Treading The Unknown

"Maybe we should go home instead... if she's here, you dont think she was following you, do you?" She asked curiously, walking with him.

He wrapped his arms around her, pulling her into his lap and sighing. "You look so stressed, do you need more help?"

She smiled a little as she put her arms around his neck, "Just a little tension," she murmured as she looked at him then rested her forehead against his, "Do you think you could help with that?"

He shrugged a little as he looked at her, "I don't know," he murmured softly, "but lets go,"

She sighed a little. This was crazy. But it was what it was, and she guessed it would pass.

He smirked. "Of course, I'm the best at it, aren't I?" He murmured, pulling her closer and tugging her shirt up.

She smiled and kissed him gently and moved so she was straddling his lap, she lifted her arms so he could pull her shirt off. Lily pulled at his shirt her lips never leaving his giggling when he accidentally tickled her.

Rowan stumbled out if the elevator, walking to the door and pulling out the keys. She had no idea what time it was, but the night before she had gone out with friends and it was almost like old times. The only difference was in the back of her mind, she knew that she would need to face Jaehyun when she got back. And the more she thought about it, the more she'd rather be drunk when she got there. She put her key in the lock and pushed the door open, dropping her bag and sitting on the floor. She noticed something felt off, but she chalked it up to the alcohol and groaned.

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He puled her shirt off and allowed her to pull his off as well. He didn't think much of it, and began kissing along her neck, holding her waist between his hands and squeezing.

She closed her eyes and moaned softly then pulled back so she could pull at his sweats then stopped when she saw a purple mark on his chest. "Whats this?" she murmured running her fingers over it then took a deep breath before moving off him, "Do I need to get tested?" she asked him her voice obviously angry.

Jaehyun ran a hand through his hair then groaned when he saw her walk through the door, "Mom, dad I need a minute, he said as he wet his lips, "Rowan," he whispered as he met her in the hall leading to the livingroom.

She mumbled and sighed, kicking off her shoes and leaning against the wall. "What?" She asked, turning and walking into the kitchen. "I'm hungry," She said to herself, looking for something easy to make. She noticed two people watching but she didn't think about who it might be. "Whats happening am i in the wrong house?"

He raised his eyebrows and looked at her, pulling away. "Tested? For what?" He asked, moving his arms so she could get off of him. "What's wrong with you?"

"Whats the point of this if you're going others?" she asked him seriously, "Am I suddenly not as interesting anymore? Hard to get in my pants now that there is a baby involved; sorry inconvenience for you," she said to him her eyes filling with tears.

"Whats wrong with me? Oh thats rich isn't it, I could probably give you a mile long list of whats wrong with me," she said to him shaking her head.

"No, no no my parents are here," he said softly as he looked at her, "I just.. shit you're drunk, alright lets get you to bed then yeah?" he murmured kissing her head.

She nodded a little and carried the cup ramen that she never got to make into the bedroom. She could feel their eyes on her but she didn't even know where to begin.

"Jaehyun, you cannot be serious." His mother said, shaking her head. "This is her? Suddenly I'm glad we came when we did."

He scoffed and crossed his arms. "Are you joking right now? What's the big deal? You're mad because I have a hickey? Is that it right now?"

"I really don't need this right now mom, besides she doesn't drink often," he said shrugging a little as he helped her, he poured her some water and grabbed some tylenol carrying it into the bedroom setting it on the night stand.

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"YES! Yuta, yes thats what I'm upset about," she said as she looked at him then wiped her eyes, "It just proves my point, you drove it all the way home - no one wants a single parents, not even you - it's too much. Fuck it's too much for me! If it wasn't for the money my parents give me I'd be out of my mind right now!" she pushed a hand through her hair then shook her head.

"Then you god you made me feel things I swore I'd never feel, you were there when NO ONE else was and I thought.. I was stupid thats what I was, because you made it abundantly clear I was replaceable but I was too stupid and too hopeful so now I'm this.. blubbering disgusting mess and I'm ANGRY," she ranted to him, "I wanted more,"

She leaned against him and yawned, stumbling next to him. She was tired and wanted to sleep, and the last thing she wanted nor needed was to meet his parents in any state.

"If she can do it once, she'll do it again. This isn't the type of girl we had in mind for you." His father said softy.
"We won't tolerate this. We'll give you time to settle this, but we don't want this to continue." His mother added.

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"If I didn't want to be here, I wouldn't be. But what it sounds like you want? I can't give you. I was very clear on what I wanted, and I thought you were okay with it. If its too much, I'll stop coming around. But I liked coming here and helping with Jenny." He said, standing up and running a hand through his hair.

