Emanuel would always ask him if he's alright, if he's comfortable. "Just a few more, you feeling alright?" Taz questions, sliding his hand over Bucky's human hand and wrapping his fingers around his wrist, his thumb laying over his pulse so he could feel it. "We could get off next stop and just walk it if you'd like? You need a bit of sun anyways, you're starting to look like a zombie" he teases. "Don't know if that's a compliment or not Buck, I'm 22 right now and some people still mistake me for 18, it's not so cool" It's possibly one of the worst things, something that always makes Taz's skin crawl.

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Steve couldn't help but stare at one of the oddly shaped lamps, with the body of a naked woman, her arm stretched above her and then the bulb with a white cover. He was tempted to laugh, he hasn't ever seen a lamp like it and honestly he would buy it if he didn't already have two lamps. It was small and intricate, so detailed he could see the crease of a dimple on the statue and it was heavy, probably made of some stone. He ha to just ignore it though because he didn't want to fill his apartment up with sentimental things in case it got destroyed. It was one of the major reasons he barely decorates or buys things he might really like, they'll probably get destroyed and he hates it. "Not very interested in getting new clothes," Steve says as he makes a face, he's honestly the worst at clothing and everyone knows it, he's all about khakis an button downs. "It's not easy to relax" Steve says with a frown because he's not trying to be difficult with her, he's just not comfortable with it and it's hard for him just in general because he's always focusing on work and art and before that he didn't do much but relax at home in the twenties.

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Bucky knew that the train would be quicker in getting them to the stop but he knew even more people would be getting onto the train, he wasn't sure how he would deal with it or if he could deal with being surrounded by that many people. "Can we? There's to many people," He told Taz as he swallowed what felt like a lump in his throat, he knew that Taz was feeling his quickened pulse. "I don't look like a zombie, I have more colour then you do." He felt a little better talking to Taz as it did take his mind of the crowd he was in, but it didn't last all that long sadly. "It is a compliment, I would prefer to look younger than my actual age than looking older." He pointed out to Taz as he was trying to give the other a compliment, he didn't know why anyone would want to look older. Especially now that people were using lotions and creams to make them appear younger, he had seen ads on the television but had no idea how creams could make anything look younger but he didn't really pay much attention to them. His chest heaved when a heavy sigh came through his lips, he did his best to focus on Taz sitting beside him so he wouldn't freak out or anything.

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Eleanor hadn't actually expected Steve to agree with going clothes shopping, "I know it's not. But I'm worried about you," She admitted to him as they walked onto a section of wooden deck, there were more cafes lining the dock now as there was a beautiful view of the water. She finished her hot drink and dropped the cup into a trash bin, it was then that a bad feeling formed in her stomach. Something felt wrong to her so she scanned the area around them, she wasn't sure what she was looking for but she knew where the feeling was coming from as soon as her eyes landed on three men. They were dressed in normal clothes but they still weren't fitting in with everyone else, they reminded her of Steve and how tense his body always seemed to be. She wasn't sure if they were SHIELD agents or Hydra agents, but she wasn't going to take any risks so she quickly grabbed a cap from a little booth on the dock and dropped enough money on the table to cover the cost of the cap. She pushed Steve against the dock railing and placed the cap onto his head, her hands moved his larger hands to her hips before she pressed her lips against his. It was the only way she could think of that would hide them from the agents.

People always suspect for Taz to be insistently pushy and in everyone's face, to be brash and unkind and thrive on it being his way or no way at all but it's not true, not in the slightest because he knows where his boundaries start and end and hes never one to cross one. And so he nods at Bucky, not questioning him nor thing another seconds thought because if Bucky wants to walk the rest of the way then Thats exactly what they'll end up doing. "Oi, it's not my fault. This lighting just isn't flattering for my skin but you, you can get quite golden babe and if you stay indoors for much longer you'll end up sickly looking like me" he warns, slipping his fingers against the palm of Bucky's hand and twitching to hold it but he ends up pulling his hand away and standing up, the train coming to a halt at the stop and the doors opening with people filing out slowly since it was getting so packed and hot. "Come on babe, lets go out, maybe we can find a nutz4nutz cart near"
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Steve had not noticed anything since his focused had been on their conversation, a slightly sad smile on his face because he knows that Eleanor cares about him and he hates that he is worrying her when he's fine, hes okay and hes trying to adapt and he'll get there as long as she keeps by his side and helps him along the way. If it wasn't for her Steve could be strong twice as tight as he is right now, he wouldn't be taking any breaks unless they were for him to go and punch out a body bag in the gym. Frowning slight, more so confused Steve didnt even question her as a hat was place on his head. He was shocked to say the least, he wasn't typically kissed very often and it had taken him you surprise because, fuck, it's Eleanor. Keeping his hands on her full hips Steve is gentle as he kissed her, knowing that she must have a good reason for all of this and he knew better than to break character. A small piece of him was enjoying this immensely though.

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Bucky knew that Taz wouldn't ask him about why he wanted to walk the rest of the way, or why he wasn't feeling all that well being surrounded by that many people. Even if he did ask then Bucky would simply tell him, he wasn't afraid to tell Taz or his family anything. They had taken him in when they didn't need to and it certainly put them all in danger, but Emanuel seemed to know exactly what he was getting into when he took Bucky into his home. Because of that he made sure to tell Emanuel everything that he was going through, "I never said it was your fault. Being fair suits you, maybe you should take me outside more often." He commented as Bucky wasn't confident going around the city on his own, which is why he never left without someone else there with him. Standing up he made sure to stay close to Taz as he didn't want to get lost in the crowd of rushing people, "Why didn't you bring some snacks with you?" He asked knowing that Taz tended to get hungry often.

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Eleanor found herself getting lost in the kiss that she was sharing with Steve, feeling his hands resting on her hips and just having her body close to his was enough to drive her crazy. She didn't want to break the kiss, but she was pretty sure that the agents would have walked away from them by now. So she slowly broke the kiss and looked at Steve, "Sorry about that. We should get out of here," She whispered to him and she hoped that he understood why she suddenly threw herself at him, it was the only way she could hide both of their faces. She did notice that her heart was beating quicker in her chest, so she took a small step backwards from him as she didn't want to make things awkward between them. She waited to make sure that Steve was alright before she took him in the opposite direction of where the three men were heading, they would reach their hotel room and then figure out what to do next.

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