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thank you for the photo comment (:

You should come study abroad here or something. :D

It's not as cool as being European though. I love this place.

LOL yeah. It's my mothertongue. :D

She and I speak German, but she speaks English as well.

Okay, so maybe one of 4 or 5. I forgot about my bestie from France. She speaks really good German.

:/ That's what I want to do. But it doesn't work like that. And Oh-Powerful-Goddess/Grandmother of the Rotary inbounds of Austria is upset with me because I'm not going, mainly because I'm one of 3 out of 90 exchange students who bothered to become fluent, and she's disappointed that I won't be around. Idk.

My rotary club is trying to send me on a Eurotour for two weeks. I would be okay with this, but it takes place during the week I was planning on travelling around the North with my boyfriend, and since I don't know when I'll get to see him again after. . .eh. First day is in Prague though. He might be in town, but idk 100%. But, I really want to go to Amsterdam, and back to Venice, and they're both stops. And we would also be going to Paris. :( Really hard!

Gawwwd. That really sux. :(

Yeah. Just in pain. Boyfriend is still touring. :( Dislike. Dating a rockstar is over-rated.

Yeah, hey. Sorry I was in the hospital all last week with appendicitus. I missed a hell of a lot of deadlines for contests and now I have an angry mob coming after me. LOL

awh. xD Thank you very much. :D so are you! and I totally dig that ninja turtle sweatshirt you have

I'm hoping that I'm right about him being a grown-up. It he ends up like all my exes (and we end up having to break up over something stupid like this), I'll be really disappointed in him, and it's a huge deal because he's the bassist in one of my favorite bands. Idk if I'll be able to listen to their music again, if it ends up being shitty. You know what I mean? It would just remind me of him. Maybe my expectations are too high, but he's almost 30: I expect him to be decent.

He hasn´t written me back yet, but I am assuming that he is busy since he said that he would be travelling around Czech with his mom before he went back on tour. I should hear from him eventually. I just hope it doesn´t sound something like, "yeah. You´re annoying." or whatever. LOL?

I am still asking him what the Hell he meant by that, and explaining that it came out rather harsh-sounding.

We met at his show, where I was his groupie. :)
he just wrote something really weird to me today. I mentioned that I couldn't come to his gig in Prague because I have a ballet gig of my own and he said, "That's fine. I don't want you to come to that gig anyway." WTF?! Now I'm mad. LOL And I was in bliss for the last 5 days. :/ I'm going to beat him up next time I see him. Or at least keep telling myself that until I do see him, and am just so happy to hear his voice again, that I'm not angry anymore. Fangirls are the worst. I secretly enjoy the fact that they're jealous though. Is that bad?

He's a sweetie, to be honest. But he never gives interviews for the band or gives his perspective, so he's rather mysterious to the fangirls. They just see this guy, who's presented as the mysterious hottie of the band (Helmuth's ingenious marketing techniques), and they think, "he must be this evil dark prince who'll punish me. . .and damn he's a beast!" But he's not like that at all. He's so shy. If he wants to do something new during sex, he usually makes vague mentionings of various fetishes until I'm tempted to ask him if he wants to do that, then he retreats and says, "ugh. No." And then it's silent for a while until I say, "just do it." He is really shy and self-conscious. I like that I get into gigs of one of my favorite bands for free, and I get V.I.P. treatment as if I am a part of the band. They even ask me my perspective when writing, and it's really cool to be a part of that process.
The girls are annoying though. There's no end to my paranoia whenever he goes on tour. I don't know if he's having sex with anyone or not, and I can't reasonably expect him to wait for me for a year or two or whenever I come back to Europe once I go back to the states. But, whenever girls post pics of themselves with him on the Belphegor page and there's this talk of all the things (sexual) they would like to do with him, and then it becomes a multi-groupie discussion, it is really annoying. I do engage in that with Manson fans, but it's a little different because his girlfriends aren't usually average janes like me. They're actresses or models, so they're used to the public speculation. But at shows when we're surrounded by groupies trying to get with my bf, and it's revealed that I'm his girlfriend, you can kind of tell with some of them that their entire opinion of me has changed and we're not going to get along. It can be lonely sometimes when he's away for soundcheck or performing. But, it's a great experience nonetheless, and Vojta is a great guy. I wish I could stay here with him.

Great. But I got lost in Golling for three hours and now i'm in trouble for using the internet in order to get in contact with my boyfriend for new directions. (His were vague and didn't mention that I was supposed to ride a bus for a half hour before I am actually in Abtenau.) There wasn't much sleeping either, since I lost three hours with him. And Helmuth left before I could offer him the gift I brought for him. (I brought a bottle of jägermeister for us to share.) I seriously slept from 3 pm yesterday to 10 am this morning. LOL

But didn't work on it today, because I just got back from a trip to see my boyfriend. :) I miss him already. :(

I decided to paint a portrait of a mask of my own designing. :) Working on that in my extra art class.