I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia ive been told that the man thats been raping me for 3 yrs of my life is all in my head and that my symptoms are becoming worse they tried to check me in to a mental hospitle last night (again) but i didnt meet criteria apperantly i have to want to kill myself or others to get in. So my family and counclors all think im insane great right? This is slowly becoming...

please help just give me a word or anything just help im dieing every time i try to write i write about my boyfriend i need a new topic please just give me an idea its been months since i could really write just comment and give me anything even just a song title just please im begging...wow i sound pathetic but gosh i need help :( thank you if you actually comment ill do w/e you want me to well...

is it bad i find murdering people hot? i cant get my boyfriend beating someones head in with a baseball bat out of my head, no he didnt but its like a fantasy of mine should i tell my councelor about this facination? i really dont want to go back to the mental hospitle maybe its the masochist inside me.... or maybe im just a sick freak you know most expect me to become a serial killer...but id...