He shook his head a little, "Don't you know I drink too! I get drunk like this from time to time; I did even before her - this is college not a catholic school; if you want to stop paying for my college do it... but I won't let you decide who I'm with based on decisions she makes when she is bored," he said shaking his head a little. "I thought you were better than this," he said to him.

"Whats even the point of friends with benefits if you go around and fuck other people - where does that put me? the ' oh shes desparate enough she'll fuck me' pile!?" she said as she looked at him then shook her head, "I have a whole plate of responsibilities to think about, and I need to re-evaluate everything I feel for you because it's not fair to either of us or Jenny," she murmured softly as she grabbed her shirt off the couch and pulled it on.

She was too drunk to even begin to say what she wanted, but instead she knew this wasn't what she wanted. She pulled herself from Jaehyun slightly, but she was tired and she was falling asleep. She knew she would end up passing out sooner or later, she just hoped she'd be in bed by the time it happened.

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He snorted. "Are you serious right now? Neither of us said anything about being exclusive, because thats not something I would agree to. So, where that puts you, I don't know. But what I do know, is that maybe I shouldn't be coming around here anymore." He said, shaknig his head. He thought it was just rich, he had a place he enjoyed coming, he enjoyed helping with Jenny, but feelings come to complicate everything. "I'm just gonna go. Maybe see you around." He said, reaching for his shirt and pulling it on.

Lily looked at him then nodded a little, "Fine," she murmured softly then closed her eyes when Jenny started crying, her heart ached in a way she'd never felt before. Suddenly she knew why people avoided relationships, the ones who had a reason - Lily never had a reason, she'd never felt like this for anyone before. But she understood now, "See you around" she murmured then picked up Jenny before cooing to her fighting the tears back in her eyes and walking to her bedroom with her unable to watch him leave. Maybe if he wasn't one of the few people in her life who gave a shit it wouldn't hurt so bad; but she couldn't help it.

"I know sweetie, I know," she whispered to Jenny softly as she kissed her head.

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He sighed and shut the bedroom door behind him before rubbing his face, "I'm not in the mood to argue, I have homework to do so unless you have anything useful to say can you please leave?"

She heard the door close but she didn't remember much else after that. The thought of dealing with his parents made her stomach turn. It terrified her to no end.

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He grabbed his things and walked out, shaking his head. This wasnt how he planned today to go, he had had a good feeling about today. It made him sad to know that he was wrong.

Rowan sighed as she sat up in the bed, staring out the window. She remembered more from last night than she thought she would, and it put some things into perspective for her. She wasn't sure this is where she wanted to be. She wasn't sure this was how she saw herself in 5 or so years. One thing that always got to her about relationships, is you either break up or get married. And she wasn't sure that in 5 years she wanted to deal with his parents treating her like this.

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Yuta walked to class, carrying his books in one hand and looking down at his phone in the other. He was exhausted, he barely slept, but he had a test coming up and he wanted to get it over with.

Lily carried Jenny in her carrier as she walked to class - the baby sitter had bailed and she had no one to call; it had been two weeks since she'd seen Yuta. She'd been all but avoiding him, she didn't want to let herself get hurt anymore. "Shhh," she cooed to her softly as she carried the diaper bag and backpack on her shoulder.

Jaehyun had been hearing all hell from his parents and he was tired of it, so much so he'd block their numbers for the time being. He didn't need them harassing him especially not now.

Rowan chewed on her lip, not knowing how to say what she wanted to. "Jaehyun, I want to talk to you about something," She said softly, moving so she faced him.

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Yuta walked down the hall and saw Lily carrying Jenny, something she tried not to do if she could help it. Jenny had been getting increasingly fussy. He stopped, noticing when Jenny immediately recoginzed him and started smiling at him to be picked up.

She looked at her then looked up seeing Yuta and sighed feeling bad then kissed her head softly. "I have to go to class baby," she murmured gently as she slowed so she could get a better look at him. "Say hi, Jenny," she murmured but she only seemed to fuss louder when she realized they weren't staying.

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He lifted his head and looked at her, "whats up?" he asked lightly as he wet his lips a little.

He looked at her and sighed. "Do you need help? I have a test in an hour, I can watch her for you." He said softly. He didn't care what people said about him carrying a baby, rumors didn't get to him.

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She chewed on her lip and sighed. "I want to break up." She said softly, wondering how to do this. "I think that maybe we might do better off as friends."