This entry is for Cody, i have to say this, you make me so happy.Happier then I've been in a long long time, it almost makes me cry.I feel like I'm in a dream, a really good dream, suffocating from my own emotion's and still breathing because of you and my amazing friend kie!!If it wasn't for you guys, I'd probably be watchin my own funeral. Iknow how dramatic that sound's but its the truth.Cody...

i have to give up, my brother dies, i'm rejected by my own family. i feel empty, and i just hate school right now, i know it sounds selfish but i wish everyone would stop trying to care. i'm done, i can't bare to face anyone of my friend's at school. i give up. i'm done. i can't stand school right now and i just wish i could die but i have to many people holding me back, i just wish they'd stop!...

have you ever had those day's where you wish you could see that person, hold them and kiss them but you can't because there either not your's or out of your reach?well i know that a little to well, i hat ethis feeling but i'm glad i can have it.not every body has the chance to feel how i feel and though its a painful feeling its the bitter sweet agony i love to wake up to everyday of my life...