What Stories Destroyed You To Be Written?

Have you ever written a story were you got physically exhausted from writing it? Mentally drained? Were in tears? Have you ever written a story that just tore you apart from the inside?

The obvious ones for me are, of course, Seven Words to Break a Heart and Bden & RyRy.

But Decayed Dancer physically and mentally exhausted me. To an extreme degree. It was... so fucking hard to write that. It just wore me down.

After Supper. required lots and lots of breaks because it just sucked me in until I couldn't function anymore. It grated on me hard.

Snapshot. also mentally wore me out and tore me down.

Room 242 made my heart hurt to write it. I would get so depressed and upset while writing that story. I never cried, but I came damn close.

How about you guys? Or am I the only crazy one?

Anonymous: Not only was it my quickest story ever written (it took a month and was 30 chapters) but it was probably the most heartwrenching. I literally put every little bit of me into that story because I just wanted to make it the best story I could ever possibly write in my 19th year on this world. I still cry when I re-read that story...

Early Sunsets: One of the few Keep the Faith stories, written because of what I was seeing in the MCR fandom. It kind of fucked with my head because it felt like something that would happen to him. The final scene grossed me out.

I don't know many other stories though, that made me physically drained. Either that or I don't remember the pain. I tend to live in the moment with my characters. Once the story is finished, I don't attach myself to them again unless I edit.

Matters of the Heart, certainly. I poured everything I had into those few chapters I wrote (along with Marlee's), and the comments I get for it, how it's so real, kind of scares me. I just write on impulse and have never lost anyone so close, but I was on the verge of tears as I was writing it while listening to 'Hear Yo Me.'

Don't Take My Brother is my longest fic yet. Twelve chapters of my best writing, the few stories I actually consider good enough to be published on paper. I just wrote it continously, and I'm incredibly proud of the outcome.

And I was crying while writing Right To Bleed (a Keep the Faith story).

It's Not A Mistake... I was so fucking happy once I finally finished it. There were some parts that just... Ugh.

And now the sequel to that story. I have a hard time focusing on it.

Dead was a reaction to losing my grandmother, and I wrote it late at night when I supposed to be writing an essay. x] The first part was scrawled on a piece of paper; the rest was typed, but I was crying through part of both. Aaaaand then I deleted the second half by accident. Redoing it was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, writing-wise.

Also... Headlights. I get stuck after every fucking chapter.
Each one just takes so much out of me that I have to stop thinking about it for weeks before I can pick back up, which is basically the same with INK, where I just threw a ton of emotions together, especially in the most recent chapter, && it was really a strain.

yeahh. i wrote a story based on the sh*ttiest part of my friend's life when she almost killed herself...i was fxcking sobbing by the time i finished it.
the worst part? my computer ate it after i finished writing it. now it's like, gone. and there is no way i'm writing it again. -stabs computer-

Searching For Blue was simply demoralising. I don't know why, but it made me...Incredibly uncomfortable.
And I have at least two other things that are up and coming that I feel will be the same.
And then there's my novel which has been an idea with me for a very long time, but has been put off and put off simply because I dread writing it; I feel that I don't have the caliber to do the idea justice.

My Waycest trilogy was so hard... The final part was the worst but the whole series frequently reduced me to tears...

Let's. Definitely.

I cried pretty much all through writing it. It brought back more memories and all the crap and stuff... not surprising, considering it was non fiction.

Nothing You Can't Heal was just difficult. I was on holiday with another family as well as mine... and hiding your laptop isn't easy when people burst in when they feel like it. It took a lot out of me, just to make the words fit right. It's not even done, just working out where it should go next.

anything from Wonderwall.
so oneshots are things I put most of myself into.
but mostly. . .most recent ones.

All of them
If they dont cause a deep suffering inside then they aint good at all

I only write teenage riot when I am in deep deep nihilism

most are like that but one that literally got me to tears (I dont really cry much)
was the last 7 minutes of october, I fucking cried like hell, but I ended up deleting it 'cos she never cared.

