If it helps you in the end, it's defeat :D just calling in for backup.
And... uh... yeah.. going outside was really the best thing I had in my arsenal... It will get better soon, I promise :D Even if it doesn't seem like it
that's awesome! i was obsessed with learning how to scream a few years ago but i gave up cuz i couldnt do it and i hate those high pitched screams anyways