today i shed my last tear over herthe song "you could be happy" by snow patrol brought me back to the memories i had with herno one could cheer me up when I'm feeling down, ngan tried with her jokes but it made my emotions deepen :[my mum could tell that i was crying, i tried to hide it and cover it up by saying i caught hay fever from boxing. its pretty unrealistic catching spring alleges during...

pain my entire life revolves around pain, the only reason why i try to succeed to the fear of pain associated when i fail. this pain is so common to me it has become apart of me. my pain will never leave, it would just evolve and stay. some times pain is good, its inspiration, the pain gives me something to write on. the fear of pain pushes me through life, and that's the only reason why i...

im slowly being deprived from my articulate witting skillsthe thought of it just drives me insaneim going to use this journal to vent since i dont have any where else to releaseeverything's getting complicated and confusingevery ones acting different, like Ive been away for a whilei dont know what to write about any morei found who i want to befound who i ambut some how i still feel lostmaybe...

its been a while since i was under the knife by my own powerby my own consenti broke the cycle of not bleedingthe sensation was entirely fear, depression and brokennessas i close the door behind me and became indulged in my sadnessi turn the music no so loud that my mother could not hear my screams and tearsas i execute the procedurei broke a shaver exposing the razorplace the tip of it on to my...

I'm just waiting and watching as it fallsmum says he has till may to complete his promisei know deep down that he wouldn't do iti is now 8 years since he made that promise to useight years too longeverything's going to change after maywhat hits me is that he has till the 15th of may15that's the date that i agreed to go out with salena15that's how old i was when mum gave dad the dead line15seems...

my decisions is finalI'm staying single till after year twelvei hope i could make it that fari already made promises to friends and my self that i would do soi had never believed in intimate high school relationshipsand i don't think i could possibly work for memy dreams of becoming an engineer would consolidate if i just stick to this promise and focusit cant be that hard...but the temptations...

i started my chemistry tutor today everything is sophisticatedbut im holding on alrightthe conversion from year 10 to senior is harder then i thought it would bei was an A student, to a averageim starting to party more now since its year 11i promised myself i wouldent party as muchwhats the point of making promises when your ending up breaking themim still not over my ex yeti guess ill never beso...

its dark and rainy todayjust the way i like it to beeven though its dark and gloomyi feel as if i belongno ones there and I'm alone to my selfi just crashed on my bed staring at the ceilingthoughts crawls in to my headflashes of episodes from the past reapers in my mindwith it bring back feelings and emotionsI'm still being hunted by the pastthe intentions of picking up a blade and cutting my arm...