Cry Just A Little For Me- My femme one-shot, was just so simply hard, because it was what I wanted to happen between me and Britti, but I knew it wouldn't. After that one, I couldn't write for days, and I wanted to curl up and sleep forever.

We Steal Cigarettes Instead- My Waycest, was extremely hard to get the first few chapters out of it. I knew where I wanted it to go, in a sense, but I couldn't get it out, and the end result gave me a few headaches, and a few moments where I just threw stuff aimlessly.
But the comments and support I recieved from a ton of the readers every chapter gave me so much inspiration.

I think every story gives you a headache, makes you cry, and makes you want to throw a few things at least once throughout it. There's just that moment where you freeze and you say, 'Oh my god, Where the hell is this going to go?'

I know my first story was...it was hard for me. I mean, the plot and everything weren't exactly intense or anything, but it took a lot out of me to finish it. It was the first story I finished and...it just made me feel so...I don't even know.

Calm and Quiet, my throat was hurting from the very first sentence and then I just burst into tears in the middle. And I wrote it all in one go, so...yeah.

Unrequited, the first oneshot and the first slash I ever wrote, I feel like I put a whole lot of my being into that. It sounds silly, but I felt really disappointed when it turned out to be a daydream.

And the two oneshots I'm working on, I'm kind of afraid to open them and finish them. I don't know why. They both have Billie Joe in this completely destroyed state and...I can't stand that. There's one line about his sparkling eyes clouding over with mud and alchohol. When I typed it, I was visualising it and about a second later, I saved and closed it. They're both really intense, to me at least, and I need to get my balance to finish them.

And Fallen will be the death of me. I swear. I spent so many hours, going through at least three beta readers, listening to the same album over and over again to give the story a solid ground. And every time I wrote a chapter and read through it, I flew into these...fits. I ended up deleting the chapters with the intention to redo it.

-.-

My newest story, Why Are You Asking So Many Questions? is just exhausting...

I find my newest story, L'Amoure Est Juste Un Jeu physcially exhausting to write. I want it to be perfect, and I've even done research on Paris and the Moulin Rouge in 1900's France...but it's hard. I'm scared i'll ruin it in the first paragraph and then everything will go down the drain. I only have a prologue, which took me forever to actually write. But, I'm going to continue though- slow and steady.

I'll Hide You Away From The World is another I struggle writing. It's emotionally draining for me to write, but I enjoy doing it.

In a way a standalone that I’ve finished just recently but haven’t submitted yet really destroyed me. Not because it was hard to write, no, it flowed so very easily. I’ve never written anything that was that easy to get down on paper. The problem was that inspiration struck me mostly at night, like between one and four o’clock in the morning. And I have to write it down immediately otherwise it’s gone. So writing that one was really darning.

Otherwise it’s my fan-fic “Billie Joe decided to shut the door to his past, once and for all” because I made it so complex. The details are a nightmare and it’s like a puzzle to write it. So I get writer’s block with that one all the time and it’s so frustrating because I know exactly where I want it to go and how it’s gonna end; I just have trouble getting it there.

Rainbow Anorexia.
I'm no longer writing it. I honestly can't bring myself to do it. It's just way too personal, In a way, and it really makes me depressed. I used to find that I couldn't bring myself to update anything else after writing for that one. I think I tried to tackle too much emotion for my own good, and then I couldn't keep up with it.

Street Kid -
Not just because I pour emotions and past experiences into every chapter, but also because It has began to take over my life, all through school all I can think about is updates, plots, twists and how close I am to finishing it just makes it worse because I am already planning the sequel, and I do love writing it, but it's just a lot of hard work which uses so many emotions... however when I do type up that last chapter, it will be a very happy but also sad day for me... and then the sequel begins.

Rich Debauchery
never posted it on mibba, because I have no intentions of ever finishing it. but it took over my life, and I re-wrote chapters so many times, it wasn't funny or fun anymore. it became exhausting and I hate hate hate that story so effin' much

but it's sad because it was the MOST reviews I ever got for my stories, but it just wasn't worth it anymore. =/

Well, all of my stuff, before I deleted it.

Makeout Club is hard because I don't want to offend anyone but at the same time I really want to make her proud.