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I think my doctor is wrong. It kind of feels like I have acid reflux more so than gall stones, and when I take prilosec, I feel a lot better too. So I am hoping that the ultrasound turns out to have nothing suggesting gall stones on it.

It never came up until now and he hasn't written me back so I'm starting to think that I won't be hearing from him.

But I have other things to worry about. I saw the doctor today and she thinks I have gall stones so I might be needing another surgery.

Sometimes, I don't think he realizes what the subject matter of his band's lyrics actually is. Helmuth (the vocalist/guitarist/founder of Belphegor) writes mainly lyrics about S&M, sex, various paraphilias, etc. A huge part of their lyrical themes centers around the S&M/bondage lifestyle and Vojta thinks that my stories would make people think he was some kind of perv. Before I met him, I thought he was into that scene too because he plays in an S&M-themed band. I don't understand why he is so mad at me about this, unless he truly doesn't get what the songs he plays mean.

I'm really hoping he didn't see that Belphegor fan fic I wrote to be funny. He would definitely not get it. I mean, it's down now but I feel like that would just push him way over the edge because he is so touchy about his image (although he hasn't noticed any of the groupie pics that come up when you search his name). And apparently people search for me with his name so my myspace profile keeps coming up in high demand along with pics of me and some of the art I'm not so proud of. Really frustrating. But yeah. We need to work on his touchiness.

We've been friends since January but really started seeing each other in February, so six or seven months. Idk what's up. But I want to go back to Europe after I get my bachelor's and teach English there. My school has an internship program for that and two of my choices are Bergen, Norway and Brno or Prague, Czech Republic. If I go to Prague in a few years for that, then we might have an opportunity to try again or to make things better, but I don't think I'm going to get an opportunity this year or even the next since we're both going to be so busy. It's really frustrating because I care so much about him and if I were still in Europe then this would have been resolved by now because we could have talked about this face-to-face. I've been missing him a lot during his tours and it shows through my posts and stories on here. If I didn't miss him so much, I would have never even mentioned him on here and he probably wouldn't have inspired so many characters and so many stories.

I figured that was what you meant. I am just personally wondering if he will be mature enough to get back to me or if he will be childishly ignoring me.

Well, I still love him. He has a lot of good qualities too and he is seriously the only guy I've dated who remembers to flush the toilet and put down the seat and the lid EVERY TIME. LOL But I need to talk to him about some things and he still hasn't contacted me yet. If he doesn't before the 1st of September then he is probably cutting me out of his life or something. I don't know. I don't think he's that immature though.

Aw, thank you very much for the photo comment. :))

I'm not sure. He didn't like the story he saw and I was mostly worshipping/praising the character with the same name as him. I don't know how he will feel about the medieval one. He might like that one better since he's really into Vlad the Impaler and I'm basing his character's actions partly on the legends surrounding Vlad. But we shall see. I need to ask him about it, if he ever writes me back again.

Yeah. That's what I am planning on doing. But now he's reading my stories so I need to change the characters a bit too so that they don't reflect on him too much.

They came to the U.S. for two 1-month tours twice this year, which is why I was always missing him when I was in Europe. Now I miss him more than ever.

Yep. Helmuth is the vocalist/guitarist. I didn't think this girl was 14/15 when I first came across her picture with him in the google image results either, and wasn't going to follow up on it, assuming that she was over 18. But then she had to go and stalk me, so I felt like I was justified in following the links she left on her gaia page and since her entire facebook was unlocked for me to read. . .I just found that out. It sounds like Vojta wasn't aware of her age and didn't ask for I.D. I'm going to have to take down another one of my really successful stories in order to re-write it because I used his persona for a character. . .but I started writing it before we started dating. I had only just met him at the show. I'm kind of really annoyed.

I have never gotten molars out, but the baby teeth don't hurt all that bad. I had to get one pulled out before I got my braces. And for my wisdom teeth they just completely knocked me out and I can't remember any of it. I wasn't allowed to eat pretty much everything for a week and I was taking like 600 mg vicadens three times a day LOL.

He was most angry because I used his first name, which only people who have sex with him and his real-life friends know (Vojta), for a character in one of my smut stories. This girl sent that to him, and he sent me a chunk of it which was kind of inspired by something we did, but it wasn't really a true account and he was very mad about that because the girl told him that I was presenting it as a true story, and I wasn't. I had it labeled 'fiction', and I took it down, but he's still ignoring me. I think he's ignoring me at least. If I hear from him at all, it won't be until the 30th of August or something before they leave for South America.

Anyway, I think I know who's stalking me. It's this 14/15-year-old girl who I added recently on myspace. I saw she had met him but I didn't know that she was going around calling him her boyfriend and writing all this shit about him on her facebook. I have no idea how she got his email. My guess is Helmuth. He gives pretty much anybody Vojta's email. It's really annoying sometimes.

Ouch! Why?

Someone announced on another chat forum the name of the person I'm dating, so now that thread comes up if you search for his stage name and I asked him if he would edit his post so that it wouldn't come up but he's being a dick and won't do it and I already explained that it's something my boyfriend would be totally pissed about. Shit. And the worst part is he thought it would be cool to just post a pic of my bf too, and so that comes up as the third image result. I am so fucking pissed. I nearly got everything cleaned up so that nobody could stalk me under Arcana Hereticae but that shit's still up and it's the third image!

BAD! AGH! Boyfriend and I are having a disagreement, because one of his younger fans is stalking me on the internet (note the name change on my mibba and all the comment editing I've been doing in order to get his name and references to him out). But I guess he doesn't have internet at his home anymore and the only times he can talk to me is when he's in Abtenau, so I never hear from him anymore except for an argument or a response to something I was angry about. It is really hard to work things out over email. :/ How are you?

oh so it is a kalf? D:

Thank you. :]

Yeah, it's pretty obvious, lol.

Hah, thanks for the picture comment. And why yes, they were Band Perry lyrics, from If I Die Young. :)

You have a Gaslight Anthem theme and a Gaslight Anthem layout.
Therefore, you are awesome.

Thank you for the photo comment, it kind of made my day. :D