I know I'm not okay. My heart is broken, my eyes are always filled with tears. I have makeup stains galore on my pillow. I haven't wanted to get out of bed, but my friends and family are forcing me. I wore his necklace he gave me everyday, and now it is hanging on a hook near my head. I had the date we started dating written on my wall. I have to now find something to cover it up. My heart is shattered, and all my friends are trying but they are failing and it is taring me to shreds. I just can't do this.
I had a problem with cutting, and he helped me stop that, he dumped me, and I now have 32 cuts on my hip and two on my wrist. I told my friend about it at like midnight last night, and he called me and listened to me cry my eyes out. I can't be the strong girl anymore. Because I'm not that strong.
My boyfriend just broke up with me last night. He enlisted in the marines last night, and leaves in a year, he thought breakingup now would be better than later on in the future. I'm broken.