Ha, boys suck all of the time. I'm on the phone with the moron right now. he isn't saying a single word. I'm just sitting here.. What makes it worse, is I haven't been able to run to the pharmacy to get my depression meds. So my self esteem, and brain all are messed up.. I called myself hideous.. Out of nowhere (dumb me) he says nothing.. He even heard me.. He just grunted.. I'm like.. k. you're cool.
Thanks :/ I still feel like one though.
And yeah, we talked last night, and he promised no more partying, or drinking. He's like.. I am the luckiest guy to have you as my girlfriend. And blah blah blah :P Then he went on to say that he does love me a lot. Feels like shit. And all that jazz. Then he went all sweetheart and said the next two girls I will ever love will be our two daughters. --cute-- ^.^ But yeah, my relationship is still on the rocks.
-.- dumbass high schoolers. They just make it so much harder than life should really be.
Just everything. He is getting too jealous about everything now.. It's almost hard to have a normal friendship with some of my exes, because he gets so jealous. It also seems like this weekend.. I went to a school dance, and a guy asked me to dance, and I politely declined, because of my boyfriend. When I realize that I should've danced with the guy, because my own boyfriend was too busy drinking/getting drunk to care that another guy called me a cunt.
Yeah, it sucked that bad. So according to some guy, I'm a cunt, and a bitch. The guy who wanted to dance is now extremely flirty with me. And my boyfriend? He just seems unenthusiastic about everything.
--sorry i haven't been on in a while---
but i am not up to anything.. wait.. yes i am.. fighting with my boyfriend, and about to cry my eyes out, because obviously i am a stupid girl.
I just got back from me neighbors gaff, he's a good lad, we watched football on the telly and ate some sandwiches (: He said I remind him of his boy, which made me feel kinda sad, because I guess his lad killed himself when he was 17 0.0