"I want you to stop being a dick," Kensley said eventually, looking over at him, frowning slightly as she tried not to acknowledge the fact that he was even more attractive than he had been when she was younger. "I want to be able to look at you and believe you, but I can't, because I don't believe you. You expect me to know how to magically fix that? I don't. I'm not the one who screwed up, I'm the one who got abandoned and forgotten, and I don't know how to fix any of that, I don't know how to fix myself, so how the fuck am I supposed to know how to fix this?"
Calum watched her for a moment, trying to gauge what she was thinking, trying to understand her the way he used to. Her mannerisms hadn't changed as far as he'd seen, but he knew a lot of her personality did, and he wanted to see if that was all a mask to protect herself or if the damage he'd done to her had really caused her to change that drastically. But, for now, he thought about her question and figured the only way to really show her was to just do it, to be there, to let her know that his attention was fully on her, every day, always. "Do you still play?" he asked her after a moment, "I mean, I know that's not really showing anything, but I don't know, music's always kind of spoken louder for us than anything." He smiled, hopeful.
Calum watched her for a moment, trying to gauge what she was thinking, trying to understand her the way he used to. Her mannerisms hadn't changed as far as he'd seen, but he knew a lot of her personality did, and he wanted to see if that was all a mask to protect herself or if the damage he'd done to her had really caused her to change that drastically. But, for now, he thought about her question and figured the only way to really show her was to just do it, to be there, to let her know that his attention was fully on her, every day, always. "Do you still play?" he asked her after a moment, "I mean, I know that's not really showing anything, but I don't know, music's always kind of spoken louder for us than anything." He smiled, hopeful.
November 24th, 2018 at 02:27pm