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http://stories.mibba.com/read/313568/Teenage-Lullabies/
if you want a good story
check that
my friends writing it

Sooo sorry for replying to your comment almost a year later! I just checked my comments. Lol, but I wanted to say thank you for welcoming me.:] My name is Jessie by the way.:]

THOMASANTHONY TODAY IS A GOOD DAY..
tonight is a good night?
NOCLUEWHYI'MDOINGTHIS
yu know i always told yu good things,
so i feel compelled to do so.

mop e a nop dop jop o sop hop a rop e top o gop e top hop e rop!
lop i kop e i mop nop o top sop u rop e i fop wop e rop e lop e gop i tpo
BUTTTTT
i mop hop a pop pop yop


i have no one to use our language wi :[
except diana
but shes SO SLOW
it takes forever.

i miss yuuu
<3

so i was out with ryan today,
we went to the city and it was FREEZING.
but not the point of the story.
so we're at this place just getting lunch and he just randomly goes,
"MY MOM MADE THE BEST CHOCOLATE CAKE THE OTHER DAY!"
and i automatically thought of you.
when you ate that whole chocolate cake.
and i was legit cracking up.
and ryan was like, "that's funny becasue?..."
so obviously i told him why i was really laughing.
and i ended up just telling him all about you, lol.
i couldn't help it, haha.
i forgot how much i like talking about you.
so i think i'm gonna do that more often.
cause i'm in like the best mood now
and i think YOU have something to do with it (:
just thought you'd like to know that.
i'm doing a lot better than i was the other day as you can tell.
i'm talking about everything more, and it's surprisingly helping.
just know i'm still thinking about you (:
i always am.
i love you babe, always<3

Heyz!
How are you?

some niner screamed DENKKKSS TIPS! in the hall today & I thought of yu
so
denksss tips haha
:]

so basically, i just realize how mad i still am.
like why?
do you realize how much i still think about you everyday?
do you?
a whole fucking lot.
that's how much.
do you know how many nights i just just sat up in my room crying
cause i realized that i'd never get the chance to see you
or hold you, or anything in general with you.
that kills me, still tommy.
still.
somedays are better than others, but as you can tell today isn't one of those better ones.
i love you so much and i think that's why this is all so fucking hard for me.
like i didn't ask for this.
at all.
this wasn't supposed to happen.
this wasn't supposed to happen at all.
it's all like some horrible friggen dream that i just can't wake up from.
i'm sick of it frankly.
i'm sick of crying about it, i really am.
i don't wanna cry over you anymore.
i don't.
it hurts way too much.
i hate missing you, i really do.
but you know that.
and now i miss you more than i ever have.
ever.
it's like i can't be completely 100% happy anymore.
i can't be entirely happy without you.
i just can't.
you were what made me happy more than anything
and you know it.
i miss you so much babe.
i'm trying so hard to be good and not think this way.
but i can't help it.
i can't.
i wanna be good, and just think about the good like you wanted me to,
and trust me i'm trying.
but sometimes i just can't.
cause i think of the opporunities i'll never have that i wanted more than anything.
and it sucks.
it really fucking sucks.
but i need to end this now.
because you know i hate being mad at you.
and i can never stay mad at you for long.
and by long i mean the duration of this comment.
i miss you, a ton.
and i love you<3
always<3.

Thomas Anthony,
I was on the phone wi di just now & she was telling me this is a great way to vent
& I was just thinking about the time when her & I broke into yur room
hahah omg I'm like cracking up cuz I just realized how many times we did to yu
I'm sorry, lmfao
the time I'm talking about is when yu were in Quebec for a long weekend
and me & Diana camped out in yur room and completely
TRASHED
it.
I just reminded her the story & she's laughing really hard
so that's good!
I miss yu Tommy,
<3

heyyy i need to tell you something,
as much as i didn't want to at first.
i'm taking yours and what feels like everyone elses advice and i started dating again.
so i went snowboarding a couple weeks ago and met this guy named ryan.
and to say things have been really good since then is kind of an understatement.
he's soo sweet, and nice (:
my grandpa's still a little skeptical, but that's to be expected.
so basically, to get back to my story,
i just told him all about you.
i felt like he deserved to know.
i forgot how much i like talking about you to other people (:
i remembered soo many good things about you,
i figured that's what you'd want.
ryan's a really good listener,
kinda like you (:
and he understands completely.
he's gone through something scarily similar to what i am.
i find that kind of weird, but kind of telling at the same time.
just felt like i should tell you that.
and that i haven't forgotten you,
i never could.
and i'll always love you<3
but you know that (:
i'm finally starting to feel happy again.

i think that if you were here right now,
you'd have someones ass at this moment.
i don't know how to react, i mean i encouraged it..
does that make me a shitty person?
at this point you'd probably be giving me shit,
but hey..
you're not here to do that so..
yeah.
i don't get how its so easy for them to just move on,
its like you weren't much of anything to them.
this is my outlet for now..
until i can move my limbs again,
at which point i'll be seeing you.
i made quite the mess at St.James'
or so i've been told.
joshuas here now, and bitching at me for the above written.
i still think that they've forgotten and moved on,
you'd probably agree with me i think.
i'm ending this now,
though i'll probably write more later since you're really the only person i feel like talking too right now.
<3

i'm angry,
then again.. when am i NOT angry anymore?
i'm also quite surprised i can move my fingers to type, since i can't quite move any other part of my body.
shit you'd be so pissed if you were here..
i slipped again, i guess.
i'm not going to say that i didn't mean it, this time.
because i completely and totally did.
i'm still trying to figure out how they found me,
but my minds all foggy.
they've got me on oxycotin,
oh the irony of that.
pain killers are a wondrous thing,
but you would know that.
GOD i'm a bitch.
they've got me on surveillance like i'm a serial killer or something.
not sure if i'm talking shit right now,
i feel like i'm the only one who fucking misses you anymore.
maybe its the meds talking?
maybe not.
the only things i think about nowadays are you, izzi, allie, ashlynn, ashleey, dustin, skyler, breedon, mikayla, branden, and marissa.
it really sucks, you know?
i've got a headache,
and i don't know what to tell you anymore.
my nurse is yelling at me, and it absolutely sucks because i can't speak.
we've messed up pretty big, huh?
well.. i've messed up, you're already beyond the valley of messing up.
the therapist is here right now,
and asking me what sent me overboard this time.
i think its the fact that life is moving on without you..
if that makes any sense.
i don't know why this woman is asking me questions when i clearly cant speak.
my chest hurts,
hell my whole body hurts.
i feel like throwing up,
but thats normal.
i miss you so much,
and i wont forget you.
can't move on again.
really sucks, huh?
i'll see you soon brotherbear <3

Rip :(
<3

happy new yearrrr!

happy new year babe<3
miss you more than you know.
midnight tonight just felt weird without you i love you so much, always<3

happy new year.. or yeah.
idk

so this is totally random,
but i just feel compelled to tell you
so here it goes,
okay so this morning my mom was complaing about how we have no food in the house cause well, my hungry italian relatives ate it all lol.
anyways, so she decided this morning that she wanted to go to costco and get some food for the house.
so naturally i go with her
cause costco is awesome.
and then i remembered how we used to talk about how much we love costco
and the free samples
all the time (:
ahhhh<3
i miss you, a lot.
but thinking of you today
with the free samples and costco
made me really happy
idk why but it did.
so i just thought i'd let you know that i was thinking about you (:
i always am, but that one instance came to mind.
i miss you so much babe<3
and i love you, always<3

merry christmas brother bear,
i miss you.
christmas isn't the same without you around,
theres no one to fight with over cake.
it may sound like a good thing, but quite frankly, its upsetting.
love you,
miss you a shitload.
<3

happy christmas bro
yer missed

hey babe (:
just wanted to wish you a merry christmas.
and tell you that i love you<3
AND
hahaha, i got a kitten for christmas from my parents (:
i'm super to name it tj
for tommy junior (:
he's soo cute.
you would love him.
cause i do
(:
alright i'm gonna stop rambling.
i love youuuu<3