naa but my parents r super strict (another reason we dont get along) i hav to get straight A's in all my classes or im grounded thats how bad it is they dont even kno i hav a profile on this site theyd kill me if they knew lol =) so if u called they be like who the hell are you tlkn to and if i explained theyd kill me sayin "YOU SHOULDNT TALK TO PEOPLE YOU DON"T KNOW!" yea.........owell lol
im glad it makes u feel good lol im always here whenever u wanna talk about anything idc if it has meaning or if its just plain random haha i have ALOT of random conversations w/ppl lol =)
i already took him back as soon as he asked me...i couldn't help it....he had asked me back so soon, i didn't have time to get over him enough.....things are going ok now, but im scared still.....and thanks =) yay i hav a best friend! lol =)
i've already read them lol i was interested in ur story and mine is long its basically because me and my family just dont get along, people are complete jerks to me at school (even tho i hav many friends but i dnt hav a best friend which i really wish i did), and i was at my lowest when my boyfriend dumped me after 4 1/2 months. i felt like i had been stabbed in the back with a thousand knives, and i couldnt breathe, the only thing i could say was "what am i gonna do" over and over. i felt like dying. i truly did. the worst part was he didnt give me a clear reason y he did it. i still dont know if i can completely understand. but it was a very short period of time when he asked me back, but i am terrified now that he is going to hurt me again. i cry almost every night in fear of heartbreak. i love him and i think he loves me, but im the paranoid type of person. i believe history repeats itself. im scared. and then me and my mom are the worst. we cant get along and she thinks im some slut or whore (even though i swore off sex til marriage bcuz of really two things but still i swore i wouldnt do it) i feel bad about myself constantly and i am extremely self-conscious. i always hav my arms crossed but i just say i am cold. really i am scared of wut ppl think and im scared to be hurt that prty much sums it up for the most part
yea its kinda a good/bad kinda thing, ur glad u can hav someone to talk to who gets where ur comin from, but u dnt want other ppl to hav to go through that much pain
yea, thats kinda like me. if i could only be remembered for one thing i would want to be remembered as the girl who could brighten anyone's day, even when she couldn't brighten her own. if i could be remembered like that, then my life isn't a total waste.
yea i get it, i've only really been depressed once and it wasn't for long, but i felt the pain, and i thought those thoughts, and i just try to find something good about each day, whether its just getting a smile from a friend or just having my favorite food at lunch, anything to remind me that life isn't all that bad, and i write to feel better, thats y i joined this site and I just pray to God every night and I'm not going to be a preacher, but that makes me feel a whole lot better because I think you hav to believe in something...otherwise what's the point of anything? but yeah hahaha sorry for the rant i enjoy talking about my problems sorry haha =)
Awww.....I cal it the lol disorder. lmao. Yesh Vampire Knight is AWESOME!! XD SO wats up? Totally found ur page by chance...or is it fate? dun dun dun...wat was I sayin? lol. Heehee. SO yea..watch dooinn? :D