So Jakey died today.They didn't expect him to make it through the weekend...turns out they were right.Everyone is still pussyfooting around me. It's driving me crazy.They're treating me either like a charity case or like I'm some sort of crazy bomb, that could detonate at any given moment.They just don't believe me when I say "I'm fine."I really am, though.After my brief chat with Jakey the other...

He's in a coma. And it's all my fault.I can't lose him. I...I just can't.The other night I had a dream. It was that recurring nightmare again, except it was slightly different.This time, it was Jakey and me.He drove.We crashed.He died.The next morning, he rang me. I told him about the dream.He laughed.Later on, I was at his place, seeing him before he left.I was still really worried about my...

Yeahh well.This is basically just gunna be a big rant about everything that's gone wrong.If it's gunna piss you off, don't read on.One.Just tell me where I went wrong. Give me a sign, a hint, a clue. Whisper it in my ear. Write it down for me. S p e l l i t o u t . Whatever - just let me know what's failing.I feel like I'm barely holding on to you with my fingertips.Things still feel the same as...

Claire leaves tomorrow. It's kinda hard to grasp the feeling that this time tomorrow, my best friend will be hundreds and hundreds of miles away.It's a new kind of lonliness.*********************************************************My Year Ten Formal was last night.I usually dread those sorta things. But I had heaps of fun.Actually, it was the most fun I'd had in a while. I laughed a lot &&...

Well. It's 9.46am, 23rd November. And I'm already scared shitless.- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - This whole business with Jim comes down to tonight. Nothing scares me more than him. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -...